What do you do
when you feel you've been slandered
there's nothing you can do
just sit back and watch it happen
all of your anger - all of your fear
are nothing more than the road
that brought you here
no matter how you fight - no matter how you try
you get no dignified way to say....goodbye
Well, once upon a time, my darlings, there was a website...and on this website, people spoke of many things, they spoke of life, love, and a collectible card game. Star Trek: The Collectible Card Game to be precise.
There are chat rooms where people talk of the various things in their lives, and sometimes people read the public archives (or logs) of these conversations. Most of the time they are boring and sad...just people talking about being bored, or wishing for another tournament so they can play. Occasionally (read: rarely) there is something very, very interesting in the logs.
If you have a friend who reads them, you may even get a log sent to you, to start off your Monday morning more pissed than you've been since your ass got dumped. Just possibly....this is, of course, a fairy tale. No one really gets dumped, and no one really gets angry....
I present, for your viewing entertainment...The Log�!
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Lounge logs from last week.
69116 Jurgen Thor: Mike, are you in Canada? 69119 Michael: Mike Eddington is, but I'm not, no. I will be in under a week however, 69120 Delta Flyer: has the right to remain silent 69123 Jurgen Thor: What'll you be ther for? 69126 KMC: Michael will you do me a Favor while you in canada? 69127 Sara: okay, ignore me 69128 KMC: get patty to sign a Exocomp card for me :) 69129 Michael: I was invited to play in some tournaments, so I'm going to go with some friends. 69132 Jurgen Thor: KMC-- I live just three blocks from patty. I could do that for you. 69136 Michael: I assume that you're going to the Conference next weekend? 69138 KMC: Jurgen well I figure if Michael dose it than he can give it to me at states :) 69139 KMC: whispers something to Koras 69140 Jurgen Thor: I'm thinking 'bout it-- I need to see if I have to work though. 69141 Jurgen Thor: I should be able to make it. 69143 Jurgen Thor: will you be there? 69147 Michael: Yep, you'll see me there 69148 Jurgen Thor: Where are you out of, Mike? 69149 KMC: Michael if you'd bring me back a signed Exocomp I'd aperciate it though :) 69151 Michael: BTW, when you do meet me, don't call me Mike. I can't seem to hear that name. I live in Oregon 69152 KMC: whispers something to Arandis 69153 Jurgen Thor: What should I call you then? 69154 KMC: Michael maybe :) 69156 Michael: Michael works just fine and dandy, although some people can't help but call me Scot 69159 Jurgen Thor: You got it Scott! 69161 Michael: I'm rather used to both names by now 69162 Jurgen Thor: Just don't call me by my real name. --Was born with "Nerd" as legal name:-( 69164 Lwaxana Troi: pop 69166 Jurgen Thor: Hi Lwaxie! 69167 Lwaxana Troi: hi :( 69168 Jurgen Thor: Why so sad? 69170 Jurgen Thor: What can we do to turn that frown upside down? 69171 Lwaxana Troi: Teeth pains, and I can't see the dentist before Monday 69172 Koras: ouch... 69180 Michael: How quaint, talk about lag... 69183 Michael: That I can beat: I can't see a dentist till January at the earliest 69184 Jurgen Thor: M: do you need glasses? 69187 Koras: michael, why's that? 69188 Michael: No, but it makes things much more difficult 69190 Lwaxana Troi: whispers something to Koras 69192 Michael: Koras: No insurance = no money for the dentist = wait until moving to Canada 69195 Jurgen Thor: where are you moving to? 69196 Koras: michael, wowy... 69197 Michael: Windsor, Ontario 69198 Jurgen Thor: Ouch. my condolences on going to Ontario. 69199 Michael: What's wrong with Ontario? 69201 Jurgen Thor: It's full of ontarians. plus it has the downside of having Toronto. 69206 Michael: (shrugs) Oh well. No, Dusty lives in Manitoba 69211 Jurgen Thor: This is just a bit of western alienation humour. you'll get used to us whiny Albertains after a while in Canada. 69218 Michael: No problem, I hear a variety of different things from different people 69221 Michael: Should I ask what I'm supposed to call you when I meet you next weekend? 69224 Jurgen Thor: Most people call me by my middle name "Olav" 69227 Michael: Ah, then we have talked before, that's always good to know 69232 Jurgen Thor: But my close friends call me the trundling engine of love. 69233 Jurgen Thor: or Dr. F�nk 69239 Michael: And what does Jennifer call you? ;-) 69241 Jurgen Thor: Nothing anymore. 69242 Jurgen Thor: I haven't spoken to her since early January. 69243 Michael: Something happened? (is sorely out of the loop of so many things in the world) 69255 Jurgen Thor: I ended it. It wasn't working out for me, so instead of keeping it going through changing who I was, changing who she was... 69260 Jurgen Thor: Or reviving the dead relationship using unnatural necromancy or dark arts, I decided to make it a clean break. 