Summary: Nick is struggling to make it day by day. Justin is trying to survive stardom. They both live two very different lives, but when they meet on a cold winters night a friendship begins. Will there be more then friendship? Do opposites really attract?

Paring: Justin/Nick (TimberNick)

Rating: PG-13 and Up

Warning: This is slash, meaning there will be male/male sexual relations mentioned in the story. Also, this story should also get a HET warning for those of you that don't like HET content. There are other couples in this story other then Justin and Nick and a few of them happen to be male/female couples. If you don't want to read chapters with explicit HET content then go ahead and scroll down to read the EDITED chapters.

Authors Note: I am really grateful to have a great friend writing this story with me. How we have it worked out is that I write whatever Nick says, and my good friend Kris writes all of Justin's lines. If this is confusing, or if you have any questions about the format feel free to e-mail me and I'll try and help clear anything up.

Status: Incomplete

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Once downstairs and at Anne's door; Nick knocked on it and it opened almost instantly. "Hey beautiful lady," he said with a smile on his face.

Anne smiled wide and blushed a little. "Don't you boys look handsome," she said as she let them into the apartment before she headed into the living room and over to a coat closet.

"You're looking lovely Anne," Justin told her when she returned wearing her coat. He handed Nick the car keys because Nick was the one who knew where the restaurant Anne loved was. "We ready to go?" He questioned watching as she hooked her arm with Nick's as they all walked out of her apartment. The woman all smiles.

"I know we said you could pick where we were going tonight but I have something else in mind." Nick said with a smile as they walked out into the cold February air.

Anne just continue to smile, "Whatever is fine with me, just spending the evening with you two studs is all I need." she teased.

Justin chuckled and then opened the passenger side door for her once they were at the car before he got in the back seat and waited for the engine to heat up.

Nick felt funny having Justin sitting behind him but in a way it made him feel safe too. "Everybody all buckled up?" When Justin and Anne both said they were Nick backed out and headed onto the street and to Anne's favorite restaurant.

It wasn't anything extremely fancy but it was a nice quiet looking little restaurant on the corner or what looked like a very old part of town. It wasn't rundown per say but just definitely well loved.

Anne noticed where they were and smiled, "Oh you're such a sweetheart Nickolas for thinking of this place."

Justin smiled when he noticed Anne's eyes light with delight and at the blush that crept up on Nick's face at her statement. Looking out the window he took in the restaurant and realized that it wasn't too shabby looking. Once Nick had parked the car he got out and opened the door for Anne before following them into the restaurant.

The host saw Anne and smiled big, "Anne we haven't seen you in a long time!" he said giving the older woman a hug.

Nick smiled, "Hey Leo...how are ya?"

Leo looked at Nick and his eyes went wide. "Nick Carter?"

Nick smirked, "Don't seem so shocked, it's only been a few months since I was here last."

"Yes but then you like fell off the face of the earth." Leo laughed.

Justin stood back and watched them greet one another with a warm smile on his face. He looked around at the restaurant and realized that this was definitely something that he could picture both Nick and Anne in, mostly Anne thought. It suited her for some reason; much like her apartment fit her life.

After some small talk with Leo, actually an old friend of Nick's from high school, they were shown to a booth in the back. When Nick went to so sit with Anne she elbowed him so hard he was sure he was going to have a bruise on his side. "Don't even think about it, you go sit with your boy."

Nick hesitated, he didn't know if that was a good idea because of Justin's image, he knew for a fact this was a gay friendly establishment, since the whole neighborhood was, but he still didn't know what Justin wanted.

"It's fine," Justin said noticing this exchange as well as Nick's concern. He had his hat on so he was almost certain no one would recognize him in this place. He didn't mind if Nick sat with Anne, this would actually give him a chance to see Nick's face... both of them actually.

Anne wasn't sure she liked this; it seemed to her that Justin wasn't one with his sexuality yet and that made her worried for their relationship. 'Something I'll have to talk to them about after dinner'. She thought to herself.

Nick sat down next to Anne again and picked up his menu. "If I can suggest something, their just plain old spaghetti is to die for. Everything else is good to but Bruno makes the best marinara sauce in all of Indiana."

"Really?" Justin asked as he looked through the menu and decided to just take Nick's suggestion because almost everything on the menu looked delicious. Setting his menu down he picked up his glass of water and took a sip.

"I'm going to have the same thing." Anne said as she put her menu down and looked across the table at Justin, almost staring into him.

Nick noticed this and laughed, "You're going bore holes into him."

Justin's face heated up at the intense gaze Anne was giving him. He had the distinct feeling that he'd done something wrong but for the life of him couldn't figure out what it was. "Did I...miss something?" He questioned, completely confused.

"You don't feel comfortable in your own skin," Anne said point blank.

Nick's eyes went wide and opened his mouth to try and say something so Justin wouldn't get embarrassed or something but Anne didn't give him a chance.

"You're not comfortable with your sexuality." She added.

Justin was a bit taken back at the outright way she just told him that. He opened his mouth before closing it at a loss for words and still in shock. A few moments later he shook his head and met her gaze. "What... makes you say that?" He questioned.

"Anne..." Nick said in almost a warning. This was NOT what he wanted to have happen. He knew his older friend was just looking out for him but this wasn't cool.

Anne shook her head brushing Nick off. "Look around you," she said pointing around at the tables; where close to half of them were either guys and guys or girls and girls and it was obvious they were more then just friends out having dinner.

Justin did look around and saw that the majority of the people there homosexual couples. What did that have to do with him not being comfortable under his own skin? He wondered. Did this have to do with him telling that Nick could sit with Anne? He looked at Anne, not seeing her point. "I'm sorry; I don't understand what that has to do with anything?"

