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Chapter 6: Money factor
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Sorry guys for not updating for such a long time. I've |
Chapter 6: Money factor |
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| Date: 25-sep-03 | spent my time doing that surprise I mentioned before. | Cash was something I didn't considered when I | |
| