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| Your Joy by Niki Hoffman |
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| All I wanted was to make them happy. To see the light upon their faces, It was all I really needed. But what happens when that joy comes at a cost? What happens if ym sorrow is your joy? Too many tears have been lost by you Nobody! is worth these precious drops Yet you come along and rip them away Savoring them like crystal rain Should I tell you? How can I? I've never had such consuming hatred and utter detest for one person before You're not worth the tears I've shed Ignore you? How can I? Your words will continue to echo within my tortured mind You're not worht the pain that you cause Tell others? How can I? You have taken them from me, twisting my words in ways that even I find to be true. You're just not worth it Change? I do. Now I push others away, forced to hide my choatic thoughts and their actions Every drop; a symbol of your cruelty You won't even let me try and piece myself together How can you find so much pleasure From these agonizing scars? Finally my screams break through Yet you just call it a misunderstanding Do you honestly believe I can just go back to to what I was? Should I tell you? How can I? The words that are escaping from my parted lips are not of my own creation I will escape this torment Ignore it? How can I? Every movement, every touch, even your breathe is a reminder of what you've done And when I do you will pay Tell others? How can I? I can't even find my own thoughts within my dark mind. Every tear that has fallen will have revenge Forgive you? Every tear; a drop of your blood These simple words repeat brutally in my hidden memories, but How can I? Because you're not worth it After all I endured How can I? |
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