| April 1, 2002
Hogsmeade was great. I had a wonderful time! Here�s how it happened� We were walking around for a few minutes and then Seamus gave me a rose. I almost cried, I thought it was really nice. We went to the Three Broomsticks for a butterbeer when I thought of Oliver. I decided to say something to Michelle about it. When I asked about him, she looked speechless. Fred and Seamus just looked at Michelle, puzzled. You better pay attention to this part. I AM OVER OLIVER! Did you hear that? I am over him! He hasn�t made any effort to talk to me, or really get to know me, so I gave up. I�m moving on. Anyway, she said that their relationship wasn�t really working and that she had a hard time talking to him. Whenever she would try to talk to him it would always end up in a fight. But when the subject was starting to wear off, I said, �Well, he lost two of the most wonderful girls at Hogwarts.� She just looked at me and nodded. I thought that Fred was going to fall out of his chair. When we left, Seamus and I headed over to Honeydukes while Fred practically dragged Michelle into Zonko�s. I could tell she didn�t really want to go there. Seamus and I were in there for a good hour. I bought about four pounds of candy, I swear. I bought Hermione, Harry, Ron, and Neville some treats because I know that they love them. But as we were heading to Zonko�s, we saw Fred and Michelle kissing right in front of the doorway. I just had to say something� �I KNEW IT!� Michelle and Fred just looked at me. �It�s about time I saw some kind of action from you two!� Their cheeks were red. It was hilarious, Seamus almost died from laughing so hard. It was grand. Well, it�s the first of the month and I already have something new happening to me. I am falling for Seamus. Stephanie April 2, 2002 I have never kissed someone so much in one day my whole life. That includes Oliver. Fred is so much fun to snog� I swear� they should make �Fredsnogging� a sport! Anyway, I better tell you about Oliver. We decided to go to the Quidditch field to talk, since it�s more private. He told me he still loved me, and he had never meant to hurt me. I told him there was still a part of me that loved him very much, but that I always knew I�d loved Fred in some way. I couldn�t believe what Oliver said� �I figured. I watched how well you two got on and I felt really threatened� there was something there that you and I never had. I can�t compete against that.� So I questioned him on his feelings for Stephanie. He said, �Once I saw that you and Fred were truly the ones in love, my thoughts started to drift elsewhere. She�s been on the Quidditch team for a couple of years now so we knew each other� and I never realized how wonderful she was until I thought I�d lost you� And then the crush developed and I couldn�t help it. I had to control myself for you. But I just couldn�t stop from liking Stephanie. Whenever she was betrayed, I felt it too, just like I feel for you. I think the real problem was my acceptance. That�s why I was so distant before we broke up. Because I could feel it coming, and I knew that all along, you were going to fall for Fred.� By this time, I was crying. I�d never meant to hurt Oliver, and I did love him, but I can�t help it. The heart wants what the heart wants, I guess. I am desperately in love with Fred. That�s good to hear. Hi, sweetie. I�m glad you decided to pop in. I told you I wanted to talk to you an hour ago. I know. Your book wasn�t open. I couldn�t get through. Oh. Well, that�s okay. Did you have fun on Saturday? Of course� I want to try that fake hat on George� he�ll love it. Do you remember that one? The one that makes your ears turn blue� Yes� yes. I remember. Oh, sorry. That�s okay. Hey listen, are you terribly busy? Of course not. Why? I have Potions homework. Shall we? My pleasure. I�ll meet you in the common room in ten minutes. Love you! Love you too. Michelle April 3, 2002 I was walking to the library, and I passed Oliver, Fred, and George. Fred looked at me, smiled, then said, �Ready for the match against Ravenclaw tomorrow?� �Of course, I am always ready,� and while I said that, I gave Oliver a look that meant I was. �We are on our way out to the Quidditch field if you want to join us,� George said. �Sorry mates, I have a bunch of homework, I�ll see you later.� As I walked off, I saw Oliver�s head turn out of the corner of my eye. I wonder if he has feelings for me. If so, are they strong? I don�t know about him, I think that I have feelings for Seamus. During lunch I sat across from Michelle and she kept kicking me from under the table and then said, �I need to talk to you at the end of the day.