Poems #3
These poems range in time from about 1986 till present.....I have tried to preserve them in chronological order.
Reflected in you
Pain shines through
I feel it too
Life is hard
Leaves us in scars
Souls stripped bare
Leaving empathy there
Mirrored pain
So much the same
You will survive
Transcend their game
Innocent child
Stalked by sin
Angry eyes
Don't let him in
Touched her there
Forbidden place
Hidden pain
Innocent face
Never there when I need
You don't care if I bleed
Call me friend, yet deny my pain
Use me up, leave me the blame
Cuts so deep when you leave
You only see what you percieve
Friendship true, I offered you
Friendship true, took root and grew
Never tended, never cared
Leaves shriviled, vines stripped bare
Wastland now, empty place
Nothing there, behind your face
Justification of my fear
That no one will want what's in here
All you gave me, dearest friend
Is proof I'll be alone in the end
Maybe that's all I wanted when I met you
Now it's not enough, I guess I grew
Use me gently for I will break
I need to give more then I take
If you take more then I give
Pain will grow, without you I'll live
Outgoing, material
Inverted, spiritual
We could have taught
The other to see
So much more
That life could be
Mona child, wild and free
Agony, pain, no one can see
~for Mona~
Demented, twisted, poisonous pain
The end results always the same
On and on, abusive lives
Where does it stop when a baby cries
Why can't we see this world we create
When we let a child's life be filled with hate
~this one was written in response to seeing the Susan Smith story unfold on TV~
Should we judge another's pain
When our own is not the same
Everyone's hurt comes from within
Understanding our own is where we begin
Time will heal but very slow
Life leaves wounds that never go
Help each other heal the pain
In our need we're all the same
Writhing and twisting inside of me
I cannot escape this agony
Childhood scars still throb with pain
Memories burn, life lived in shame
No escape without forgiveness
Victim or villian, who can judge this?
I cannot hide the agony
That for so long, defined me
Don't fuck with me anymore
I've had enough, I'm out the door
My life's my own, I make the rules
No longer victimized by fools
Who use me to fulfill their need
Don't put me down to suit your greed
Screams in the dark
Stab through the heart
Blood on the floor
Behind a closed door
Pain drenched soul
Knows hatred, nothing more
Crystal blood flows through veins
Love, pleasure, hatred, pain
Silver dust coating skin
Over, out, under, in
Gossamer dreams fill my head
Alive, awake, asleep, dead