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"I am who i am, and no one can say anything 2 change me unless i want to." |
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damn! damn! damn! i'm stuck in this never-ending shithole and there's nothing i can do about it! not even when i'm 18!i guess mai mom has a reason to bitch(prob. gonna hit menopause soon) but mai dad! don't tell me he's gonna hav menopause...heh..actually he probably is havin the male version. the point is i feel so ridiculous! shouldn't ur home be ur safehaven and the place where u can be wanted and loved? i hate comin home everyday! its like... we can't laugh or we get yelled at for all sorts of BS reasons, me and mai siblings can't talk to each other because we would be "wasting time", saying anything with the word luv like "lotz of luv from ur kewlest homie...me!" they freak out and hit the roof, if i even mention a guy's name thier ears become radars, and i can't hav a private conversation or hav lone time in this place. i hate it. i'm not an angry person, i'm not! but those ppl push me to mai limits. its like playin a game to them. house crap stays home. b happy and act all that in front of everyone but cum home everyday to shit. the exception is that they can tell whoever the want to because we're just kids and they hav too much stress to handle. the crappy thing is, i don't make close friends that easily and the only close friend i ever had i left in PA when i moved 4 years ago. unfortunately phone bills too much and she's not allowed to mess with the computer since she crashed it.i really hate this, i luv being happy, and bein anywhere cept home does that so yea even skool's kewl, but i still spend half the damn fucking day here. oh well... i guess arranged marriage ain't so bad if it means gettin outta hear. goodbye marriage, hello divorce. i hate my life... *sigh* on a better note tho, i'm readind part three of the Bourne books (bourne identity was the first) and i still haven't read the second and i watched the first...how odd, but the book is soo totally kool! its the best..in fact i'd rank it up there in my favorites with gone with the wind, harry potter and pride and prejudice and i luv those books! which reminds me, sumone plz buy me Harry Potter #5!!!! PLZ PLZ PLZ! or the Josh Groban CD!!! i don't care! HONEST! i'm real easy to please!!!!!oh and if ur in a really good mood howbout the rishtey sound track!!! mauhahaha...oooo ya, csirh, u are so gonna help me with my car if and when i get it!!! muahahaha...ya u kno i'm gonna hold it to ya too..! bie fernowz....(i'm feelin in a really gud mood all of a sudden! maybe mai parents don't have all that much control on my life!! and they're not really that bad on occasion! they do have thier......moments.. limited, but its there) buh bie! | Nothing more, nothing less I'll never say never &u'll never b in lonliness To me friendship is more important than anything else in the world because friendship is the pendant and we'll never let it burn I want the chance to say i luv u but if it means the loss of our friendship then taht is a wish i'll never do Your temper rises and i kno it is hard to quell afterall, wasn't i there to help u make the rite choices? you gave me hope when i was down and at that time i didn't stop to realize that you always had treated me as tho i wore a crown i said it b4 i'll say it again i'll never leave you cuz u r my friend >> |
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