� I couldn�t understand at first because wasn�t really saying it� more like mouthing it. I have to go and meet her. I�m going to find out what she wants to talk about. Stephanie April 5, 2002 I told Stephanie everything Oliver told me. She was shocked, and half of me expected her to get excited and go hunt him down, but all she said was, �Wow. I can�t believe I don�t feel that way for him anymore.� Well, half of me expected that as well. I just kind of got evil on her and said, �Oh� and who DO you have feelings for?� She went shy but of course, I wasn�t dumb. Then she confessed just about everything she felt for Seamus, and I was shocked to hear her be so open. After she had gotten pink in the cheeks because of it, and heard me laughing, she said, �Hey, you�re not getting off the hook so easily.� And I told her everything about Fred, and that I had really been in love with him my whole life but just figured it out this year. She was amazed. �I always knew it would be you two, even if I did have an embarrassingly huge crush on your fianc�.� And you know something? I didn�t mind. Stephanie�s really cool. We even helped each other study for Potions, then spent half an hour talking badly about Snape. Hermione scolded us for not getting our work done but then relented and sniggered while we talked about him. She�d die before badmouthing a teacher. She obviously hasn�t learned anything from that potty-mouth boyfriend of hers. Because I have :-) Michelle April 6, 2002 You know how Michelle wanted to meet me a few days ago? Well, we went to the common room and sat down. She began to talk about Oliver. �I talked to him last night. It wasn�t fun.� �Why not?� I began to feel my stomach turn. �All we talked about was that we still had feelings for each other and he has found another interest.� �Who is it?� I asked. �It�s you.� My mouth dropped to the floor. �Me?� �He told me that he had feelings for you and that he has really started to like you. He said that he has really gotten to know you with Quidditch and all.� But all I could say was, �Me?� �He didn�t tell me a whole lot, that�s about it.� �Wow. I can�t believe I don�t feel that way for him anymore.� �Well, he likes you. I think that you would be better of with Seamus anyway.� I guess I will take her word for it, for now. Oh yeah, we won the match against Ravenclaw. It was a good one! I was excellent, I loved over to where Michelle was sitting and she was screaming her head off. I think it was because of Fred. When I went by them at the end of the match (I was still on my broomstick and they were in the stands), Seamus handed me some flowers and told me to open the card later. Well, I did and it said: �Dear Stephanie- Gryffindor had a great game. You did really well. Hopefully we can go to Hogsmeade again. I had a really good time. Michelle helped me pick out these flowers, she thought that you would like them. Seamus. PS You are the most loyal person I have ever met� and such a great friend.� I almost died. Oh God, I think I�m falling in love. Stephanie April 10, 2002 I could just die. The other day, before the Quidditch match, Seamus hauled me outside. He wanted to do something nice for Stephanie so we brainstormed. He finally decided on flowers and I helped pick them out. It was really amazing to see her face. I think she�s finally beginning to cotton on. Oh, and Fred was wonderful with George, as usual. They are the best Beaters� I think they�re smashing. I couldn�t stop screaming. I also decided that since Seamus was going to do something, I might as well do something romantic as well. I can�t believe Fred didn�t get teased mercilessly for the button I wore. �F Wheeze�s Girl.� He loved it. I�m sure that most of his friends know what it means, and George definitely does. Ha. George. We need to get him a girlfriend. We�re all going to Hogsmeade this weekend. Seamus, Stephanie, Fred, George, and me. I don�t know if it�s a great idea on my part to go with my boyfriend and his twin brother� they�ll probably spend more time at Zonko�s than anything else. I suppose he should spend some time with George. Maybe I shouldn�t even go. Oh great, now I�m depressed. Why are you depressed? Nothing. I don�t want to be rude, Fred, but can you go away for a second? What�s wrong? Nothing. Don�t lie to me. Nothing is wrong. Don�t lie to me. Where are you right now? The library, why? Will you come see me? Of course. Oy. Michelle April 12, 2002 Seamus, Michelle, Fred, George and I are going to Hogsmeade this weekend. Michelle said that she wanted Seamus and I to hang out with. I�m not sure why she said that, but it might be even more fun. I am kind of nervous. I don�t know what is going to happen. Hopefully Seamus will ask me out. That would be so great. I wish that Michelle would ask him if he liked me like that. Well, I have a lot of schoolwork to do. Stephanie April 15, 2002 I am still crying. We went to Hogsmeade tonight and I had the worst time� I guess I can tell you about it. I don�t care to relive it� but� It was a disaster from the start. Fred didn�t even tell me when we were leaving, so I was up in my room doing homework when Stephanie came in and asked me where I�d been� they�d been waiting for me for half an hour. So, we got there, and I knew from the start that Fred and George probably wouldn�t be paying any attention to me, so I decided to stick around with Seamus and Stephanie. No big deal, you know? Well the first place we went when we got there was Zonko�s. All Fred and George could do was talk about all the stuff. I decided not to stick around, so after a little while I followed Seamus and Stephanie out of the store. Seamus told Stephanie he�d be a minute, pulled me aside, and told me he was going to ask Stephanie to the ball. He wanted to be alone to do it, so I let them run along. I was so angry� and so alone. I went to the Three Broomsticks by myself and thankfully, Harry, Ginny, Ron, and Hermione were all there, so they invited me over. Ron asked me where Fred and George were and I said, �Probably still getting excited over useless items at Zonko�s,� finished my butterbeer, and left. I started to cry. I couldn�t find anyone, I was all by myself, and so I went back up to the castle. Well, two hours later, who should come bursting into the common room but my four wonderful friends? Stephanie and Fred both looked like they had been crying. George and Seamus were obviously trying to keep calm, but were pale nonetheless. Fred grabbed me off the couch and held me close to him, crying into my hair. I pushed away from him, told him I didn�t want to talk to him� and in a voice I�ve never heard him use before he yelled, �Michelle Allison Stone! Don�t you walk away from me! Do you have any idea how long we were looking for you?� I just screamed back, �As long as it took you to realize I wasn�t there?� �What�s that supposed to mean?� �Oh please, what do you think it means? I stood there next to you and George for a whole hour and you barely said one word to me! Not to mention the fact that you never even told me when we were leaving!� We screamed at each other for a while, and I think Stephanie got really scared. I went to bed and started crying when she came in. She said, �Michelle� please� please don�t fight with Fred� You know how it ended with you and Oliver, and Fred is your true love� Don�t fight with him. If it hadn�t been for you two, I never would have fallen for Seamus� I don�t want you two to lose each other�� I couldn�t do anything. All I remember is crying. And I still am. Ginny and Hermione came up after Stephanie told them what was going on. Ginny magicked me something warm to drink and Hermione held me for a bit while I cried. But I�m not speaking to Fred. Not for any reason. If he even cares, that is. I think Stephanie said she was going to go talk to him, but I told her not too. She will. Michelle April 15, 2002 Hogsmeade was a total mess. Here�s how it went� Fred, George, Seamus, and I were all waiting for Michelle in our usual spot. She didn�t show up for half an hour, so I decided to find her when I saw she was in the common room reading. �Where have you been? All of us have been waiting for you.� She looked up at me and said, �No one told me what time to meet.� We walked out, and I could tell she was mad because she was dragging her feet. Finally we got to Hogsmeade, and Fred and George went straight to Zonko�s. I could tell that Michelle didn�t want to go with them so Seamus and I invited her to walk with us. When we were walking, Seamus stopped suddenly and took Michelle off to the side to say something to her. She just rolled her eyes and walked off in another direction. �Where is she going?� I asked. �Uh, I think she�s going to find Fred.� �Oh.� I knew he was lying. While we were walking around, he kept trying to stop me and ask something, then always pressed on with, �Oh never mind.� I didn�t know what his problem was. We walked past Zonko�s to look for Fred, George, and Michelle. No sign. We walked in the other direction and saw Fred and George running toward us. �Have you seen Michelle?� Fred asked, out of breath. �No, I thought she was with you,� I said. �Well, she isn�t.