Happy birthday to me?? I am now 21, I haven't had a drop of alcohol (for "recreational" purposes) since July....and contrary to popular belief, all of you asked if I have gotten "shit faced" yet. I am INSULTED, no, I do NOT drink. Maybe later, in a few months but I just don't care anymore. But if you need the hook-ups (all you young-uns, I am available.) The theme of today's entry is "STOP...STOP THE MADNESS!" And before you think I went crazy, that is a quote from Phoebe of Friends TV show. My mom is about to get fired from her job as we speak, my boyfriend is yelling at me, I am being annoying back to him, and I have no car to escape right now. Blah, I want to go to Caribou and visit Ben, but it's up to my sister and whether she chooses to come from Minneapolis to Eagan and drop me off simply at Caribou, if she's nice....she'll do it.
Classes are shitty, I almost don't care anymore. I can't wait for this semester to be over. And it will be, only a month away and then Christmas. I need to know the meaning of life, someone please tell me.....alright, off to call my sister and see what the dilly is for the next few hours. Maybe I will get this Ben interview done today, that would be cool, full of photos and exclusive interviews....although the word "exclusive" means to kick out particular people, so why would I conduct an exclusive interview and then reveal it out to the world?
Sunday, November 23 5:00 PM
Happy Birthday, Ngoc! So many friends of mine are born in November, do you know why this is? Now count back 9 months and it is Valentine's Day, I think maybe I was conceived on Valentine's Day but I'm too scared to ask. So things are alright here, life is really just life. Do you notice that friends ask you how another one of your friends is doing and you go, "eh, they are the same old...". Does anything significant really happen in college? I'm beginning to think not, it's just a bunch of confusion mixed with the pleasure of friends, signficant others, and alcohol accompaniemnt. Obviously I'm burned out and I don't even have a difficult major! I did decide that I will major in Psychology (with the idea of psychological research in mind) and perhaps a minor in GLBT studies, we'll see. A few days to Thanksgiving, good good. Then a few weeks to Christmas, by next week I will feel more festive. Last night Mitch came by at midnight and picked me up to go driving around in the snow (very dangerous might I add). I know eventually he's going to read this so I can't so anything incriminating hehe. Can I just say I had a good time? We talked until 3:30 in the morning about everything and anything, it feels like moments like that make life a little more interesting. But he knows all this already ;) Ok, I will try to write again soon cuz I realize my webpage is sooooo completely popular! GUTEN TAG!
Saturday, November 29 7:45 PM
So here I am on Thanksgiving weekend, finally a moment to myself and I dont like it one bit. I have been on the go all weekend. I love to bitch and complain about how I have no friends to hang out with in the Twin Cities, and so I love it when they're all here together. My boyfriend and I broke up so it is a welcome ditraction :( Someone tell me where all the single guys are, PLEASE!? Ok that is a despereate attempt. Only 3 weeks left of school and then Christmas break which honestly, I'm not totally looking forward to, Christmas is a time to remind eveyrone about how lucky they are to have each other.....yeah right, my ass! I have a shitload of homework to do but I'm stalling, maybe I'll go call a friend, hehe. Hope you all had a good Thanksgiving, Guten Abend! (PS-don't take my rambling too seriously, I enjoy talking out of my ass).
Monday, December 1st 7:00 PM
In an effort to help out my roommate, Carrie, I am telling you to listen to Ben Sellon. www.bensellon.com I also have the CD from Carrie if you would like to borrow to listen to it. He is an up and coming artist from the west coast. I met his brother, Tyler, while I studied abroad in Austria. Carrie goes to school with his brother who was studying in Budapest at the time I was in Salzburg. By the way, I really miss my roommate, I wish I could transfer to a school named UPS, how cool is that?
I got my results back from a psychology extra credit assignment I did. I was thinking about it today....I scored extremely high in neuroticism (imagine that), yet extremely high in satisfaction with life, but then very low on self-esteem. I like to think the best of me is hiding up my sleeve :) Isn't that an oxymoron? Who scores high on satisfaction with life but low on self-esteem. It makes me wonder if deep down inside I am truly content but I just think the worst fate for myself (which is actually true). On a positive note, I have lost 4 pounds. Statistically speaking, breaking up may be hard to do but on average, girls lose weight when they do it. Don't I sound like a line from "Clueless"? Everything is going well here thus far, I am reading a great book for English class called "Maus" which is German. I love German. It's about WWII and the Jews only it is written in comic book format, very interesting. Read it if you're into the history of the Nazi's and holocaust. That's all for now, tschuss!
Saturday, December 6 11:15 AM
So I've been reading my old journal entries cuz really I should be typing this paper up but I will do anything but start it. If you don't know me two revelations can be made from my entries 1. I love to complain about how annoying people are (in one way or another) and 2. I enjoy advertising my populatiry oh having friends. Now before you scoff and go "popularity?! PUHLEASE" (cuz that's exactly how you would say it) hear me out....I like to pretend that how many friends I have and how much I go out and socialize will define my happiness. Does everyone else do this too? My journal entries go "Oh my god, I went out with this person and this person, and then the next night I did this blah blah blah." God I am really annoying, so lets just put it this way....I have a lot of friends I hang out with still from high school, so just humor me and PRETEND at least that you think I have a worthy life impacting the souls of others, but we both really know that I make friends as easily as a cat makes friends with a hamster. Just don't tell anyone, SHHH!! Ok, have a good day :)