"Anne stop," Nick said really wanting Justin to fee comfortable not feel interrogated.

"Nickolas," Anne warned again before she went on. "You have no need to feel that Nick shouldn't sit with you, unless you don't feel comfortable as a gay man."

Nick groaned looking at Justin with a 'God I'm SO sorry look' in his eyes, praying the younger man wouldn't get angry with him.

Justin took in a deep breath and shook his head. "I think you misunderstood," he said calmly. "I don't mind Nick sitting next to me, that doesn't bother me." He looked at the both of them before focusing back on Anne and shrugged. "I just figured this way I could see the both of you." He then nodded over at a couple not too far from them. "They aren't sitting next to each other but across from each other... I don't see how this is any different."

Nick couldn't help the small smile that crossed his lips but he didn't say anything.

Anne still had a feeling there was more to it then that but she nodded her head, "I apologize," she said feeling she has overstepped her boundaries even more then she originally thought.

Justin thought for a moment before giving her smile although it didn't quite reach his eyes. "It's quite alright," he said in a soft voice. "I know how much you mean to Nick and vice versa so... it's fine if I get put on the stand." Just then the waiter came over and took their orders and Justin ordering the best wine in the house.

"Now he's trying to get us drunk." Anne teased Justin really trying to make him feel comfortable now that she had totally screwed things up.

Nick laughed, "At least me cuz he knows I can't hold my liquor what so ever.

Justin chuckled. "Now that you mention it..." he trailed off with a smirk but shook his head."I just figured wine was better than soda to go with what we ordered."

Nick smirked back at Justin and gave him a look that said 'you don't need to get me drunk to have your way with me'.

"I think you made an excellent choice." Anne said as she smiled over at Justin hoping she hadn't messed up the friendship they were building.

Justin smiled back at the both of them before falling into a light conversation about Anne's family. It wasn't long before their dinner was served and Justin agreeing with Nick that the spaghetti was the best he's had in a long while.

Nick was pleased to know Justin agreed with him but the talking was farther between as they happily ate their food and drank their wine.

Anne kept watching both the boys and realized she was wrong about one thing. Justin even though he still might have issues he was overcoming them and whatever they were Nick didn't seem to care in the least. It was obvious he loved the young man across from them.

After they finished their meal and were leisurely taking bites of their chocolate cake desert Justin cleared his throat and took out the rectangular box from the pocket of his pants. Inside was a white gold diamond encrusted ID bracelet, that had Nick's name on the front and a 'love, your snow angel' on the back with the date of the first time Justin had walked into Nick's bar inscribed underneath. It wasn't much but Justin wanted to do something special... give Nick something on their two month anniversary... seeing that they were both back in the same state where everything started.

He looked into Nick's eyes as he licked his lips and handed him the box. "It's not much..." he trailed off. "But...I wanted to give you something.... today."

Nick's eyes were popping out of their sockets as he opened the box and saw the bracelets. This was probably the most beautiful thing he had ever had or owned even more so then the simple cross necklace and ear-rings that Justin gave him. "This is....wow." he said looking up at Justin with tears in his eyes. "Thank you."

Anne sat there with a huge smile on her face all her fears totally gone, she had been wrong and she was thankful. "My god Nickolas you could feed a small country with that thing." she teased.

Justin chuckled at Anne's statement. "Read the back," he told Nick in a soft voice. That poem Nick had given him for Christmas; he had made a copy of it and now carries it with him in his wallet at all times.

Nick flipped it open and this time tears did fall from his eyes. It was times like these that he hated being an over emotional person. "This is so great...thank you." he said having to get up and going over and hugging Justin tightly.

Justin hugged Nick back just as tightly before reaching up and wiping the tears off his cheeks and pressing a soft kiss to his lips." You're welcome," he replied with a smile, happy to know that Nick was happy.

Anne smiled and then cleared her throat, "I hate to do this boy's but I'm an old woman and I like to be back at home by 9:00pm." She said looking at her watch.

Nick smiled, "Sure, Anne we can go." he said before calling the waiter over to get their check.

When the check came Justin handed over his credit card. Once he had the things signed and left a tip they all headed out to their car.

The car ride was full of small talk and continued until they reached Anne's door. "I would invite you boys in for a bit but I feel like I won't be much company with how tired I'm feeling."

Nick smiled, "That's okay Anne," he said as he gave her a hug. "You get some sleep."

"Have a good night Anne," Justin told her giving her a hug as well. When he felt Nick's fingers link with his he squeezed his hand back.

Keeping his hand locked in Justin's he led them back up the stairs and then down the hall to his room. "I feel like you're supposed to drop ME off at my door step." he laughed.

Justin laughed as he pulled Nick into his arms before he could open the door. "Do I get my good night kiss?" He asked pretending as though they were out on the porch about to share a good night kiss.

"Hmm I don't know, I don't know if I should kiss on the first date," He teased as he looked into Justin's eyes with a huge smile on his face

"Well," Justin said looking into Nick's eyes. "Seeing what we did earlier this evening I would hope you'd make a little exception." He smirked.

Nick pretended to think about that a little before he leaned in and pressed his lips to Justin's hungrily. He had a feeling Justin was expecting something sweet and soft but he decided to throw caution to the wind and do it full out as he held Justin tightly to him. He couldn't help it his hormones were going nuts today for some reason.

Justin gasped into the kiss definitely not expecting it but he kissed Nick back with just as much passion as he was receiving. He felt his back press against the wall of the hallway and moaned. Nick had him pinned to the wall not that Justin was complaining because his knees were just about ready to give up on Nick.

