| March 2, 2002
Well IF you can believe it, there is absolutely NO drama around here whatsoever these days. Okay. Fred and I are beginning to become friends like we were but there are still those moments when I stare at him� and know. I know what he�s thinking, mostly because I am too. Oliver and I haven�t spoken, but he likes to study with George. We were all in the library the other day when I heard him talking about asking Stephanie to the ball. I just kind of glanced over and I saw that she was paying attention. Oh well. We�re both moving on, and that�s fine. But for some reason, I still love him. I thought that my love for Fred would be enough. Apparently, there are still old feelings inside me. I can�t help it though. When you�ve loved someone for that long, I guess it just doesn�t go away. Oh! This is great! We�re starting this really cool new Dueling Club here, and neither Fred nor George want anything to do with it, so I�m going with Seamus. Can you believe it? SEAMUS. He�s a total sweetheart. He was asking around the common room if anyone was going. I think Stephanie is going to join, but I get the feeling she didn�t want to say anything. I am pretty sure that Seamus didn�t want to ask her. Oh, I�m going to talk to him about that, too. He just got here. Gotta go! Michelle March 4, 2002 I think Oliver is going to ask me to the ball, because the other day in the library Hermione overheard him. That�s what she said anyway. It would be so grand if he asked me. I think Michelle will probably go with Fred, since people are saying that they are in �in love.� Yeah I can say they probably are. But I think what happened with her and Oliver was just� excellent! Oops, I got a bit overexcited. Hopefully Seamus will not ask me, and someone else because I�m sure Oliver will ask. It will be dreadful if they were to both ask! Stephanie March 4, 2002 I think I am going to cry. Remember how Seamus and I went to the Dueling Club together? Well, there were only a few people there that day, so we got to leave early. Of course I knew there was still ten minutes left of Quidditch practice and I was meeting Fred afterward, so I decided to take Seamus for a walk. We talked about Stephanie. He confessed that he likes her a lot, but he doesn�t know her well enough to establish any kind of relationship. I hated to tell him that Stephanie was in lust with Oliver, but I had to. He said he already knew. Then he asked me something. �Michelle, do you think you can help me with something?� Then he launched into this speech about how he wasn�t going to ask because he liked me, just because he needed help me. Finally, when I cut him off and asked him what he was going on about, he said, �Well, I�ve never kissed anyone, and I was wondering if you would kiss me� so I could know what it was like.� Well, what was I going to say to this? I freaked out at first, but then convinced myself that it was only because he needed help, and I do favors for friends. So I let him kiss me. And wouldn�t you know it� Quidditch practice got out right at that minute. I still can�t believe what I saw. Fred! Dammit! Did I use that Charm? Obviously not. Shell, were you lying to me about what you said the other night? Of course not. It�s no use trying to explain it to you, you�ll just go off the deep end. Come talk to me. No. Please? No! You�ll just scream at me again. I promise I won�t. Come talk to me. I�ll be down in five minutes. Grr� I am going to cry. Michelle March 6, 2002 You will not believe what happened� I was walking back from Quidditch practice when I ran into Fred. I didn�t know what he was staring at until I peeked behind him. There was Michelle and Seamus kissing! It was horrible. They looked at Fred and I and started to explain. I just stood there with my mouth open. I noticed that I started to tear up. I don�t know why I did this. I don�t think I have any feelings for Seamus. It�s hard to explain� I started to run off and when I passed the library, I heard footsteps behind me. I stopped and looked around, and it was Oliver. He was puzzled, he didn�t know what to say. He asked me why I was crying and I said, �Um, nothing, nothing at all,� and kept running. I ran into the common room and plopped myself on one of the big red chairs. I started to cry again. I could feel my robe sleeve getting wet, so I decided to stop and go up to my bed. I was climbing the stairs when I heard� �Where is Stephanie?� I knew it was Seamus�s voice, but then another voice came in. �WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER? If you have done anything wrong, I will get you for it!� It was Oliver. I stayed in my bed, trying to get the vision of Michelle and Seamus kissing out of my head. When I got it out, I went back down to the common room and sat in one of the chairs, thinking about why Oliver stuck up for me. Stephanie March 6, 2002 Why do things have to get continuously worse? I didn�t quit the Dueling Club, and neither did Seamus. Actually we got to talking the other day in Herbology when we were put in a group together, and neither of us feel we did anything wrong. Though we both agreed that the other kissed very well (haha), we both realized that there was absolutely nothing in the kiss. It was so strange, to kiss a person you feel nothing for. He doesn�t like me, I don�t like him, and so we can still be friends. I mean, friends kiss each other, right? Plus, he owes nothing to Stephanie. She�s infatuated with Oliver, which I don�t understand because Seamus told me that Oliver yelled at him, but she was crying. Why would she be? Luckily enough, when I talked to Fred the other night, he understood. He�s still a little sore about it, but he understands. I just can�t believe half off the things he was screaming at Seamus. �What the hell do you think you�re doing?