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04/23/01 12:05AM - It's past midnight on a Sunday evening...and I'm doing laundry. Wow... golly gee whiz! How exciting. I am still hurting a little form my accident last May. Every once in a while I get muscle spasms and muscle crams in my back and necj area. It's hard from me to even lie down on a flat surface sometimes. I'm supposed to get an estimate settlement offer sometime tomorrow. Hopefully it will be good, and I will be able to afford some continuing chiropractic treatment. One thing is for sure, I'm not going to go back to my old chiropractor. He totally pissed me off. The main reason he released me was not becuase I had recuperated but because "my insurance has paid out pretty much all that they're going to pay out." That blows. then he continued to harass me for weeks asking me to come in and get continuing treatment. (cont...)
04/20/01 12:30PM - One interview down today, one more to go. I also have one more interview set up for Mon - but I don't think I'm going to take the job. I'll just go - then politely turn them down when they offer me a job. =) Yesterday I had Korean BBQ with Emily. Yummy Yum! Guess what I'm eating for lunch today? Lefotver Korean BBQ. It's just not the same without the kimchee, but ti's yummy just the same. The Korean club at UCSD was selling bulgogi plates at the vendor fair all this week. $5.00 for a plate of rice, two puny pieces of meat, kimchee, and a soda. I turned them down and got some REAL FOOD at a restaraunt instead. mmmm... Can't wait for my microwave to tell me it's lunch time.
I swear I've been grocery shopping almost every day this week. I keep forgetting to pick up stuff - of I'm coincidently hanging out with someone who needs to go grocery shopping. Weird. I've spent so much money at Vons, Ralphs, 99 Ranch Market, and Albertson's this week. I don't think I'll have any money left over to go out and watch movies! I thought I was done on Tues (my 3rd shopping trip of the week - including SUN), then my dad tells me he needs bread. Yesterday Emily said she needed groceries - so I got dad bread. Emily's dad id having a B-day thingy tonight and I'm invited. he likes to cook so I've got to runover to 99 Ranch Market and pick up some special dried mushrooms as a B-day gift. *sigh* It just never ends. By next week, the check out clerkks and I ought to be on a first name basis!
I was getting ready today at the gym for my interview. I had worked out with Peter eariler this morning. The skirt of my skirt-suit is getting a little tight on me. Gotta cut back on the food intake and get more active. I like my body and I like my clothes to fit. I also like food. What a tragic love triangle. *sigh* I also put on my new pumps that I got especially for my interviews. They're these cute and conservative little Nine West pumps. Looks can be deceiving though. Walking to my car from the gym, my feet were just crying out for mercy. Whomever invented high heels was evil. It's obvioulsy a form of female suboordination. Kinda like foot binding - If you make the heels uncomfortable enough, that would limit a woman's range of motion- and limit her possibilities. Okay. Okay. I was just venting there. Actually after about 2 hours in them, they aren't feeling that uncomfortable. That means that either the leather is getting broken in, or my foot is going numb. I hope it's the former and not the latter. I like my shoes. I LOVE shoes. The next pair of shoes I'm going to buy are stillettos. They're painful, but they make my feet look pretty. =)
04/18/01 9:09PM - I think I'm in the thralls of some sort of post-adolescent crisis. First I quit my job, now I'm chopping off my hair. Yup! That's right! I chopped my hair. Okay, okay - I got my mom to cut it for me, but still. It used to be mid way down my back. Now it's barely skimming the bottom of my neck. I like it though. I feel lighter, freeer, and I have to put less crap in my hair! =) Yippee! Bought a cook book today - mayber I'll even put it too good use one day (unlike my other cook books which are now used as makeshif coasters - not really. I never bought cookbooks for myself before).
Yesterday my sister and I went to the zoo again to see Hua Mei. For the first time (EVER) she was awake when we were at her little display, and we forgot the camera. Just my luck. Oh yes. I think I'm going to ask for my own camera next Christmas or perhas for my graduation gift. I need one. So anyway, Hua Mei was eatling, then she hobbled around her enclosure,, proceeded to take a shit in front of us, and then played in the water. Um...cute??? I saw a panda take a shit in front of me!!! How appetizing is that before lunch?
I have 2 job interviews set up for this week. Hopefully I'll hear from more as the week progresses. =) *crosses her fingers* I also think I have midterms coming up. Dammit! Oh! gotta order my graduation announcements! Gotta advertise that I'm graduating to squeeze money outta my relatives. I'm a starving student ya know!
04/13/01 5:20PM - I have done preatcially nothing today. Not even read! I'm astonished at my laziness. I guess boredom breeds sloth-like habits. I looked for a few more jobs today, but found nothing that would be applicable to me or my major. I should have gone into computers and programming - except I hate doing that stuff. Programming gets me really frustrated, and makes me want to yank all my hair out. I don't think I would look cute bald, so I will stay away form the programming field for now.