Nick had NO idea how he got so daring but he didn't let himself think too much about it as he practically devoured Justin's mouth in the middle of the hallway. Not like anybody would care if they saw it because even worse things have been done in this hallway. His hands were roaming Justin's sides by this point, sliding under Justin's coat.

Justin felt like he was one of those hormone crazed teenagers who was just trying things out for the first time except he wasn't giggling like an idiot although he felt like he was pretty close to doing that. Nick was making him feel like he was young again, doing things for the times... in this case he kind of was. A few more minutes passed as they kissed each other before they pulled away from them kiss leaving Justin breathless and gasping for air. "Wow," he breathed out.

"Yeah...wow," Nick whispered as he too tried to catch his breath, he kept his body pressed tightly against Justin's because at his moment he wasn't sure if he would be able to stand up on his own.

"That was one hell of a kiss for someone who doesn't kiss on their first date," Justin said with a smirk as he rested his forehead against Nick's, his arms still around his neck.

"I couldn't help myself," Nick whispered as he looked into Justin's eyes that were still dilated and glassy and he had a feeling his own were looking about the same.

"I'm glad," Justin said before running his hands down the length of Nick's arms before linking their fingers together before bringing the joined hands up and placing a kiss to the tops of both of Nick's hands. "I know it's not exactly our two month anniversary or the day we actually met but... we're in Indiana and I guess you can average the dates and have today be the common day," he chuckled. "But... yeah."

Nick laughed thinking Justin was acting so cute. "I think today was the perfect day thank you for helping make it that way." he said as he moved his hands so they were now under all of Justin's shirts, thinking he needs to warm his hands a smirk on his face.

Justin gasped as he took in a long deep shaky breath. "Co...Co…cold hands," he managed to get out before putting his own hands on top of Nick's. "You're very evil," he mock glared at Nick.

Nick smirked even more, "But you still love me."

"Oh yeah," Justin nodded his head, nuzzling his nose with Nick's. "You should wear glasses more often."

"You really like me in them?" Nick asked thinking he personally looked like a nerd.

Justin licked his lips and nodded his head. "Have you looked at yourself in the mirror with those on?" He asked. "Oh and that hair, I really like your hair." He was jealous of Nick's hair, truth be told.

"I look at myself in the mirror all the time but I don't see what you see." Nick stated and then laughed. "Do we want to continue to stand in the hallway all night?"

"I don't know," Justin said with a shrug. "You're the one that's got me pinned to the wall." He chuckled.

Nick blushed a little as he pulled back and then opened the door and let Justin walk in before him. "Much better," he said as he had to control himself to stay calm and not jump at Justin again now that they were inside.

"Uh huh," Justin said shrugging out of his jacket and cracking his neck. "We have an early flight tomorrow... so, we finished packing or we still got more?"

"No we're done," Nick said with a smile.

"Oh okay," Justin said rubbing the back of his neck.

Nick noticed the motion Justin does when he's tense and wondered what was going on. "Baby...you okay?" he asked with worry in his eyes.

Justin looked at Nick and nodded his head, too slowly. "Yeah," he said with a small smile. "I'm fine." He just didn't like how their dinner had started off with Anne asking him those questions, which were in a way somewhat true. Justin still wasn't completely sure about what he wants but he does know he loves Nick way too much for it to be just a phase or something else.

Nick looked at Justin skeptically but nodded his head, "Okay..." he said as he walked over and turned on a few lamps in the living room. He wasn't sure what to do now because obviously the mood had chanced from their playful banter in the hallway.

Justin walked over and plopped down on the couch and held his arms out for Nick to come and sit with him or on his lap, whichever.

With a small smile, Nick walked over and gladly climbed onto Justin's lap moving down so he could rest his head on Justin's shoulder.

Justin pressed a kiss to Nick's temple before whispering, "Love you."

"Love you too," Nick mumbled against Justin's shoulder. He had no idea what caused the change of mood in the room. He snuggled closer to Justin as if subconsciously feeling like Justin was going to leave.

Justin stared at the TV before he grabbed the remote and turned it on. "Are there any good shows at this time?" He asked.

"I don't know, I don't normally watch TV," Nick said as he watched pick up the remote. "I might warn you I only get the basic channels and they don't really come in."

Justin flipped through the channels, making a face at the corny shows, stupid movies, and the re-runs that he couldn't really make out because of the slight static. "What do you wanna do?" He questioned, turning the TV off and held onto Nick tighter.

"I don't know," Nick answered which was true; he didn't know what he wanted to do.

Justin chuckled as he let his hand slip under Nick's shirts and rest on the skin of his hips. "I don't know, either," he said, thinking maybe they could go to a club or... back to the bar Nick worked in, where they first met.

"Well do you wana stay in or go back out?" Nick asked sitting up so he was straddling Justin's lap, his hands moving up under Justin's shirt needing some contact of skin like Justin was doing with him.

Justin licked his lips as he leaned back against the couch and thought about it. It was still early and there wasn't much of anything they could do in the apartment. "What's the nightlife like here?"

Nick laughed a little, "Well I don't exactly know what the straight night life is like..."

"I didn't specify," Justin pointed out. "So, any kind of nightlife is good to know... or maybe we can go to a bar or something?"

Nick was confused he never thought Justin would even want to know what the gay night life was like. "Sure there are bars and stuff...but I haven't really been to any besides the one i used to work for...that was a 'normal' bar."

Justin shrugged. "Or how about we just walk around, freeze ourselves to death or something?" He suggested with a chuckle.

Nick giggled, "Sure...not like it's all that much warmer here."

