good morning son
i am a bird
wearing a brown polyester shirt
you want a coke?
maybe some fries?
the roast beef combo's only nine ninety five...
but its okay
you don't have to pay
i've got all the right change

everybody knows
it hurts to grow up
but everybody does
it's so weird to be back here
let me tell you what
the years go on
and we're still fighting it
and you're so much like me
i'm sorry

good morning son
twenty years from now
maybe we'll both sit down
and have a few beers
and I can tell
you about today
and how I picked you up
and everything changed
it was pain
sunny days and rain
i knew you'd feel the same things

everybody knows
it sucks to grow up
and everybody does
and so weird to be back here
let me tell you what
the years go on and
we're still fighting it

you'll try and try
and one day you'll fly
away from me
it was pain
sunny days and rain
i knew you'd feel the same things

everybody knows
it hurts to grow up
and everybody does
and so weird to be back here
let me tell you what
the years go on
and we're still fighting it
and you're so much like me
i'm sorry.

-- Ben Folds, Still Fighting It
(this is a VERY good song. It's much better to listen to the song than simply read the lyrics)
Dot adjusted her glasses @9:09 PM

HAPPY BIRFDAY BEFFFFF!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Today is Tuesday, Tuesday starts with "T". Today (another word that starts with T) I left work early and bought Ben Folds' new solo album, Rockin the Suburbs and System of a Down's Toxicity. Both VERY good albums, although SOAD isn't quite what I would normally listen to looking at my cd collection, and at first I really didn't like them very much, but geez this album is total CHAOS! And I expected Ben Folds to be like BFF, but it isn't really. He incorperates keyboards and digital sounds into his songs, and actually it seems to have a more serious/mellow sound to it. I is happy.

Dot adjusted her glasses @10:12 PM

Ya know the weirdest thing happened to me... for the first time I've started to retalliate against things that have pissed me off. Normally I'm a pretty passive person, if someone insults me or pisses me off I brush it off. But not anymore. Haha it's kinda fun.

First thing, Dusty at work. I can't stand this guy! He falsifies his time sheets, never comes to work on time, leaves without saying a word, coming to work stoned out of his mind... yet for some reason he still has a job!! WHY?! So I opened up Microsoft Paint and drew a pot leaf with a line cutting through it, and "Drugs are Stoopid" under it. Then I used the image as the computer's desktop. I donno if he ever saw it, but everyone knew who did it, and apparently they liked it cuz they're tired of his crap too.

Then a friend of mine chewed my butt out over the heterosexual pride thing on the website thinking that we were attacking gays (which wasn't really the case if you read more into it) so I sent her an email back pretty much getting on her case for not talking to me until this happened, then calling me an ignorant bigot over something she doesn't know about. That really got me worked up. Thankfully she apologized and things are okay now.

And today... the stupid g'dawgs in the apartment complex across from me had their car stereos blasting to where I could hear their crappy rap music from my parent's bedroom (where the computer is located). This is not the first time that they've done this. So I pointed my computer speakers to the window (which is facing the apartments) and turned on Nerf Herder's "I Only Eat Candy" as loud as the speakers could handle. Once I turned them down for fear of our landlords complaining, they had turned off their crappy music. Thank goodness... my poor ears were bleeding.

But I still think its kinda strange... I swear I'd never be so bold to do some of the crap I've done lately cuz of people pissing me off. I donno what caused it but I must admit... I like it!!
Dot adjusted her glasses @7:30 PM

Quotes from Vampire Princess Miyu:

"Your eyes are clouded until you cannot see, even though the truth is always within you."--Miyu

"Miyu you said that the ocean from moment to moment is beautiful right? People are the same.
It is because there is death that life is so wonderful. " --Miyu's Mother
Dot adjusted her glasses @9:22 PM

I like this guy's thinking.

Prince sings like a woman... he looks like one too. So does Michael Jackson...
Dot adjusted her glasses @1:18 PM

I donno� Beth and I were talking about the terrorist attack today and I know she thinks I�m crazy. I�m not really sure but I just feel pretty numb to it all. Don�t get me wrong, my sympathy and condolences go towards the families of those who lost loved ones in this attack, it�s horrible that so many people died like that. But at the same time I can�t help but think about how stuff like this happens all the time in other parts of the world, and the people here cannot fathom it happening to them, it feels so unreal to everyone. Most people I ask about their feelings told me �I still can�t believed it happened�. It�s so funny how we forget that there are other parts of the world where a person wonders if they�re going to die the moment the step foot outside their house, where a person is shot in the street every day just because of their religion, race, whatever. And geez, almost the entire continent of Europe was annexed by the Nazi�s and millions of Jews were tortured and killed. For years America has not been touched by any terrorists other than a couple bombings and domestic crimes by stupid teenagers. Then this attack occurs and all they can say is �I can�t believe it happened�

"just like you were robbed in a familiar street, just as a home can be invaded and broken into, so can our country."

This attack simply proves that we aren't invincible and that life can come to a sudden end. It's just sad that after hearing story after story about murder, rape, disease, whatever on the news it takes something this catasrophic to actually make people realize that....

It also shows how lucky we've been all these years.
Dot adjusted her glasses @7:02 PM

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Kudos to MTV for being the worst station on television!

I've been playing The Illusion of Gaia the past two weeks AND I CANNOT GET PAST THE FIRST BOSS!!! Isn't that terrible? The thing is so dang hard! And Jonathan goes on to tell me:

"Well if you think he's hard just wait until you make it to the Great Wall!"... thanks.

Then Chris tells me:

"Oh I've beaten that game fifty times!" ... thanks again!

*sigh* It sucks tho cuz I used to be a die-hard gamer until Playstations and Saturns came out, then my parents refused to buy another system and I got screwed! So my only gateway to the gamer/anime world was Game Fan magazine (their anime fan section used to kick major booty with awesome graphics, but now it sucks!!!). But I'd drool over the Neo Geo's, N64 (I have one but I hate it!), Playstations, etc. Jon's friend Matt was suprised I even knew about King of Fighters! For a while I used to go to Funstation and play Gauntlet until I was broke... then I realized that I don't like being broke... *sigh* But since I can't afford a PS2 or anything nifty like that I simply went out and purchased an SNES and a couple good RPG games... Now if I can get my grubby hands on CHRONO TRIGGER!! Yeah!!

I really don't like my Color Theory class... it's B-O-R-I-N-G! I sit infront of these two guys... I swear they must have NEVER went to school in their lives because they didn't even know what primary colors to mix to make purple!! GEEES! But the entire three hours today was dedicated to a lame project which consisted of designing our own color wheel and creating some sort of gray scale/color scale thing... bascially it makes me think of paint swatches.

Oh yeah! I went to the coin laundromat for the first time in my life! Weeee! I think the guys there thought I was the dumbest white girl they'd seen. I couldn't even operate a coin washing machine! Arrrggghhh!
Dot adjusted her glasses @8:31 PM

I have GOT to be the slowest person on the planet. I LOCKED MYSELF OUT OF MY OWN HOUSE! Well it happens to the best of us but PLEASE! I ended up having to wait on the front porch for an hour for my parents to arrive home, and it was hot outside. Mom suggested I walk to TCC, but it's a 30 minute walk from here and I have to lug my portfolio and art supplies with me, which is a major no.

The life of a weirdo.
Dot adjusted her glasses @7:37 PM