� �Stop touching her like that you bastard!� �What gives you the right to touch her?� Oh, Fred. It�s not like Fred and I are together anyway. I wonder, can you be deeply in love with someone when it is uncomfortable to touch them? I guess you can. We grew up together� so it�s still kind of weird. Ooh! We�re learning about animal to human transfigurations! I HAVE to go! Michelle March 8, 2002 Everything is strange now. Obviously. It�s because of what happened between Michelle and Seamus. I can�t believe he actually kissed her. I guess that Seamus got Fred�s output also. George said that he called Seamus a bastard. I sort of feel bad for him. Everyone is giving him grief about it. Oliver was very furious with him. I have never seen him get that mad before, especially at another Gryffindor. I don�t really get why he yelled at him. I mean, I don�t think that he really has any feelings for me. He doesn�t act like it all that much to tell you the truth. Gotta get to class soon. Stephanie March 10, 2002 You�re going to find this strange � Fred forgave Seamus. They talked everything out and Seamus explained what he was really doing and told him that if he weren�t being blinded by his jealousy, he�d be able to see the kind of �look� that I�ve been giving him. I quote, �Fred, I�ve never seen her look at Oliver the way she�s been looking at you.� Fred and I have been spending loads of time together. Obviously. I actually got to talk to Hermione today. I asked her for help in Arithmancy and after we had finished our assignments, we got into a discussion about Ron and Fred. It was rather lengthy. I asked her to do about Oliver. She said to let that blow over. He�d get over me, and if not, it�s too bad. I love Hermione. She�s fabulous. Guess who else I talked to today? Stephanie� I know crazy isn�t it? I guess we have to have some sort of common bond if we�re going to be partners in Potions all year. I asked her how she was and I think she was kind of surprised that I was talking to her. She told me she was fine and then� I don�t know how it happened� we started talking about Fred and Seamus. She was being surprisingly� cool. We managed to successfully avoid the Oliver issue. It was quite pleasant. Oh! I promised I�d meet Fred in the Astronomy Tower. Apparently he�s got some surprise for me. Bye! March 11, 2002 The past few days have been all right. Michelle and I talked. Not yelling, we actually we talked. We chatted about Seamus and Fred mostly. I think she and Fred are a better much. I�m not just saying that because I like Oliver. It�s just that you can tell they are a match made in heaven. Talking to her wasn�t so bad after all. It was actually quite pleasant. I enjoyed it because it seemed like we had a lot in common. Mostly about guys. It was really cool. Stephanie March 14, 2002 I don�t have much time to write, nor do I really have all that much to write! Meeting Fred in the library soon. Well, I managed to do it. I talked to Oliver. I was going to meet Fred after Quidditch practice last night, but Oliver got to me first. We sat in the locker room for about fifteen minutes talking. We hugged and said our official goodbyes. He said if he hadn�t been able to say some of that, he would never get over me. Basically all he wanted to say was that he loved, me always had, and was going to miss me. Oh! And Fred�s surprise� he got me a commitment ring. Can you believe it? He also fashioned the ring from magic. It�s so beautiful� I�m wearing it on the finger that Oliver�s ring used to be� sigh� but I guess it�s time for a change. Well, gotta go. Michelle March 15, 2002 Nothing really much to say. I guess that Fred got Michelle a commitment ring! I was like� oh neat. Why would he get her one so soon in the relationship though? Oh well, I need to mind my own business. Hello, my name is Stephanie Piers and I am a brownnoser. It�s got a nice ring to it, doesn�t it? Bloody hell. Hopefully I will get asked to the ball. I know who Hermione is going with, obviously! They are going to look really cute together� oh yeah! Seamus wanted to talk to me about this club� I don�t know what it�s about. He is meeting me in two minutes. Stephanie March 17, 2002 Happy St. Patrick�s Day! Seamus and I are having a ball today, since we�re both Irish. Him more than me of course (Finnigan for crying out loud) but we�re having fun nonetheless. We�ve both charmed our wands to be green and we�re zapping anyone not wearing green. It�s not dangerous of course. All that happens are a couple of shamrocks grow out of their ears. Oh you should have seen Ron�s face! It was priceless! Oh, speaking of Ron, Hermione, Ginny, and I all talked tonight. It was really fun. We talked about the ball. Hermione and Ginny are so excited� I can�t believe this� Harry Potter asked Ginny! I always knew there was a special gleam in his eye for her� it was just so obvious. I�m really excited for her though. Hermione was describing her dress robes to us. She said they�re kind of a sparkly white, and Ron has some new blue ones. They�ll look great together. Hermione and I talked