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| Goodbye this fight is so hard to fight i feel im losing no matter how hard i try these tears just keep falling one by one into an ocean of misery and pain can no one hear my cries is my cry for help in vain i have lost all hope and soon i will lose this fight how will i go and where will it take me i am so tired of trying being nice gets me no where only heartache and sorrow it brings me how can others be so cruel stabbing me deep inside my heart the blood explodes into a fountain of torment what makes one hate did i do something to deserve this was i not good enough or just in the wrong place and time god please answer my prayers, i think its too late im on the path of no return no one can stop be now i have made up my mind it is time to go the boat has left the dock heading on into the sunset i will not look back headed towards a better place where i will hurt no more most will not notice my abstence those that do, please dont cry i am hurting no more i have spread my wings and have flown into the clouds i am free , for once in my life with out sorrow. no more tears to shed. i love you with all my heart, goodbye. |
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| Life has so many different emotions. Happiness, sadness, anger, confusion and etc. As you notice with my poetry some of it is happy and some of it is sad. I will warn you that some of these poems are of dark nature. very deep and close to my heart. Poetry is a great release for me. Guess my own therapy for what i have been thru. I share it with you today, to not only open the doors of my world but maybe to touch others. Whether you can relate with the words I have written or it envokes something inside of you, I have accomplished something! So take some time to reflect on what you have read and enjoy. Huggs Derek |
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| Left Its Mark into the sun i go it's blinded my reality all i see now are the bright lights of the fires ahead the warmth of the flames keeps me safe when i feel cold the closer I get the farther i get from the madness of it all my eyes begin to blur from all the smoke from the flames it begins to burn my skin the blackness fills my soul and darkens my heart i loose all grasp of sanity soon my world will not be the same a changed man I will be no way to change what has passed and what I have done how can i live with what i have done and what i have not i feel like a failure for i have done nothing with my life but is that me speaking or just my insecurities or just those that would love to see me fall i look back at my life and what do i see? that is the question i do not know the answer it is clouded by misery and pain how do i let go of the only thing i have none the comfort of my misery kept me asleep at my the sound of my own tears and the soft dull roar of my heart were all i had during it all so you ask why go thru life feeling this way how do you change what you do not know all my life it has just been apart of me its like your shadow sometimes it appears bigger than it really is it learns to hide behind you and sneak upon you when you least expect it it will grab ahold of your jugular if you let it take your very last breath drain you of your very last ounce of life leave you with just a shell of who you are an emptyness youll never refill once it taken whats its come for , its gone as soon as it appeared leaving you with nothing but a feeling of lonliness longing for what was yours and what was stolen you miss it but yet dont know what it feels like to have your soul back it was taken without your asking with no regards to your feelings like a dager thru the night it ripped your chest and stole your heart everything you knew that was right is now wrong your innocence, your childhood, your privacy all gone replaced with an ooze of slim covering the inside of your body you try to wipe away the feeling you scrub and scrub and its as strong and real as ever no soap exists that will clean this dirtyness the dirt has been rubbed into deep so deep you cant see the dirtyness but yet you feel it its all you sense now you've lost all other senses and you go on in this world trying to cleanse yourself of this your life cycles thru time after time the pain reappears as different monsters but the same ole evil exists destroyed your soul left its mark |