| In the dark corners of my mind . . . |
| . |
| Ambivalent I am, |
| Ambivalent I was, |
| Ambivalent I believe I’ll ever be. |
| Ever stranded between me and us, |
| Ever wondering where we stand, |
| Where I belong. |
| Its not guilt, |
| Could never be remorse, |
| Regret no more do I any act. |
| I know what was there, |
| I know what could never be. |
| I don’t blame you, |
| Never could burden you. |
| It was just your shadow, |
| Your whispers in the silence, |
| I cherished, I yearned, |
| Just a reflection I wanted. |
| No more than mere illusion, |
| Had I been following. |
| Yet standing here to take, |
| I would never want to go back. |
| Having worshiped a shadow, |
| All these years. |
| I’ve become numb, |
| Lost in the downward spiral. |
| I don’t want to win, |
| Not you, not anyone. |
| Cherish I now the nostalgia, |
| Cherish now I the uncertainty. |