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My Heart Cried Out by Ruth D. Gallant

There is only one dream I pray to come true and that is to gain the ability to walk again. To be able to go beyond my own yard and to walk amongst other people in order to say, "Hello", to a stranger. To go to the park to sit and take in even more blessings of the Lord in the flowers, trees and even a small stream that flows there. On a day that this ability had not yet happened for me, and still hasn't until this day; I wrote this poem for I haven't given up hope my dream will happen someday for me, I just keep praying.

This poem just goes to prove that just because I have accepted this pain as part of my life it doesn't make everyday easy or the kind of day I desire it to be. My faith and hope lies in the Lord, and nothing will ever change that. Even if I never get beyond the short walks I take now, just to be able to still walk some allows me to know how blessed I am and how perfect I am not. I still need His help.

~ My Heart Cried Out ~

I was standing in the doorway
Looking out into the world
Which at time feels so far away
I saw many people passing by
And my heart cried out.

It cried out knowing that
I too wanted to be out there
Enjoying a walk through nature
Not lying on the couch again
Or sitting in my easy chair.

"How stupid", my mind said
"You know you will only pay
The attempt you make tonight
Will only end up creating
More pain for you again."

My heart cried out, "Me too Lord,
I want to be out there
I want to walk and enjoy nature
See and talk to people
Not be stuck in this world here."

Yesterday the sun was shining
So on trembling legs I went
Out for a walk, just a few houses
But is seemed like hours spent
Not really going anywhere.

When I got back to my house
The agony had already begun
I could feel the pain increasing
My mind said, "You are so foolish"
And again my heart cried out.

How do I get beyond this loss
Something that for many comes with ease
Why does my greatest joy in life
Have to bring such pain and misery
And again my heart cried out.

There is only so much one can see
From a door or window to the world
My heart cries out to simply walk again
Just that alone would be enough
I would gladly carry the rest of my pain.

I do not ask God for a miracle
I don't want this pain to totally end
I simply want to gain a little part of me
That has been lost to all this pain
All I ask is to simply to be able to walk again.

So I wipe the tears from my eyes for now
As I stand looking out into the world
I return again to my blanket and the couch.
A smile I put on my face, the pain I try to look beyond
It's time to once again forget what for now is still gone.

Written by Ruth D.Gallant
Dated and Witnessed as my creation
April 28, 2000

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