30 September/1 October 2005
Judging by what I understood... less than 24 hours! It was a whole week, yet these are gonna seem like fucking long 24 hours... anyways. Gotta go to bed. Nearly 2 AM. I don't even know what the question is!
Sucker!
29 September 2005
3... Only tomorrow... then the day after.. and then... and then on Monday... Bah 3 days is still a lot.
Just three days now...
28 September 2005
4 days. 4 isn't as much. It's nearly 3, which is pretty close to 2, and that's almost 1 which is so little it might be considered to be 0. 322541 seconds. 322540. 322539. Gotta get something better to do than watch that countdown all day.
Well, that and playing Fahrenheit/Indigo Prophecy. Interesting game. Recommended to me by.. guess who. Interesting how nearly everything he recommends turns out to be nice, yet he himself could be so... but that's another topic with which I wish not to concern my self. So, Fahrenheit is made really interesting. I mean, it's something new. It's not just Generic Copy Of Previously Released Titles #54357. I admit it does a bad job as a "thriller" (as a matter of fact, Doom 3's scared me more times, and they weren't a lot :), however it is still a magnificent work. It feels like a movie that's still a game. It gets you into the skin of the characters. Makes you make choices for them instead of for yourself.
322206. 322205. 322204.
[Ani got offended again day before yesterday. Didn't see her today. She's a bottess. Well, I mean, ok, I understand her, I'd feel a bit offended too if they'd said that and I was in the same situation. But why do you have to leave the channel?? Run, run. Escape. Your choice. I'd much rather have had you get angry at me than that (though I suppose you did that too, along with leaving). Well anyway. Your choice. Don't really care.]
321968... damn, 4 days ain't that little. Three hundred thousand seconds. When even 10 without her are a lot.
Gotta go to bed. Sleepy. Been a while since I was sleepy in the evening. Usually am in the morning. Aw well. Better get some sleep. Will have enough tomorrow anyways, physics class.
It's sad sitting next to that empty seat, knowing it won't be until next week that it will no longer be empty. I've tried ignoring it.. just for the week. Tried and failed. Can't forget her for much longer than the time it takes Angelova to get us asleep. (For which, I guess, a unit with a prefix of at least nano needs to be used)
Stupid winamp popup. You're hiding the countdown. FU.
321467
321458
321452
321444...
...and winamp tends to be so very ironic sometimes. Irony is a cruel bitch. Wait. Fuck. It's cadday.
LOL! Cad rulz :)
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Meh, really gotta go to bed. Even Winamp says so :) 'tis playing Sandman.
Hope I dream of you again :)
21/22 September 2005
7 A week is 7 days. 7 days is a week. Weeks are short. Just 7 days. Weeks are long. 7 days! 7 days... Heh, irony is a cruel bitch. 7... my "favorite" number. Not really. Not this time. A week...
How will I survive?!
Have fun with the churches :)
I wish next week didn't exist.
Google is mocking me at this very moment :(
16 September 2005
Seek to find, want to get. There is no real alternative. Predetermined is everything, and life is just a story, long since written by fate. Free will is an illusion. There is only one way, not two, not twenty. No back door. Only one way to escape...
Escape... fear? To want to escape, one must have something to run from. Something disliked. Something that one would rather be gone. Static. To fear something, seeking a solution. One always present, yet not the true one. There is no truth. No spoon. No life.
The man takes another bullet
He keeps them all within
He must seek, no matter how it hurts
So don't fool again
He thinks the answer's cold and in his hand
He takes his medicine
The man takes another bullet
He's been fooled again
Not really the cure. No back door. A path, sometimes dark, sometimes brighter, one we must walk along. As intended. No life, yet no death. Suicide... it is fear. The wish to run away. To escape.
don't run from your problems
...will you?
I do believe
9/10 September 2005
I might hate having to order stuff / tidy stuff up, and so on, but I apparently enjoy doing so with files. Heh. I opened the folder where I keep all my stuff and I was like "OMG wtf!!". And I had a good reasong to be shocked :). There were 40+ folders with varying names, most consisting of one or two letters, most of them not giving the slightest indication of the contents. Then were the files that weren't in any folder, just thrown there. They were more like 400+. So I tidied up stuff. And I'm normally extremely lazy. But my laziness had absolutely no effect on me as I did so. Very weird. I mean, I was almost too lazy to write the <em> tags around that no a couple of s-ces ago, and yet I'm not too lazy to sort and organize so much stuff.
Weird.
2 September 2005
Meh, I haven't updated in a week. More. Gotta be a reason. Lack of time? No, since my brother left the PC is free all day. I could update non-stop if I wanted to. Laziness? Sure, has to do. But I am sometimes pretty bored and don't have anything to do. Like now. So what keeps me from stopping by and throwing in an update? Good question. Maybe the fact I've nothing sensible and meaningful to write. I mean, I can't talk about senisibility and meaningfulness after... well, nevermind.
And the last few days I've been doing absolutely nothing. Just like that. Nothing. Nothing meaningful, to be precise. Nothing useful to anyone. How is useful defined? Having a beneficial use. Nope. Haven't done that. And what benificial thing can I do/make? I have no idea... I'm planning on registering a domain, I've found a pretty cheap hosting that isn't so bad (considering the amount you have to pay, anyway). I want to make something useful, on PHP for example. But what? As always, I'm open to suggestions, since I have no idea. If anyone is unfortunate enough to have run into this site, and at the same time able to enlighten me on what I could do, e-mail's written in the header.
As said, I'm pretty bored. Sure, a few friends are online every day, so we chat all day. Chat... Of course, I do prefer being able to converse than not. But isn't the same...
Also been listening to lots of Metallica. Well, of course, they rule, no doubts on that, but maybe I should listen to something else too. You know, for variety. But I can't find some other band that I really like. Of course, I like some songs of others, but I've yet to find a band where I like every song of. (Well, almost :)
I ought to start writing the template of the page that will be on the domain I shall purchase. Lazy, but I have to do something productive...
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