� We all looked at each other and then began to panic. Where could she have gone? I started to cry and so did Fred. After a while, we decided to go look in the common room when lo and behold, she was sitting there, reading. �There you are! Where did you go?� Fred said he pulled her into his arms. She shoved him away. �How long did it take you to realize that I was gone?� Fred screamed at her. I could tell he was furious. I was getting scared. They fought a little big longer and all I could do was stand there and stare. Finally, Michelle got tired of fighting and ran up to the dorms. I followed her and opened the door to her dorm. She was laying on her bed, crying, face down on the pillows. �Michelle, please don�t fight with Fred. Please don�t. He is your true love. If it weren�t for you, I would have never fallen for Seamus.� She didn�t say anything. I walked back down to the common room and saw Fred was sitting on the couch, crying. He had his head in his hands. I told him to talk to her tomorrow. I�m going to go back up with her now. Stephanie April 16, 2002 It�s four in the morning. I can�t sleep. I�m going to wake Fred up. * * * * * * * * * Okay. I�m back. It�s now five thirty. I can�t believe we were together for so long. He wasn�t too happy about being woken up and he was even angrier when he saw that it was me. Even though I knew we were going to fight, I dragged him down to the common room. We hashed it out so bad. I yelled at him for ignoring me and he told me that he needs his own space sometimes. I told him that maybe I could give him his space permanently. He�d gone that long without me in his life� and even though it killed me to say it, I had to. He was devastated. He sincerely thought I was breaking up with him. And I�ll tell you, I almost did, but then I caught myself. I started to cry so bad that I fell to the floor. I started rambling on about Oliver, and how much I missed being held by someone who loved me. So I sat there for a few minutes crying, when Fred came up from behind me, picked me up off the floor, and took me to the couch. We cried together for a long time. He kissed me and I could tell with every fiber of my being that he loved me. I couldn�t believe it. I love him too. And then� oh I shouldn�t even be confessing this� writing it down on paper and all. We uh� went back up to the boys� dorms and showed our love for each other in a different way. I still can�t believe we managed to get away with it right there, but we did and I knew it wasn�t a mistake. I mean� I hadn�t even let Oliver touch me in that way before, but with Fred it felt� right. Now I truly know how much I love Frederick Weasley. I can�t believe it. I want everyone to know that I am in love� Which reminds me. Seamus didn�t ever ask Stephanie to the Ball! She would have been bonkers over it� then again she probably wouldn�t have with my stupid drama scene. But oh well. I�ll get him to ask her one way or the other. Don�t go playing matchmaker now. Hello, love. I thought you�d be asleep by now. I can�t sleep. I thought I�d be able to, but I want to see you again. Come back up? Oh yes. Very good. And risk getting caught when people start waking up in a half hour? All right, good point. Common room? Meet you in ten. I love you. I love you, too. Michelle April 17, 2002 Well, I am little disappointed that Seamus has not asked me to the ball yet. Hopefully he will ask soon. A new girl arrived today. Her name is Niva Jones. She just transferred from Paris. Her father got a job in the Ministry of Magic. She�s really nice except she�s in Slytherin. I wonder how Michelle and Fred are doing. I am going to go talk to her. I�ll write more later. Stephanie April 19, 2002 I think Stephanie died when I told her about what Fred and I did. It was the funniest thing. She came up to me in the common room a couple days ago, being very sensitive, asking me calmly how Fred and I were doing. Just at that moment, Fred passed by on his way to Quidditch practice. He grabbed my ponytail and flipped my head upside down and kissed me. I actually said, �Ooh� that was interesting. We�ll have to try kissing upside down again.� And he only winked and replied, �Now that we know how.