After leaving the library yesterday I ran a few errands at UCSD. I had to check in with some financial aid information, and update some stuff at the parking & transportation office. When I finished that stuff I went off to the shuttle to go move my car closer to campus. UCSD is a beautiful school and great for its academic programs, but parking is just absolutely shitty. I pay well over $300.00 annually so I can park in a parking lot WAY off campus and get shuttled in. So I'm waiting in line for the next shuttle and the bus arrives. It dropps off its passengers and people slowly jump on the bus from the line I'm in. As I'm about to make my way up the bus' steps some chick walks in front of me. I'm just stunned and pause - thinking that like all the other people who have walked in fron of me; that she is just crossing my path to go board the shuttle that goes to the other parking lot WAY off campus. Instead of just crossing my path as I thought she had meant to do - she actually had the audacity ot jump on! I was just stunned and couldn't say anything. For her sake I hope she was a foreign exchange student and didn't know any better. If she ever tries that shit with anyone else - she would get her ass kicked in a heartbeat. I wanted to say something to her, but it was too late - she was already on the bus and it's not like the driver was going to force her out to get in the back of the line. Besides I'm passive aggressive, I'll just imagine myself being mean to her and kicking her as in my dreams. Lucky bitch. Some people are just so rude and have absolutely no clue! So the shuttle dropps me off at the parking lot, and I suddenly forget where I parked earlier that morning. I know the general vicinity and roam around looking for my car. It takes be about 5 minutes to find my car. In the meantime, about 3 shuttles have come and gone - and people are staring at me. I am such a flake.
I had a strange dream last night. I can't remember it specifically, or in its sequence of events; but I rmember it involved me, a wallet, some really FAT people, and me busting open a can of whoop ass on some gril who was trying to pick-pocket me in a line for ice cream. Weird. I don't think I'll ever sort out my dreams or understand what they mean. I'll just try to appreciate its entertainment content.
The single life is starting to get to me. I'm feeling lonely and unhappy. Sometimes I wish a friend would call or e-mail. It's somewhat depressing to have all the comforts necessary to live a happy life, yet feel so lonely and empty inside. I also think I need to start taking my work-out more seriously. Summer is fast approaching; and though I'm not considered "overweight," my belly, my huge ass, and thighs are telling me otherwise. Time to dust off my little ab-slide machine, and time to start doing those power squats. Of course, we all know that thinking is different than actually doing. I'm probably just going to go take a nap when I finsh this entry instead.
04/12/01 2:45PM - I am continuing in my endeavors to search for a new job. I kinda stopped for a while jusr because there was such a lack of jobs that really interested me, or had anything to do with my major. yesterday I mailed out 2 resumes and e-mailed one out. I already have a response from the e-mail one, but I have to get some infor for that person first. Wish me luck! Grr.. Over the week, I've just been keeping myself busy. I haven't really been up to much. Just school and reading for my own leisure. Pretty bland. Lots of studying, and a bit of shopping.
Yesterday Emily and I went out to Fashion Valley. I got my plates! Yippee! I now have plates for when I move out. Perhaps it was impractical for me to ask for wsuch things so far ahead of time, but at least this way I'm stocked up and ready to go. I'm reasoning with myself and thinking that if I'm prepared to move; then perhaps when I do phisically move, the shock of moving out and being independent won't be so hard to take. I am afterall, a very fragile gal. =P
I also bought myself a new foundation compact yesterday. I haven't really had to purchase or wear makeup since my high school years- and even then, rarely so. I hardly ever wear make up, mostly for pictures or dances. Otherwise, I'm "au nautral." Besides, I'm always too lazy to wake up early and get myself all pretty. I'm pretty on the inside, and that's what counts! Isn't it?? Hahah! Last month, when Emily had her little group picture thingy, I realized I had to go buy another foundation. I had a more tanned complexion when I was in high school, and also the other members of my family have a bit more yellow in their complexion. I on the other hand, am rather pale. My freinds have always criticized me for being "too white," it's even more of a reality now. So when I put on my make up, I found myself shocked. I seriously painted myself 2 shades darker than I actually was. It was kinda gross. I kept thinking to myself I looked like I had Jaundice. Not good. The weather lately has not been good to my skin; part of it are dry, others are breaking out with pimples! Argh! So yesterday when I went out with Emily, my vanity got the best of me and I decided to get one of those pressed powers w/ foundation - just to even out my skin tone. I look much better now, but I am not looking forward to having ot wake up early to put that crap on.
So last night as we went to my car to put away my plates; and also later on in the evening as we were leaving the mall, these young, rude ghetto boys were trying to pick up on Emily and I. Where do these punks get off being so rude, and what makes them think their crude pick up lines are going to work on us. "Hey baby, what's your age?" "Hey baby, what's your name?" Slick -Yeah right! Like that's supposed to make us swoon! Umm... yeah.. really immature guys. That's what I'm looking for ! What's sorta sad and causes me much concern is the fact that I'm sure that other girls have fallen for those lines, or have actually stuck conversations with these boys (and probably ended up dating them). Eech. I would like to think (and hope) that the women and girls of today are going to have a little more respect for themselves than that - I'm sure I'm worng.