Justin nuzzled his face into the side of Nick's neck and placed a tender kiss to the skin there. "Okay," he said pulling back and smiling up at his boyfriend. "Let's go, then."

Nick climbed off of Justin's lap and then walked to where he had hung his coat. Once he had his coat on he put his gloves, hat and scarf on.

Justin pretty much bundled himself up the same way Nick had before he took a hold of Nick's hand and they both walked out of the apartment.

Nick wondered how long Justin was going to hold his hand for but he promised himself he wouldn't get upset if Justin let go of it. "I have an idea why don't we walk towards the Starbucks I worked at to get a cup of coffee so we won't get too cold while we walk around."

Justin nodded his head as he let Nick lead them towards the Starbucks. "How long did you work here for?" He questioned, once they were inside. For the millionth time he was thanking the Lord above for blessing him enough so he didn't have to work the 9-5 jobs with crappy pay.

"I worked there for about three years." Nick said after thinking for a second. "I worked at the bar since I was seventeen."

"Alright," Justin said as he looked over the menu before asking, "So, what are you getting?"

Nick didn't even need to look at the menu as he walked to the counter. "I'll have a Venti triple shot mocha with whipped please." he said with a smirk in Justin's direction. He remembered what happened the time he had had coffee and red bull together. Caffeine made Nick CRAZY.

When it was Justin's turn he just ordered a plain Café Mocha without the whipped cream before taking his gloves off and shoving it in his coat pockets.

Once their drinks were ready, Nick looked at Justin. "Drink them in here or while we're out walking?"

"While we're walking," Justin replied, blowing on the hot liquid before taking a tentative sip and then letting out a content sigh.

"Okay," Nick nodded as he walked with Justin back out into the cold night. They started walking and drinking their coffee with a little small talk. It didn't even occur to Nick what part of town they were walking into since Nick had walked these streets so many times.

Justin smiled to himself as he looked around the almost vacant neighborhood and realized why it was so familiar to him. He had been just walking down these very same streets about two months ago.

Nick took another long sip of his coffee when he felt a chill go through his body. He wasn't sure if it was because he was really cold or because he was feeling the presence of ghosts of his past life, especially now that they crossed the border line separated slightly lower glass Indianapolis and gay Indianapolis.

Justin sniffled a bit before nudging Nick to the side a little, indicating the door to the small out of the way bar located next to them. He smiled to himself when he realized Nick didn't even realize where they were.

Nick turned in the direction Justin nudged him too and then paused when he realized the door they were about to go into. It was weird but he could handle his apartment, seeing his old house and visiting his grandparents...but this...this was making his heart beat a little too fast. He put on a fake smile as they walked inside.

Justin saw the brief second of uncertainty flash across Nick's face even with the hat almost covering everything and he wondered if this was a good idea and hoped he wasn't making things worse, because that was the last thing he wanted to do. He quickly followed Nick inside and stopped as Nick stopped.

There was somebody else behind the bar now, HIS bar and he hadn't been prepared for the feeling of intense jealously that flashed through his body. He had worked there even when he wasn't legally allowed to...it had been like his second home.

Justin followed Nick's line of vision to the bar and then looked back at Nick. He did that about three times before clearing his throat and sipping more of his mocha. "Nick?" He questioned a few moments later, "You Ok?"

Nick swallowed and thought he should be honest. "I...Can we go please?" he asked hoping Justin wouldn't mind. It made him sick to know that the place he had met the best thing in his life brought back such bad memories too.

Justin nodded his head as he mentally sighed, feeling like he screwed up, again. "Okay," he said not letting his disappointment or worry show through.

Once outside Nick let out a sigh of relief; when he finally felt like his chest wasn't being constricted. He had no idea what had just happened, or why.

"Everything Ok?" Justin asked again as he looked at Nick.

Nick nodded his head, "Yes...sorry." he whispered.

"Um, okay," Justin said looking around wondering, 'now what?' "Alright, are there any other places around here that don't make you act weird?"

Justin's words had hurt Nick but he tried to show it. It was then he noticed where they were heading. "We should turn and go the other way."

"What's wrong with that way?" Justin questioned turning around and following Nick.

"It might scare you," Nick said giggling a little.

Justin raised an eyebrow not that Nick could see it. "What's so scary about it?" He asked, looking back and wondering.

"You like drag queens, guys half dressed and in leather?" Nick asked with a raised eyebrow. "That direction is the gay club district."

Justin shrugged. "Not like I haven't seen things like that before," he said. "And I wouldn't mind seeing you half dressed in leather," he added as an afterthought, quietly.

That caused Nick to bust up laughing, his coffee beginning to get into him and he was having trouble standing still. "Yes; but what would the world say if they caught Justin Randall Timberlake outside a gay club in Indiana?"

"Do I look like Justin Randall Timberlake to you right now?" He questioned looking up at Nick from under his hat and trying to speak over where his lips were covered by the scarf. He held his arms open as if indicating to Nick to look at him.

"No you look odd." Nick giggled as he turned back around and started walking in the direction they had originally been going. Yes, his coffee was definitely getting to him.

Justin turned back around and quickly started following Nick. And figuring they were in the 'gay' part of town, he took Nick's hand that wasn't holding onto the coffee cup and continued to walk hand-in-hand.

The smile that came onto Nick's face was huge when Justin took his hand. Swinging their arms a little he walked with an upbeat pace towards the part of town he had spent most of his teen years and first years of his twenties.

"You seem awfully happy, all of a sudden," Justin commented wondering if it had anything to do with him or something else... He sipped his mocha and then drank down the rest of the cool liquid making a face and wishing it could have stayed warm for a bit longer.

"You can have some of mine if you like." Nick said handing Justin his cup that still had some in it and it was still warmish.