� I just couldn�t help laughing at the look on Stephanie�s face. I explained everything to her and she was still a bit shocked, I think. Fred and I are doing very well, thank you very much. And no� not just� doing very well. Ha. I�m so dirty. Yes! I think I�ve managed to do it! Seamus is going to ask Stephanie to the Ball! One month! One month! I�m so excited. One month! I talked to him about it today and he said that he actually waiting around for Fred and me to make up. He said that Stephanie really valued our relationship because of how much we loved each other, and that it was causing her real stress to see us unhappy. But now that we�re okay� Seamus has to ask! Oh� I think� oh geez� I�m in the common room. Seamus just got up to go meet Stephanie after Quidditch practice� please, please let him ask her! Michelle April 21, 2002 Michelle and I were sitting there talking the other night and Fred walked by, grabbed her ponytail, and kissed her! It was cute. She made a comment about kissing upside and down and I asked her what that was about. She told me what happened between her and Fred. I was speechless. It was really surprising. But that is their privacy, they can do whatever they want. OH YEAH I TOTALLY FORGOT! I was walking back from Quidditch practice and I saw Seamus coming my way. Fred said, �I think he�s going to talk to you.� I smiled and walked faster toward him. �Hey, how was your practice?� he asked. �Oh, it was fine.� �Will you meet me after dinner in the common room?� �Yeah, what do you have to talk to me about?� �I�ll tell you tonight.� �Okay.� I had no idea what it was about. I walked back out to the Quidditch field after remembering that I left my broom kit that Hermione got me for Christmas. When I got out to the field, Oliver was walking toward me. I didn�t know what to say. He stopped me. �Hello, Steph.� No one calls me that except my mother. �What are you still doing here?� �I found this,� it was my kit. �Oh. That�s mine, must have left it.� I am so stupid. He handed it to me, and when I took it from him he grabbed my hand. �I was wondering if you uh�wanted to go to the ball with me.� This was not happening. �I don�t know� I mean� uh� sure.� �All right great. I will see you around then?� �Uh, yeah.� He walked to the entrance to the school while I was jumping up and down like a bloody bat. I had to tell someone, so I told Michelle. When I told her, she gave me a weird look. �What�s wrong? I won�t go with him if you don�t want me to.� �No, that�s not it.� I ran up to the dorms and jumped on my bed. That�s where I�m at now. Bye! Stephanie PS I wonder what Seamus wanted? April 22, 2002 Oh dear. Oliver asked Stephanie to the ball and she said yes. She seemed pretty excited. Does she even know Seamus likes her? That�s not even the worst of it. When Seamus came in to ask her, she had already gone to bed so I told him she was gone. �Oh, well no biggie, I guess I can ask her tomorrow.� I wanted to say something so bad when Fred ran in and said it for me. �SEAMUS! ASK STEPHANIE TO THE BALL BEFORE OLIVER DOES!� Seamus stood on the steps, dumbstruck. �Oliver�s asking her to the ball?� I looked at Fred and then back at Seamus. I wanted to cry. All Seamus did was stare at me. Fred was breathing raggedly, he had obviously run from the Quidditch field. Apparently Oliver�s been thinking about asking Stephanie for a while now. All I could do was look at the ground. �She doesn�t have a date already does she?� he asked. I said nothing. Seamus stood there for a few more minutes before storming up the stairs. He is currently not speaking to her and she can�t figure out why. Oliver is definitely all smiles though. Stephanie has asked me several times why Seamus is mad at her, but Fred told me to keep out of it. Seamus will come around. I told her that I don�t know, to talk to him. Every time Seamus is rude to her, she looks like she wants to cry, but I can�t help her. I don�t know what to do. I have homework. That�s what I�ll do. Goodnight. Michelle April 23, 2002 I have had the worst couple of days. First, I can�t figure out why Seamus is mad at me because whenever I try to talk to him, he has an attitude or just won�t speak. I went and asked Michelle about it and she just shrugged. They are hiding something. I just want to talk to him. I told Michelle that I really wanted her to tell me. She said that when she told me, she can�t get into it because she doesn�t want to be blamed for anything. I agreed with her. She told she would talk to me in the library tomorrow after Charms. I�m sort of nervous. Lots of schoolwork. Stephanie April 24, 2002 I told Stephanie why Seamus is mad at her. Now Fred is mad at me. He said, �I told you not to get into it! I told you!