| Thursday 16 March 2006 I guess the day has come when I have to share a life with someone else. I mean every woman should do this at least once in their life time right? There are some people who will be happy for you and some just down right envious. Like what a book I read once said "if woman were not so jealous of each other, we could have conquered the world and not the men like now" I totally believe that line. I mean seriously. Shit like that happens to me. I'm not proud of it. It saddens me to think that a relationship that once so good could turn bad just because of something that I chose to do. And now that's sad. How about friendship that you treasure like forever suddenly not that important to the other anymore? Sometimes it takes a special moment where you see |
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| those who are really there for you. Those who makes the effort to make something special for you. And the person who you thought will care for you most is not there. But the worse thing, they don't bother giving reasons why they are not there. You see, sometimes I live life trying not to understand too much. Over years people change, but certain change just hurts. I'm embracing my life as a married woman now but to me my friends are still very important to me. They made me who I am. Despite how husbands I have, I still want to know that I'll still have these few people I treasure going through these phrases with me. |
| Sugar Daddy - To have or not to have? Friday 7 April 2006 It has been a long time since I was this broke. I mean seriously, broke. I have 3 accounts 2 are wiped out. Of course it was for a good reason since it is for my wedding. It does not help that I am the only one with the earning power so I'm just trying to make ends meet you know. Then came a thought. Sugar Daddy - is it wrong to have one? Is it morally wrong to take someone's money with no strings attached? I mean prostitute get money after they perform a service. But for us lucky fews, we get money for just being sweet & adorable equipped with some acting skills, it can get us quite far. Is it wrong? I don't think so. You see if you are not at the receiving end, you'll think that we are bitches out to swindle old man of their hard earned money. Hello! If they can offer you the money in the first place, obviously their bank account is overflowing and need us to help them burnt off some $$$ right? You know what? I'm not gonna care what people are gonna think of me.I mean prostitute get money after they perform a service. But for us lucky fews, we get money for just being sweet & adorable equipped with some acting skills, it can get us quite far. Is it wrong? I don't think so. You see if you are not at the receiving end, you'll think that we are bitches out to swindle old man of their hard earned money.I'm gonna get money from my old man for FREE. No sex. No Strings. While the rest of the gals could just drool in envy, I'll paying off my god damn bills. Oh well, I love old men. Watch out, you might be next. |
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| When Your New Girlfriend is my STALKER... Things can get a little sticky when face with such situation. Well I mean, I know I'm attractive to both sexes and I do appreciate women's beauty you know.(I'm a self proclaimed bisexual) But is a person like me to do when I am being 'IDOLISE' by my ex-guy's girlfriend. I feel like I have afan. Dying to know everything about me. Checking my website, my MSN and if she can she will probably hack my email!!! |
| When the Love Can't be Forgotten - 24 June 2006 I can't believe I am putting myself through this. You know sometimes we women need the guy to tell us right into our face that they don't love us anymore. We can't accept it when they slowly disappear hoping we will understand that it is over. You see, we don't. We need the cold hard truth. Having the man we love tell us word for word that "I don't love you anymore." Yes, that might be cruel. Yes, it might hurt so bad that you want to die. However for some reasons that is the only way that we can move on. I can't move on. He hasn't tell me that. I thought I have but he is coming back to haunt me. I'm searching for some kind of closure. That's why I'm doing all these crazy things. Search the whole US just so I can hear him tell me the "cold hard truth". After all that effort, I did found his name in one of the American's people search websites. Hell I have to pay for it but as long as I can get his address, it's worth it. I wonder if he has ever search for me. He left me while he was still in love with me. I don't think he ever did. Why oh why am I doing such silly thing? |
| STOP HER PLEASE!!!! Well you see, if this is just a fad, I can live with that. I'm easy man. But when it goes on beyond TWO years, c'mon that girl need psychiatric help. She should get herself treated at Adam Road. They have pretty good doctors there. They have to be good 'cos I heard they charge a bomb. If she's still a student she can get help at Woodbridge for almost free. Damn! Sorry man I'm freaking out here!!! |
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