| Title: Through the eyes of a child Part: Four Rated: R By Spanky Content Warning: Child abuse and mention abuse towards Johnny Previously: Roy and Jo are afraid that Johnny has a brain Tumor ........ Station 51 possible jumper, Murry's Junior High, Murry's Junior High school, Time out 11:08, blared from the speakers. Johnny threw Roy a glare as he slid into the passenger seat of the squad, His mind turned wondering how he could get around talking to Roy. He didn't have long to comtemplate his problems as they pulled up to the school A goup of teachers and students stood on the sidewalk, watching a young girl inch her way across one of the upper tiers of the utility tower." John, Roy you'd better move it." Stanley shouted, as the paramedics jumped from the squad. Roy and Johnny were securing their safty belts when one of the teachers ran up to them" It's Becka Williams, I thought she had gone to the bathroom, and then the next thing I know she's up there." The distraught teacher explained, winging her hands. " Yes ma'me, everything will be alright, Now step back and give up room to work." Roy assured her calmly. Roy and Johnny made short work of climbing the tower. They stopped and backed off as Becka screamed and took a step to the edge. " How do you want to work this ?" Roy asked Johnny quietly. " You go down to the tier below us, I'll work my way out to her and then we can lower her to the ground." Johnny kept his voice low also. As Roy climbed back down to the lower tier, Johnny inched very slowly towards Becka, talking to her the whole time. " Becka it's Johnny Gage, Do you remember me sweet heart?" " Please Mr. Gage just leave me a lone, I dont want to live anymore, I just want to die." Becka sobbed. " No you don't sweety, no ten year old wants to die. You have a lot of stuff to do in your life yet." Johnny spoke as soothingly as he could " No you just don't understand I hurt to much, I can't get him to stop hurting me, He hates me so much." Becka stopped to wipe her tears."I saw you the other night you know, why didn't you come and help me?" Becka asked " I'm sorry Becka, but I'm here now. I want to help you." Johnny stopped as Becka took a step out." Becks could we talk, I know how you feel." Johnny tried moving forward a little more. " No you don't no one does, I just want to go and be with my mommy." Becka cried. " Honey I do understand more than you could ever know. I know the kind of pain your suffering, I've been there. Come with me we can call your mommy for you." Johnny offered reaching out for Becka " No you can't, she's in heaven." Becka's words were whispered, seconds before she stepped from the tower as the crowd below screamed out in total panic. " NOOOOOOOO........" Johnny screamed lunging forward and grabbing Becka's arms. " Hurry Roy, I cant hold on for long." Johnny grunted against the strain in his shoulders, as Becka fought and screamed " LET ME GO.......LET ME GO.....PLEASE I WANT TO DIE." The trip down from the tower was done in silence. Becka had laid unmoving, sobbing quietly as they lowered her in the stokes. Johnny made the trip in the ambulance with Becka feeling he had failed her. Afther all he should have done more. He had been there himself. " Treatmeant room 3 Johnny." Dixie ordered, as they wheeled the guerney in. She followed Johnny and the attendent in the room,preparing to help tranfer Becka to the examining table. At first touch of their hands, Becka started screaming and pulled away flying into a corner. " Please downt hurt me." She whimpered. " Shhhhh Becka, no one is going to hurt you , I promise." Johnny soothed Johnny came in from the left as the ambulance attendent circled to the right. No one knew exactly when she had grabbed the scapel, but as the attendent grabbed her, Becka lashed out opening his arm. " Dixie you two have to back off. " Johnny said urgently."Please just leave Becka and I alone." " Johnny that's not such a good idea." Dixie said worriedly. " It's fine Dix." Johnny assured. Once Dixie and attendent left the room, Johnny sat on the floor crossed legged watching Becka." Becka I know your scared, remember I told you that I know what it's like to be that scared? when your to afraid to close your eyes, but to afraid to leave them open. When you don't think the pain will ever go away, when they wont let the pain go away. When you want to cry, but your afraid that if you cry it will get you another beating. I know the hurt Becka, I've felt that kind of hurt." Johnny opened a small part of his sould for this child that was suffering as he once did, and still did. Becka stopped her sobbing and scooted a little closer to Johnny." You do know, How come you know?" Becka wipped her eyes and looked at Johnny." Who hurt you Mr. Gage?" she whispered Johnny was torn, he wanted to help Becka but he didn't want to remember the pain. Looking into Becka's needing eyes once again he saw himself there, and just knew he had to tell her. " Becka when I was very little my parents died so I was sent to live with my uncle, he didn't like me and made sure to remind me of that fact everyday. I carry alot of scars to remind me even today, not just here Becka." Johnny ran his hand across his body. " But here and here also." Johnny laid his hand on his forehead and then across his heart, opening his arms he motioned Becka over. Becka didn't hesitate for a second as she crawled into Johnny's arms and snuggled against his chest. " Oh Mr. Gage I'm sorry." Becka sobbed crying with Johnny, both of them starting to heal together."Why do they hurt us?" Will the pain ever go away? Becka whispered Johnny held her close and gave the only answers he had. " Honey I dont know why they hurt us, it's a small person that hurts another person especially a child. Your pain will go away eventually. I won't llie to you Becka it never all goes away. the pain that is in our hearts and the fear that is in our heads, they stay for a very long time, but with time it gets easier. Johnny held her and hoped that he wasn't giving promises that couldn't be kept. Forty minutes later Johnny exited the treatment room beside the guerney carrying Becka, He held her hand and talked to her softly. " I'll be up tomorrow to see you, I promise." He whispered , kissing Becka on the forehead. Kel Brackett stood beside Roy and Dixie watching Johnny with the battered child. Johnny never stopped amazing him. " I'll tell you Roy that partner of yours never seems to stop amazing me. The girl wouldn't let anyone within a foot of her, then Johnny asked to talk to her alone. I dont know what he said to her, but what ever it was it worked. It's almost like he knew her pain, and was able to give her the comfort that we couldn't. I know that can't be the case, I mean the girl has obviously been abused." Brackett said. They all watched Johnny as he leaned back against the wall, pale and shakey. Very slowly he sank to the floor drawing his knees to his chest a sob. They watched as he wrapped his aums around his knees tightly and buried his face , giving into tears. " Oh Johnny." Dixie whispered, tears welling up in her eyes. " Oh God Kel , I think I know why Johnny understood Becka so well, Johnny knows the pain of abuse feels like. " Roy looked first at his sobbing partner, and then at Dixie and Dr. Brackett. " Dixie how I pray your wrong, but it would explain Johnny's behavior lately." Roy looked back at his best friend sitting in the hallway sobbing." Oh God I want you to be wrong, but deep down I know your're right." Walking up to Johnny quietly Roy crouched at his side, reaching out he attempted to embrace Johnny and stopped when he pulled away." You okay Johnny?" Roy needed comfort his friend he just didn't know how. Looking up, Johnny let the tears run down his face. " I dont think so Roy, I don't think I'll ever be alright." He whispered dropping his head back into his arms. TBC . |