about Weasley boys tonight as well. I told her that I�ve been a bit frustrated with Fred and she told me not to worry about it. He�d come around. I showed her my commitment ring and she said that I wouldn�t have much to worry about anymore. She hadn�t seen the ring before I started talking. We were really getting into the conversation when Stephanie came up. I invited her to join us (I really surprised myself) and she said she was a little tired after the club she and Seamus had come back from. She wanted to go to bed. I could only smile. Seamus is finally getting it. I wonder what�s going on with her and Oliver at this point� I can only imagine. Goodnight Michelle March 17, 2002 I am extremely tired from the Dueling Club. It is actually quite fun. I really enjoyed it. Seamus is a really nice guy to talk to. He was really enthusiastic mostly because today was St. Patrick�s Day and he�s Irish. He and Michelle put a spell on their wands and whoever didn�t have green on they would make them turn green or something, then clovers would come out of their ears. It was quite hilarious! I wish that Seamus would talk to me more because he is quite interesting. That would be weird if he were to ask me to the ball� although I might enjoy it. Stephanie March 20, 2002 The more I think about it, the more depressed I get. It�s getting closer and closer to the end of my sixth year at Hogwarts. It�s really quite sad. After this next year is over, I�ll be leaving these halls, though hopefully I won�t be leaving for good. I�m actually hoping to get a teaching job here. Weird to think about isn�t it? Anyway, Fred and I have a date tonight. It�s kind of weird that we have a date on a Wednesday, but he said it couldn�t wait. And neither can I! Hermione showed me her dress robes today and I about died. They�re the prettiest robes I�ve ever seen and I know Ron will love them. They�re going to look smashing together. I�m curious to know what Fred will be wearing� Oliver said hello to me in Potions today� crazy. Stephanie waved at him too and he smiled at her, but I can tell that Stephanie is getting over him. She kept staring at Seamus today� it was really quite adorable. He was pretending not to look over and I wanted to zap him in the back of the head. He doesn�t need to hide it! It�s so obvious that they like each other. I have to get ready for my date and finish Professor Binn�s homework. Grr. Talk to you later! Michelle March 21, 2002 Bloody hell, you have to hear about the dream I had� I was walking to the Great Hall for lunch when I saw Seamus. He came up to me and said, �Hello, I have to tell you something.� So we walked up to the common room and sat in one of the big red chairs. He pulled his chair closer to mine and said, �I have feelings for you, Stephanie, and they are very strong. I think that they are strong enough to have a relationship, if you know what I mean.� My mouth dropped and before I knew it, I was telling him that I liked him back. He bent over and kissed me on the lips. When we pulled away I noticed there was a figure standing in the room, I saw it from the corner of my eye. When I turned my head to see who it was, it was Oliver. He stood there, mouth open� and then just ran off. That�s where I woke up. I don�t know if it is a sign or what. It was strange. Then I was telling Hermione about it during lunch. She sat there with her eyes as big as ever but didn�t say anything. She just shook her head. When I looked over to where Michelle was sitting, she was looking at me. Did she hear? I don�t know� sleep calls. Stephanie March 22, 2002 I can�t believe it took me so long to tell you! IT�S SO GREAT! FRED KISSED ME! We went out on Wednesday you know, and we were walking around in Hogsmeade when he decided we should go and get a butterbeer at the Three Broomsticks. So I was like sure whatever, and we were in there for a long time drinking and talking and I told him that I wanted to buy a new quill pen and that I was running out of ink. I also told him that I wanted to buy something for Ginny. So we were walking down to the Quill and Scroll Shoppe when he stopped me, right? He grabbed my arm, looked me in the eye, and said, �I�m really glad you decided to come with me tonight, Shell. I�ve been in love with you for a very long time,� and he did it. He closed his eyes, leaned in, and pressed his lips right onto mine. It was like magic� except it was without a wand. It was SO amazing� earth shattering� I couldn�t believe it. Oh! Which reminds me! Stephanie and Hermione were talking about this dream that Stephanie had and I couldn�t help overhearing her. I don�t think she knows that in Divination, the one thing I am extremely good at is dream analysis. I have STACKS of books about it. I�m going to take some of them down to her and see if she would care to talk about it. I love Fred Weasley! Oh wow, does it feel good to say that. What feels good to say? Hi! Hello. What feels good to say? I love you. I love you too. Where are you going? To talk to Stephanie. Why? Nothing. I�m right here with her. I�ll tell her she�s on her way down. What feels good to say? I told you. No you didn�t. It�s �I love you.� Oh. I love you. Bye. Michelle March 23, 2002 Guess what happened? I was sitting with Fred while he was reading a book (that�s what he said), but I think he was sneaking into Michelle�s Diary. Anyway, I was sitting there when he said, �Michelle is coming to talk to you.