05/03/01 8:15PM - So studying didn't work out so well today. I am supposed to write a paper based on the readings in my Social Deviance class. According to the schedule, we're supposed to be on page 280-something. I'm on page 10. The paper is due next week. Ugh... it's so boring! I should have dropped this class whenI had the chance! Dammit! I can never quite get myself motivated enought to keep reading. I am continuously dozing off...z...z...zzz..zz.z..z I drove to one of the homes of my clients yesterday to work with their kid. As I was leaving, my cr wouldn't start. it just kept making this "tick..tick..tick..tick" noise. I was so bummed. This type of crap WOULD happen to me! SO I had the thing towed to my car repair person. $47.00 for towing! Crazy! I've got to go check and see if I can get it reimbursed with my auto insurance. I felt so bad. I had to use my client's phone. "umm..hello Mrs. L. No I haven't left yet. I've got car touble. May I use your phone?" Geez! They don't even know me that well! I'm still in training! Just my rotten luck. Got my TB test read today. I have the TB virus, but it isn't expressing itself yet. I had to get a chest X-ray done. I get my report back on Monday. I think everything will come back okay, but it's just such a pain in the ass. I hope this doesn't hold me back in any way from my job. I would get REALLY upset if I had to go looking for a new job because of this. ...Which reminds me. I have a test to take tomorrow at work. Drat! Gotta get to reading. I've been pondering about a lot of things in my mind. I really should start writing them down. I just forget every time I get to the keyboard. It totally sucks. My online journal would be so funny and entertaining to read if only I could remember half the stuff I think up. Maybe I need to get myself one of those little palm pilot thingys. Yeah...right! I'd lose it if it weren't attached to my ass. 04/30/01 10:20PM - Decided to go ahead and try to finish what I started. I went out to Target with Emily last week. Being the rebels and party animals that we were, we purchased cleaning supplies and candy. Whoa.... I introduced her to Scrubbing bubbles and Lysol Toilet bowl cleaner (the one with the nozzle that tilts up so you don't have to aim under the toilet seat). She now thinks that I'm the greatest! - and that toilet bowl cleaners with that upside down nozzle, and scubbing are just the greates things since sliced bread! =) I was so upset that I couldn't seem to find Toilet/Bathroom duck anywhere. It was the first line of toilet bowl cleaners that had that upside down nozzle thingy. I don't think the manufacturers make it anymore. It was so disheartening... more so since I have started developing a fondess for things that have ducks. Am I developing a duck fetish? Perhaps. I'm SO hungry. I had a massive migraine this afternoon and slept from like 5 till 8:30PM. Everyone kept calling. I think over a 45 min period I had like 5 calls. I am beginning to think that people are stalking me and watching over my house. They know when I'm taking a nap and purposely call my house when I'm sleeping just to punish me for existing in this world. It's not like I get enough sleep as it is, but they wish to deprive me even more so. The cruelty of it all. I woke up at 5:45Am this morning. I got to sleep at about 2AM. Not bad. It could have been worse. I could have slept at 4AM...that would have sucked. I'm getting distracted now. I'm going to go. 04/30/01 1:36AM - I'm typing witout my glasses or contacts in, so this should be interesting. I'm too lazy to run upstairs and get them. It's not like it matters anyway. Nobody really reads this crap, do they? I don't want to talk about my auto insurance claim. Those bastards are pissing me off! I've been training for my new job. Fri, Sat, Sun 9AM-5PM. Damn. I dropped my 9:35AM class to get an extra hour of sleep too! Tomorrow I work from 8:30-5PM. I also have to take my dad to the airport at 6AM. 3hours of sleep. Tomorrow should be interesting... I work with autistic kids. They're really cool. I find them more entertaining when they're throwing tantrums and are kicking and screaming - rather than when they're bored or understimulated. When they get bored, I get worried. Perhaps these are warning signs of a possible masochist personality type within me. Came home today and took at nap at 7PM. Woke up around 11:30PM - I'm screwed. I can't sleep now. I was going to write a far more interesting entry, but this typing without glasses on is starting to annoy me - so g'night! 