69262 Michael: Ah, I understand. I'm sorry it didn't work out between the two of you 69267 Michael: (really needs a Cliff Notes edition of many things before next weekend) 69270 Jurgen Thor: So am I. I hope that she's doing well and that she's happy, but it's better if I don't try and find out. 69276 Jurgen Thor: Please don't bring it up-- patty thinks we should still be together. 69281 Michael: I won't, my memory is far too lousy and I'm far too medicated right now to remember much of anything of the last 8 hours. 69287 Jurgen Thor: What medications are you on? anythin good? 69292 Michael: Hello Arandis (Nope, nothing good, just painkillers for my teeth) 69299 Jurgen Thor: I've never played an online game. Do people still do that? I'd like to try sometime if anyone is up for it. 69310 Michael: At least you don't sing or have conversations in your sleep that you don't remember 69315 Michael: Or yell for that matter. 69323 Jurgen Thor: Have to run. I'm off to the Pokemon movie preview. Gotta revew it. |
Regarding some of the information in The Log�
1) Jurgen Thor is Olav, the reason he chose Jurgen Thor is because this is his favorite character in his favorite book. The book is by Ben Elton and is called This Other Eden. I really enjoyed this book, and it was what we were going to have engraved on the inside of our wedding rings. The rings being his idea, not mine. I came up with the engraving suggestion because he asked me to. Another note regarding the handle chosen. I can only wonder if he chose it because of the distinct personality traits shared between Jurgen and himself. One thing is for sure, he probably has the audacity to think I'm the girl that Jurgen dropped down the cavern for knowing too much. He would be wrong. Very, very wrong.
2) Michael is one of my favorite people in the world. I don't know him overly well, and haven't talked to him in months, but love him anyway. The reference to "The Scot" is a scottish reference. His name is not nor was it ever Scott. That is a mistake on Olav's part. He also gets called Laddie from what I've seen. He is sweet and kind and remembers me. I offered to let him stay in my home when he came out here for...um...something...I forget what, and the offer is still open, but I do not see him around anymore. That's a shame, really.
3) Line #69162: This is possibly true, possibly false. When I first met Olav he attempted to convince me his legal name was Plastic Tolstoy (the evil bad guy (and my favorite character) from the aforementioned book, This Other Eden) I had almost believed it, until he realized he might want to sleep with me, and that's when his story changed drastically, and his name became Nerd, then Nord, then Olav. His drivers license reads Olav Nord Rokne. That's the only thing I *know* to be absolutely true. He lies, you know. Line 69224 is a blatent lie, as far as his legal drivers license goes.
4) Line #69232: This used to be my nickname. Nice of him not to have any respect for me whatsoever to steal it for himself. I hated it, and convinced him to finally stop using it. That, and "Salmon in a white wine sauce" ... I assume, gentle reader, you can see why it didn't take long to get over him. I knew he was going to leave almost from day one. The lack of respect I'm receiving now is what enrages me and makes me want to speak to him, which, of course....wouldn't be for good for me. He is trying to portray himself as the strong decision maker. Of course, in reality, it's such a shame that the only person who knows that isn't true is the one who is thousands of miles away. No wonder he won't stay friends with me and is trying to alienate me from my long distance friends....I know his true self, he couldn't handle it. End of story.
5) This is probably the most important line #69260: The relationship was not dead. Not by a long shot. Whatever he has convinced himself of, it sure isn't anything I could figure out through anything other than pagan means. Dead relationship? It was only four months. What on earth can you achieve in four months, much less achieve and watch die. He is taking a moral and personal high ground he niether deserves nor has earned.
That's all I can think of for now, but as you can see/tell I am not pleased with this at all. Changing me? Changing him? Just another example of a blatent lie. Patty wanting us to be together? Another blatent lie. Patty has no open opinion that I know of regarding the situation either way. She was sorry it ended badly, but she didn't ever state to me that he should not have left. He is a compulsive liar that will say anthing that the moment tells him to say. I just got caught in the crossfire.
I'll write more later. I need to calm down a bit.
~Dryad~