� I was like, �Uh, okay, what about?� Then he looked up and said, �I don�t know, she didn�t say.� I knew right away it was about the dream. It doesn�t bother me that she knows, it�s the fact that she and Seamus are such good mates. She came down the stairwell, looked at Fred and said, �Fred, we need to talk. Can you step out of the room for a while?� He smiled at her, got up, and walked out. I know something is going on between them. She sat down and dumped at least twenty books on the table next to the chair. She looked at me and said, �I heard about that dream you had. I think it might be a sign.� �A sign, what kind of sign?� �A sign of love.� I started to panic. �Love?� �By the books that I�ve been reading, with your type of dream, it must have had something to do with love.� �Uh� is that good?� �Yes. I think that Seamus is your true love.� I was thinking to myself, true love! I�m only a teenager! I have already found my TRUE love? We heard a knock on the door. It was Fred and he was coming to ask if we were finished. Michelle nodded and walked out of the room. Before she walked out, she turned and winked at me. I couldn�t help but smile. Is there such a thing as true love? If so, is it Seamus? Stephanie March 25, 2002 I think Stephanie is finally beginning to figure it out. I�ve been doing extra research (at her request. She was really astounded to find out that I�m a �Dream Scholar,� or so Fred calls me) about dreams and the like. Seamus doesn�t know anything. I thought it would only be right to respect her privacy. He�s still as clueless as ever, but he�s definitely in love with Stephanie. She�s starting to cotton on. Speaking of cottoning on, Ron just happened to catch Fred and me stealing a kiss before he went to Quidditch practice. He almost blew up. He didn�t know what to think. Last he heard, Oliver and I were still engaged� I had to catch him up. Poor boy is so slow. Hermione even had a few things to tell him about. He�s really lost. But I will not even go into the temper tantrum he threw when he found out Harry is taking Ginny to the ball. Anyway, I have LOADS of work to do. I can�t believe how much my homework has piled up. Actually, Ron, Hermione, Fred, George, and I are all going to start our work right now. We�ve set up a study group for Potions. I�m having serious problems in that class. But enough about work! Fred is coming back from Quidditch practice in five minutes, I thought I�d pull a little prank on him. I�m going to go enchant his diary. Bye bye! Michelle March 26, 2002 Well, Michelle and I are becoming great friends. She has been really nice to me. I think it�s because we have a lot of things in common. Well, some� She invited me to go to Hogsmeade with her and Seamus. I think that we are going Saturday night. I don�t know, she just said something about it. I haven�t seen Oliver around much. I see him once in a while and we throw a smile back and forth, but that�s about it. Well, I have tons of schoolwork. Bye Stephanie March 30, 2002 I just got back from Hogsmeade with Stephanie, Fred, and Seamus. We had the BEST time. It was so much fun! I gotta tell you all about it, but first I have to tell you about something really weird. Oliver has been kind of mysterious lately; I�ve been a bit worried about him. He decided to sit next to me in Charms yesterday and he just started talking to me like old times. I stopped him and asked what he was doing. He said he wasn�t sure, and needed to talk to me later. He was busy yesterday with Quidditch and I told him I was busy all today. We are supposed to talk sometime tomorrow. Anyway, Seamus was SO cute yesterday in Hogsmeade� he bought Stephanie a rose and I wanted to cry. Well, Fred of course bought me one (a pink one, I might add! I can�t believe he remembered they�re my favorite), but the way Seamus handed it to her, red in the face� was priceless. We went to the Three Broomsticks and ordered some butterbeer. We all talked about classes and everything and (I can�t believe it) Stephanie asked me about Oliver. Seamus and Fred instantly went really solemn. She asked me how he was doing and I said, �I don�t think he�s doing well.� And then she replied� I really can�t believe she said THIS either, �I guess it�s because he�s lost two of the most wonderful girls at Hogwarts.� Fred and Seamus both laughed their heads off. I couldn�t believe it! She�s OVER Oliver! I guess Seamus has a hope after all� and he should. He�s a terrific guy. We went shopping and Fred practically dragged me into Zonko�s. I was so angry with him! We spent an hour there, and every time he found something really cool, he would test it on me. Seamus and Stephanie had stolen off to Honeydukes to buy some candy and I was half tempted to leave and go find them when Fred saw that I was getting impatient. He pulled me out of the store and asked what was wrong. I told him I didn�t want to spend all night playing second fiddle to his practical jokes� and then� oh Lord I�m about to retell this for the fourth time� He was rubbing my arms, looking into my eyes, and he said, �You�re never second fiddle to me. Ever.� And he kissed me. We started to get so into this really passionate, loving kiss until Stephanie screamed. �I KNEW IT!� she had a devilish look on her face and said, �It�s about time I saw some kind of action from you two!� A good night all in all. Now for tomorrow night. EEK! Michelle |
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