04/29/01 12:45AM - Fucking auto insurance Nazis are pissing me off!!! 04/26/01 2:48PM - Supposed to be studying for a midterm, but I really don't feel like it. I am kind of pissed. The claims adjuster called regarding my settlement, and she was going to offer me a puny amount that would just barely cover my medical expenses. That kinda put a damper on my day - so I decided to ease my woes with shoopping. I bought a few things (mostly gifts for other people). I'm sure my wallet will feel the burden of my splurging prees at the end of the month. The adjuster just caught me off guard, and she was such a bitch to me. I am having my stser take care of it for me. She can be a btter bitch than I can be. I can only act like a bitch when I dislike someone. She can be a bitch on cue. I bought the latest Janet Jackson CD yesterday. it's a bit weird and disappointing, but perhaps it will grow on me like The Velvet Rope did. That's what I'm hoping for. I'd be pissed if I wasted $12.99 on a CD I didn't like. Think of all the food I could have bought for that price!!! I am taking an Eating Disorders class this quarter. It's a very interesting class, but I always find that I am SO hungry afterwards - and craving all these bad foods. The other day we had a 2-day discussion about fat and how unhealthy processed foods were. I had 2 hot dogs and 2 slices of pieces of pizza (on respective days). Today I was a bit more behaved. I had a sandwich instead. I've gained 5 lbs since the start of this quarter!!! Geez!!! Summer is right around the quarter and I'm so not in shape to go to the beach in a bikini. I have such horrible thoughts of little kids pointing at me, laughing, and yelling "beached whale!!!" Okay - so that might be a bit extreme - in any case, I've got to start using my little ab slider thingy. I did buy it for a reason, right? I still refuse to diet - I just have to add exercise to my regimine. Me? Diet? Yeah right!!! I like food WAY too much! The batteries just ran out of my portable CD player. Dammit! I have extra betteries..in my car... in the parking lot...all the way on the other side of campus and 1 shuttle ride away... DAMMIT!!! I'll just have to wait until tomorrow to make use of my CD palyer again... *sigh* Woes..me... 04/23/01 (cont) - He said he would help me deferr my $2000 deductible and spread out my payment. Yeah right! With student loans and bills, how the heck am I going to afford a $2000 deductible? He was like "Come on, I know you're a college student, and that you probably go out and party, and buy alcohol and whatnot.." That totally pissed me off! I SO not do that crap (beacuse I don't have time for it), and he knew it! he totally knew that my life revolved around work, and school. So I'm not going back to him anymore. he's just out to suck money out of people's pockets. What an asshole. So I'm really hoping I can get a good settlement that would allow me to get some more treatment for my back beacuse it sucks that I can't really lay out comfortably on the beach. *pooh* And you kow what? He's not going to get one red cent freom me!!! So of my two Friday interviews I got one Job offer, and one more that I'm waiting to hear from. The second interviewer said she had more applicants to interview and that she would let me know by this coming Wed. I think I'm going to go ahead and take the job offer I got. I would be working with autistic kids in their homes. Pretty neat. I'd be making a difference in this world. Kinda cool. The send interview was for a job with the Psychology department at UCSD. I would be distributing and collecting surveys. "Big whoop." Monday's interview was for a position to tutor high school students at a learning center. eech... I'm very excited! I'm so happy that I'm finally doing something that will help me shape my life and has something to do with my major! The best part is that I would be able to relocate to their NYC office if I wanted to move out there. Now that's what I call planning for the future! Before I move to NYC, I want a Down comforter and a duvet cover. I want a pretty, lovely, but not to girlish room. I digress. I am kinda in the mood to take pictures, but I shall have to wait until this monster zit I got today disappears from my nose. Appealing, eh? I'm not vain, and I usually hate taking pictures, but since I got my haircut, i feel like a "new me," and I want to show myself to the world. Pretty cheezy, but hey! That's why this is MY journal and MY personal website! Perhaps this is a sign of more confidence in myself? I hope so. I could use some. It's 12:30AM, I have to wake up at 7AM, and laundry isn't done yet - which means I can't sleep yet. Crap! .. there's still one more load to put in the dryer too! Damn.... Yesterday I just felt like vegging. I spent most of the morning in my bed, and the rest of the day roaming around my house in my PJ's. That's one good thing about being single - you get to do nothing all day, look like crap, and not give a flying fuck! =) Today was quite the opposite. I went to Earth Day with my sister and her freind Pam. We went on this toal "freebie frenzy," and my the end of the morning (we started at like 10AM, and stopped at like 1:30PM), we had eached scored about 7 free bottles of water and some assorted free stuff. My back was HURTING from carrying those bottles of water!!! We then went to Horton Plaza and I totally scored there. I got SUEDE boots from Banana Republic that were originally $178.00, for just a little over $17.00. how cool is that?? Then I also got 2 PJ sets from The Gap for $9.99 each. These are PJ SETS!! With top and bottom. I done good today. I just need to start my job now so I can pay off the bills. If everything works out, I start training this coming Thurs! I'm so stoked! |