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| June 22, 2002 Man I just don't know what has happened to me. I have lost my desire to kiss strangers. I was the self proclamed kissing fairy. I am really hoping that there has just been a extreem lack of kissable people. But if I can remember correctly that never stopped me before...Perhaps it is just time for me to retire, perhaps I have just run out of kisses! Well, I hope someone will read this and carry the torch, as I really think that strangers in bars deserve to be kissed. They really do. I just don't want to do it anymore. Well, mabye tonight the goddess with suprise me with a extreemly cute kissable person tonight who will reawaken my kissing desires. |
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| June 26, 2002. My son has only one day left of grade primary. I can hardly belive it. He got an award fot being the Most Polite and Helpful Primary Student. Yeah.. I don't know.. either.. how I managed to raise such well behaved child. : ) I took a purity test on line yesterday at www.puritytest.org/ yesterday. I got a score of only 39.4% pure. The average is 60 something. I feel terible.. tee hee. So to get over my embarrasment I emailed my score to everyone I know. tee hee I acutually have been very pure lately. Not much partying and I haven't had relations in over two weeks! I have had no desires to be intimate with anyone. My emotions have been pretty messed up lately and I think I need to get my head straight. I have been spending most of my energy lately trying to get a new job. I do not wish to make stuffed animals to meet middle class women's decrative needs any more. And I am not yet ready to make the commitment of school. I have been looking at waitressing jobs- perferably at a drinking establishment. Also, crazy as is sounds I have also been seriously considering joing the air force reserves. Yeah me the tree huging, make love not war hippie! But really as fucked up as the Canadian government is .. this is a beautiful country and I am proud to be Canadian. Believe me things could be so much worse. |
| July 25, 2002.. Wow I can't believe it has been so long since I have written anything. I have just been sorting out my head... and still haven't really finished... but I am close. I don't have a real job yet.. been doing alot of babysitting. It to nice to have some extra cash. Other than that nothing much to new going on in my life. I had a boyfriend for a bit.. but I just wasn't into it. I have such high expectations of romance... I want that "spark". It is so rare for me to find it with anyone. I guess it is some sort of chemical reaction that doesn't seem to be based too much on any particular personaily traits. It is either there or it isn't. I also crave challange in a relationship. I think I am going to miss goth night this month. But I am not sure. I went out on wed. and I think it will be my last.. I am getting bored of the scene... but I have been saying that for weeks... |
| Aug. 13, 2002 Hey my birthday is coming up on Sept. 3.. send lots of presents... i really want a butterfly belly button ring... or a diamond tiara... what ever suits your price range the best. Often it seems like my life is on the edge of perfect bliss or disaster.. teetering there knowing that one wrong step could bring disastrous consequence. I find the best solution is to get hammered, then with drunken courage and obliviousness to jump into the abyss of chaos and become immersed in excitement, fun and danger.. and then in the morning discover what horrific or wonderous places I have emerged..... but hey that is just my solution!!! tee hee Things in my life seem so much better these days. I am loving the summer of beer, beaches and hot sweaty days. Yes today I have been feeling very poetic. |
| Aug20, 2002 Wow the summer is leaving me soo quickly. But it is still so hot here I feel like I am melting. Last weekend I went to a wicked party on an island in the middle of nowhere 30min off shore. Camped out and partyied all night. Hung out with a bunch of whacked Cape Brentoners...so now my speach is as atrociously appalling as my spelling : P. I have been partying a bit more than usual...but I figure it's ok 'cuz I don't think I have ever been this happy before. It's summer so it's all good. I have decided not to join the military after all. I care too much about my freedom... selfish I know. But I think it is against human rights to force people to take drug tests. I think I will do something with computers instead becase I am a computer genuis!!! |
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