Justin threw his cup away in the trash before taking Nick's and having a sip. "Whoa," he said once he swallowed some and handing it back to Nick. "That had way too much caffeine for me." And then it clicked in his mind just why Nick was all of a sudden so... bubbly.

Nick smirked as he took the cup back and drank down the rest of it before throwing his cup away. "I think it tasted quite delicious." he said with a nod of his head.

Justin walked closer to Nick as they continued to walk. "So, just where are we going?" He questioned, looking around.

"I don't know what do you feel like doing?" Nick asked as he felt something cold hit his nose. He looked up and laughed, "Oh great."

Justin chuckled as he saw a flake melting on Nick's nose before he looked up at the dark sky and saw more white flakes floating down. "It's snowing!" he stated the obvious.

"Yes it is," Nick laughed. He then smiled big, "It was doing that like crazy the last time you were here. You came in looking like frosty the snow man."

Justin chuckled. "It's a sign," he giggled before sipping his gloved finger under the cuff of Nick's coat fingering the bracelet he'd given Nick. "Besides, if it snows it'll be less cold..."

"Yeah but we'll be wet so we gotta be careful." Nick said thinking about how cold he had gotten the night of Justin's concert there.

"We wouldn't want that now do we?" Justin agreed before bouncing "So, where to?"

Nick wasn't sure, there were places he wouldn't mind going but it would be dangerous for Justin.

"Come on," Justin said tugging Nick in a random direction.

Nick giggled as Justin pulled on his arm. "Yes sir," he teased.

Justin spotted a club a few feet away from them and headed in that direction. There didn't seem to be many people there and Justin didn't know if that was a good thing or a bad thing. The less people there meant he and Nick could have some privacy but they would bring attention to themselves. But if there were more people then there would be a high chance of not bringing attention to themselves but they won't have much privacy.

"You sure?" Nick asked as they stepped into the club. He knew they wouldn't be able to keep bundled up so Justin wouldn't be able to hide very well.

Justin nodded his head as he walked inside and took a good look around, surveying the clubs' occupants. "Yeah, I'm sure," he said happy for his hat and his hoodie under his jacket. Underneath everything they were still dressed in their dinner clothes and they would look a little out of place if they were to just stay in them.

Nick had put a hoodie on also so now he was just dressed in his light gray hoddie and dress pants. "You wana get a drink?" he asked wondering how alcohol would work in his system with all the coffee he had consumed.

Justin thought about it before nodding his head. "Yeah, why not," he answered as they headed for the bar and took a seat. He had put on the hood over his head, his hat having been left behind with his jacket in the coat room. He lowered the front of the hood down a bit more before ordering rum with coke.

Nick thought the coke idea was good but got JD in it rather then rum. Once their drinks were set down in front of them he picked it up and started to drink it while looking around the room. It wasn't packed like most clubs were but it had a good amount of people in it.

Justin took a sip before turning around in his seat so that he was facing Nick but at the same time could get a view of the club. He raised his eyebrow as he watched Nick scan the crowd without stopping in his drinking. "Hey, Nick?" He asked reaching up and lowering his glass. "Slow down…"

Nick blushed a little he hadn't realized he had been drinking it so fast. "Oh...sorry." he said as he sat the glass down on the bar.

"You sure everything's okay?" Justin asked, concerned about his boyfriend again.

"Yeah, I'm fine." Nick said with a smile as he tapped his foot on the floor. He already hyperactivity issues and that much caffeine along with the loud thump, thump of the music was really making him wana get up and dance.

Justin watched Nick for a few more moments before noticing Nick almost dancing in his seat and looking longingly at the dance floor. He waited till he'd finished off his drink before placing a few bills for his and Nick's drinks on the bar before standing up and looking down at Nick.

Nick looked up at Justin when he got in his line of view. "Yes?" he asked with a smile on his face.

"Wanna dance?" He questioned.

"Yeah," Nick said as he bounced out of his seat and took Justin's practically dragging him onto the dance floor.

Justin chuckled as Nick dragged him towards the dance floor, into the middle of the dancing crowd, "Eager much?" He joked.

Nick laughed, "I have so much energy you're going to want to wear me out if I'm going to sleep tonight." he said with a smirk as he put his hands on Justin's shoulders.

Justin raised an eyebrow, smirking. "Wear you out how?" He asked, flirting along as he placed his on Nick's waist and pulling him close.

Nick's hands went to the base of Justin's neck while they danced. Dancing to this kind of music pretty much meant grinding up on each other, which Nick didn't mind. "I guess we'll just have to use our imaginations." he whispered in Justin's ear.

Justin licked his lips as he smiled a little. He then gasped when Nick grinded against him, their crotches pressed together. Nick was a really good dancer and he let his hands dropped down a bit so that it was resting right above Nick's ass.

The more they danced the hotter it was getting in the room and sweat was beginning to build on both their foreheads.

After a few minutes of dancing and a few songs later Justin was hard in his pants but that didn't stop him from continuing to grind up against Nick.

Nick could feel how hard Justin was and that was turning him on even more then he already was. He moved his head from where it was resting on Justin's shoulder and looked at him with lust covered eyes. "I...I think we need another drink...or something." he said not sure if more alcohol was a good idea but at the same time it sounded good.

"Why?" Justin asked thinking Nick didn't need anymore alcohol in his system.

"Cuz I need a break or I'm going to cum in my pants." Nick laughed seriously thinking he could definitely do that right about then.

'Well, then let's go get a seat," Justin suggested, "But no alcohol."

"Yes dad," Nick said with a smirk as he pulled back and then with a little extra shake in his ass for effect he headed over to where some tables were.