� I just ignored him. He�s trying to talk to me right now. I know he is. The charm is on my book, so I don�t think I�m going to let him. Not after the way he screamed at me. What is going on here? A few weeks ago, we were all happy. Stephanie was just starting to really like Seamus, Fred and I were really getting on well� I just don�t know what happened. Am I losing it? I started to cry today right in the middle of the common room, so Ginny and Hermione took me upstairs to talk to me about it. They completely understand. I love my friends. Well, I have homework to do. Lots of work in Charms� hang on a second. All right I�m back. That was George. He told me Fred is waiting for me on the Quidditch field. Should I go? I shouldn�t go� maybe I should. No, I shouldn�t. Okay, I�m going. Michelle April 24, 2002 Michelle told me why Seamus is mad at me. Apparently he was going to ask me to the ball. When she told me I was speechless. I can�t believe that he was going to ask me. I kind of regret going with Oliver because I really like Seamus. I just wished that he had asked me sooner. Well, Oliver isn�t a bad guy or anything, it�s just that I have more in common with Seamus. I mean, we have the same tastes in food, we like the same classes, and we also like the Quidditch history teams. I think I�ll try and talk to him. Stephanie April 26, 2002 And things just keep getting weirder. The Ball is only a few weeks away, and Stephanie is still going with Oliver. I honestly can�t say that I blame her, though. Seamus did take a long time to go and it�d be rude to break the date with him just because she wanted to go with someone else. I wouldn�t do that. But here�s why it�s weird. Seamus has a date. A Slytherin no less. It�s that new girl from� Paris I think it was? Her name is Niva Jones, and she and Seamus talk a little during Potions. She�s supposedly really nice. I talked to Seamus before Fred could �talk� to him. We all know what his version of talking is. I asked him why a Slytherin? He told me that Niva has a huge crush on Draco Malfoy (gag me) and is trying to get him to notice her, and Seamus told her he had the same problem with Stephanie. So they�re trying to help each other out. It�s almost romantic. Fred got a hold of the information though, and is blowing a gasket right now. I tried to tell him what was going on, but we�re still on some kind of hiatus. He doesn�t want to talk to me civilly. So I started to cry again, but I�m almost positive it had no affect. You are so wrong. Damn! That stupid charm� Yeah, you forgot it. What is going on? Why should I talk to you if you�re just going to be rude to me? No, Shell, I�m sorry, listen to me? I�m shutting this book. No! WA? April 27, 2002 Well, I have been feeling bad about what happened between Oliver and me. I wish that Seamus had asked me sooner. Then maybe it wouldn�t have ended up this way. Anyway, I can�t talk much right now. I just dropped in to say that I found out he�s going with Niva from Slytherin. That�s cool I guess. She�s all right. Stephanie April 30, 2002 Should I still be excited about the ball? No, I should be dreading it. I�m actually VERY curious to see what�s going to happen with Seamus, Stephanie, and Oliver. I mean, come on! Seamus and Stephanie are so in love that it�s killing them not to be together. Maybe this is the push they will need. Stephanie won�t admit it, but she�s mad jealous about Niva. I met the girl, and she�s very cool (granted she is a Slytherin) but you can tell that Stephanie wants her to keep her hands off of Seamus. Then again, she is the ONLY one who doesn�t know that Seamus is going with Niva to make her jealous. Oh dear, I�ve gone cross-eyed. I am definitely going to kill Fred. He�s� oh he�s so insufferable! We�ve tried to talk, but every time he starts to raise his voice, I leave the room. I think it really upsets him. Hermione and Ginny had to calm him down one night. He�s talking to Stephanie about it, I�m sure. He�s even been trying to break into my diary. That insufferable git. I swear, if he hasn�t shaped up by Ball time, I won�t go. Period, the end of story. What�s the end of the story? FRED! How did you get in here? The charm is on! Well, I�ve counter cursed it. Dammit, Fred. Why do you have to be so smart and so stupid? Please! PLEASE talk to me I�m desperate. No! You�ll just yell at me! This isn�t going to get resolved unless we talk, and I can�t talk to you if you�re always walking out on me. Well, I can�t talk to you if you�re screaming at me and making me feel inferior. What? Never mind. Talk to me. No. Talk to me, please. I�m closing the book. No! Please! Goodbye, Fred. Meet me in the common room in ten minutes� just come down if you want this to get resolved. I�ll know your answer if you don�t come. God dammit. Michelle |
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