Justin narrowed his eyes as he watched Nick's ass as he walked ahead of him. He licked his lips, his mind going off to other things about that ass and all the things he could do with it before he caught himself, shaking his head. He wasn't ready for things like that, at all.

"I'm hot," Nick said point blank as he took off his hoodie and his dress shirt leaving him in a black wife beater. "Much better," he said with a sigh as he leaned back in the booth, arms over his head showing off how sweaty he had gotten.

"Very attractive," Justin said rolling his eyes sitting down across from Nick but still kept all his clothes on.

Nick put his arms down and playfully glared at Justin. "I'm gunna go get some water...you want some?"

Justin nodded his head with a smile. "Yes, please."

Nick leaned over and placed a hard kiss on Justin's lips to leave him with before he walked over to the bar to get them some water.

Justin sat back in his seat with a content sigh before looking around at the club again. He looked over to the bar, in the direction Nick went in before he narrowed his eyes. Nick was taking a really long time to get back with water and the bartender didn't seem in any hurry to hand Nick over the water.

"Come on...I told you I'm not interested," Nick said really getting annoyed with the bartender. "Can I just have my water please?"

"Oh but I bet I can give you more and something worthwhile than that guy you're with," the bartender said leaning on the bar and looking at Nick with his best seductive look, green eyes twinkling, lips formed in a smirk.

A few more moments Justin waited before getting out of the booth and heading over to the bar, coming up behind Nick. "Is there a problem here?" He questioned, resting his hand on the small of Nick's back looking at Nick and then the bartender but at the same time trying to hide his face from him not wanting to be recognized.

"Umm...he won't give me the water." Nick said leaning into Justin's hand a little needing the comfort but trying to not seem like he was using his boyfriend and showing he had his own strength. "But I believe he was just about to give it to me."

The bartender just took in a deep breath and straightened before fighting the urge to roll his eyes. He walked over to the cooler and took out two bottles of water before placing them in front of the couple. "I'm assuming you want two of them?" He asked looking at Nick and completely ignoring Justin. "Thanks," Justin sneered. "That'd be three dollars."

"I did ask for two," Nick said rolling his own eyes as he handed the man the money and then steered Justin back to their table.

Justin took in a few deep breaths to calm the rage that was inside of him. Where the hell does that guy get off flirting with his Nick anyways? When they got back to their booth, instead of sitting across from Nick he sat next to him.

Nick glanced at Justin for some reason thinking that Justin would be mad at him instead of the bartender.

Justin grabbed his bottled of water and took a big gulp out of it before recapping it and holding Nick's hand in his.

Nick looked down at their linked fingers before he took a few long sips of his own water. "Do you wana go home?" he asked, it seemed like to him that Justin wasn't having fun anymore.

Justin took in a deep breath before looking over at Nick and shrugged. "Not really," he said. "But if you want to, we can..." He really liked it when they were dancing with each other, the way they grinded with each other.

"I don't want to go home," Nick said with a smile. "I just want take another drink then we can go dance again if you would like to."

Justin nodded his head. "That's sounds good," he said with a smile of his own. "I'll go get us a drink this time. What do you want?"

"I just meant another drink of my water," Nick laughed noticing how eager Justin was to be the one to go get it this time.

"Well, then hurry up and get your drink," Justin said nodding at the water bottle. "And let's go dance."

"Okay bossy,'" Nick laughed again as he finished off his water bottle and then stood up. "Come on."

Justin walked with Nick back to the dance floor and started dancing with him again. This time his hands were around Nick's neck which he used to bring him close, close enough so they could kiss as their bodies got with the beat of the song.

This had to be the most sensual thing Nick had ever experienced. Their bodies grinding to the music and their tongues fighting each other in Justin's mouth was driving him insane. He was glad he wasn't dressed in a million different shirts now though.

Justin's hand played with the short hairs at the nape of Nick's neck, moaning into the kiss as they continued to have their crotches grinding with each others. So this is it was like to be having sex with clothes on in the middle of a dance floor.

After what seemed like forever Nick had to pull back to catch his breath. He rested his head down on Justin's shoulder again as he attempted to catch his breath and try and regain some control of his body. It wasn't going to be long before he would need to go home to be able to release the pressure that was settling in his groin.

Justin pressed their bodies together so that they were no part left untouched, as they continued to move as one. "Tired?" He questioned feeling Nick slowing down with the dancing.

"No...Just...horny," Nick said before lifting his head so he was looking into Justin's eyes as their lower halves moved in perfect time with each other.

"I can feel that," Justin said, licking his lips, tasting Nick on them as he looked into Nick's dark lust filled blue eyes. "What do you wanna do?"

Nick licked his own lips, not really sure what he wanted to do. Well actually he knew exactly what he wanted to do but he wasn't stupid enough to mention that anymore. "I...I don't know." he said in a voice that was beyond huskier then normal.

"Wanna head home?" Justin asked, seeing that it was around eleven that night.

"Yeah," Nick answered thinking that was probably a smart idea because he was close to jumping Justin right there on the dance floor if they didn't leave it.

Justin chuckled as he felt Nick wrap his arms tighter around his waist. "Okay," he said and decided to mess with Nick. "We'll go home, take a shower, and go to bed... We have to be up early anyways."

Nick didn't think Justin was joking and even though he didn't like it what Justin said made since. "Yeah," he said as he pulled back and keeping Justin's hand in his walked them back to their table. The whole time knowing he probably wasn't doing a very good job at hiding what was going on in his dress pants.

Justin opened his mouth to mention that he was just messing with Nick but Nick seemed to be lost in thought so Justin shut his mouth. He'll just surprise him when they get back to the apartment. He waited till Nick put the rest of his clothes back on before they headed over to the coat room and put their coats, scarves, and gloves on. Justin sighed in content when they stepped out into the cold snowy night; it felt wonderful on his over heated sweating body.

Nick let out a sigh of his own as the cold air hit them. It was snowing even harder and while they had been in the club some began to collect on the ground. "Hopefully this doesn't keep up so we can get out of here on time tomorrow." he said as they walked in the direction of home.

"I hope so," Justin said looking down at the ground careful not to slip on some of the slippery ice and trying to walk only on the powdery snow.

There was just small talk on the way back to the apartment and once they got inside they were pretty much covered in snow since it had gotten a lot harder the more they were out in it. "Burr," Nick laughed as they walked into the apartment building and up the stairs to his floor.

"You turned into a polar bear during our little walking trip," Justin chuckled shaking himself off from the snow that covered him. He sniffled some as he tried to get his mouth to work right.

Nick giggled, "You're not looking much better baby." he said as they finally reached his apartment and unlocked the door, walking inside.

"Yeah, well," Justin said as he quickly shrugged out of his jacket, taking his hat, scarf, and gloves off. He then went about taking his shoes and socks off. When that was finished he headed into the bedroom and went about getting out of his clothes; and changing into his sweats and a sweatshirt, no underwear under the sweats.

By the time Nick had everything turned off in the living room Justin was already in bed. "Don't you look cozy." he said as he walked into the bedroom to see Justin in bed.

"Not really," Justin said looking up at Nick. "There's one most important part of this cozy bed that's missing."

Nick laughed knowing what Justin meant and went about taking off his own clothes and changing into sweats and a sweatshirt too before climbing in next to Justin.

He knew that walking in the cold with all the snow had pretty much deflated their erections so as soon as Nick was under the blankets Justin rolled over on top of him and attacked his lips.

He wasn't sure why but this shocked him. Nick didn't respond right away but after a second or two his hands were holding onto the material of Justin's sweatshirt and kissing him back.

Justin pulled back a few seconds later and asked, "This is okay right? Because, if you don't wanna-" He was cut off by Nick's kissing him this time.

Nick had to shut Justin up, of COURSE this was okay. He LOVED kissing Justin. He thrust his tongue into his mouth and went about searching for every nook and cranny.

The more they kissed the more aroused Justin was getting and the more his hips began to slowly move against Nick's.

Nick was in heaven he couldn't remember Justin ever being this horny before, but then again they had never really been in the right settings for it to happen. His hands were beginning to have a mind of their own as they slipped into Justin's sweats expecting to find boxers and they didn't. This caused him to moan into Justin's lips as he let his hands move up and down the bare skin of his ass.

Justin thrust hard against Nick's crotch when he felt Nick's hands on his ass as they squeezed them. He yelped a little when Nick bit his tongue gently before sucking on it causing him to twitch some more in his sweats. It was almost like his tongue and his cock were interconnected, that Nick sucking on his tongue was almost like Nick sucking his cock.

Nicks eyes were closed tightly by this point, his cock back to life again after their cold trek to the apartment. He groaned deeply in his throat because of all the noises Justin was making and the way their hard cocks felt grinding together.

Justin pulled back from the intense kiss only to continue kissing down Nick's neck as he caught his breath. He slipped his hands underneath Nick's sweat shirt, running them and the shirt all the way before both his hands rubbed and pinched Nick's nipples.

"God baby..." Nick moaned in pleasure, his nipples hardening under Justin's fingers. He couldn't believe how many times they had done this over their small trip. "W...W...We should stay here...longer." he said through groans of pleasure.

"Should," Justin mumbled from where he was kissing and sucking Nick's neck and collarbone. "But can't…well I can't anyways."

"I don't wana be here without you." Nick said knowing he was going to have marks on his neck and collarbone by the way Justin was sucking and kissing.

Justin stopped as he looked into Nick's eyes. "I'm sorry we can't stay here longer," he said in a husky but in a low whisper.

"It's okay," Nick said and he meant that. He didn't care if they stayed here; he just wished this Justin could come with him all the time. He also wished his Justin wasn't leaving him in a few days.

"You sure?" Justin asked, just wanting to make sure. He didn't want to hear from Kelly and them that Nick's depressed or is shutting himself off again. Then he would really feel like crap even though he knew he shouldn't, Nick needed to learn to get with Justin's schedule and absence.

"Yes I'm sure I don't want to stay here." Nick said and that was true, he didn't know Justin was talking about being away from him.

"I meant," Justin tried to clarify. "About me being away from you...because of the filming in Toronto..."

Nick wasn't sure what he should say about that, how could he say he was okay with that? How could ANYBODY be okay with that? "I don't want you to go, I'm going to miss you." he said honestly.

"I'm going to miss you too," Justin said looking into Nick's eyes hoping he could see the honesty in it.

The words 'Why can't I go with you' were on Nick's lips but he didn't say them. "Okay," was all he could say afraid of causing problems.

Justin sighed as he rolled off of Nick and snuggled up to him, all of a sudden too tired and the mood having been killed.

Nick sighed too tears coming to his eyes, truth be told he had forgotten to take his medication that day...and the day before. Up until now he had been fine because the day had been a happy one. Not wanting Justin to see how upset he was he turned over and looked towards the window in his small bedroom.

Justin could feel how tense Nick's back was but he didn't know what to do. Instead, he took in a deep breath and closed his eyes. "Good night Nick," he said softly.

"I'm going to the bathroom," Nick said as he hopped up and fled the room and went into the bathroom. He sat on the closed toilet seat; put his elbows on his knees and his head went into his hands as tears began to fall. 'Why did you have to go and fuck up a perfect day!' his mind screamed at him, 'You and your damn insecurities!'

Justin rolled onto his back and brought his hand up to his face, rubbing his temples before pinching the bridge of his nose. Should he go and check on Nick or give him some time to cool off, he didn't know. Nick was acting really moody again much like he did before he took the...pills. Justin sat straight up before crawling out of bed and over to Nick's bag. He rummaged through it until he found the pill bottle. Checking the number of pills on the label, which was only supplied for a month, he opened it and counted what was instead. Doing the math in his head he realized Nick skipped a few days of not taking these things.

Meanwhile Nick was trying to get himself under control again. He hated feeling like this, he knew things shouldn't upset him this much but they do and he couldn't help it. "God," he said out loud still holding his head in his hands. He hated this so much. Sometimes he wondered why Justin could even stand him.

Justin heard Nick say 'God' out loud and got worried. He grabbed the pill bottle and headed out to the bathroom. Knocking on the door he asked, "Can I come in?"

"Yeah," Nick whispered knowing he shouldn't be hiding anyway.

Justin opened the door slowly and stepped inside before kneeling in front of Nick. "Hey," he greeted him, resting one hand on Nick's thigh. "Look... I'm sorry about having to go away but I promise you I'll come home and call every chance I get, okay? And yes, I'm going to be away from you but at the same time you're going to be away from me..."

"I know...I...I...I'm sorry." Nick said big alligator tears falling down his cheeks. He knew Justin wasn't leaving him to be mean but he couldn't help it every time he thought of Justin leaving his chest got tight and he literally felt terrified.

"Okay," Justin said. "But just remember you're not the only one that's gonna feel alone... I am too." He then paused as he thought about how to bring up the pills knowing the last time Nick kind of snapped at him. "I.. uh... um, since we got here... did you... well, have you... taken your meds?"

Nick looked at Justin with scared blue eyes and was honest shaking his head. He hadn't meant to forget it just happened because they had been so busy. "No...I forgot to...I'm sorry." he said feeling like he was going to get yelled at.

Justin looked down at his other hand that held the bottle of pills before holding it up for Nick to take. "It's not me you gotta apologize to," he said in a soft voice. "It's you... bet you feel like crap and stuff, huh?"

Nick took the bottle but knew taking anything now wouldn't really help. He had to wait until the morning time so his does wouldn't get thrown off. "Yeah...I was fine when we were having fun and stuff."

Justin nodded his head not knowing what else to say.

Nick was quiet for a second and then thought he needed to say something. "Is it normal to feel very, very scared when somebody leaves?" he asked looking at Justin with worry in his eyes. He had never really talked about how he felt when Justin left before.

Justin thought about it and kind of shook his head and nodded his head at the same time. "Um, depends, I guess," he said. "Like, I know that if you were a kid and someone left with promises of coming back but ended up dying so the promise broke but the kid didn't know that... and when the kid grows up, probably gets scared every time someone says they're going away and will be back... or something like that...." He paused. "Did that make any sense?"

Nick nodded his head, "Yeah..." he then was quiet again. "I feel like I'm going to throw up every time you say you're going away. Everybody I love leaves me...or hurts me." he said looking at Justin with pure terror in his eyes, for once definitely showing he wasn't just being stupid, he was honestly scared to death about Justin leaving, because in his mind he'll never come back. Plus Justin is his safety the person that took him away from the bad, if Justin leaves him now all the bad will come back.

"Almost like... separation anxiety or something?" Justin questioned trying to understand more. "But Nick... I'm not like them... I'm not going to just leave you; I love you too much to just walk away. Besides, you live in my house, with me. I'm sorry but as far as I see... you're stuck with me."

That caused Nick to smile a little but there was something else that was just nagging at him.

"What is it?" Justin questioned when he saw the uncertainty in Nick's eyes and the way his hands were still slightly trembling.

"You...saved me." Nick whispered looking down at his lap.

Justin looked around the dinky little bathroom and the out the door at the apartment. "I suppose," he said looking back at Nick. "Me saving you is what's bothering you?"

"I'm scared you're going to go away and bad things will happen again." Nick said looking up again. "If you hadn't been there last night...with William I don't know what would have happened to me."

"Shh," Justin said shaking his head. "Don't think like that. And when I'm gone, you're not alone and never had to be. You've got Kelly and Marty and them... hell, I can ask my mom to stay longer until I get back or even get Trace to stay over or something."

Nick didn't know why but that didn't help him feel better, but he nodded his head anyway. "Okay...yeah." he said shivering a little cuz it was freezing in the tiny bathroom.

"Nick, nothing bad will happen to you," Justin said hoping and praying that he was right. "Not if I can help it..." He then leaned over and wrapped his arms around him. "Come on, let's get back in bed."

Nick practically clung to Justin when he stood up. He only let go enough so they could walk into the bedroom and then climb into bed. Once in bed Nick was the same octopus he was before.

Justin was finding it a bit hard to breathe as he tried to wiggle a bit to get Nick to loosen up just a bit. "Nick," he breathed out. "I'm not gonna go anywhere tonight..."

Nick did loosen up some but not much, just enough so he wasn't strangling Justin. "Mine," he mumbled against Justin's neck.

Justin let out a deep breath and turned around in Nick's arms so that he was facing him. "Yeah, I'm yours and you're mine," he said closing his eyes. "Good night Nick."

"G'night," Nick whispered but didn't close his eyes; he knew that with the mood he was in the dreams would come back. Plus he felt he needed to make sure Justin was going to stay right there. He was glad when he heard Justin's breath even out though with no questions asked.

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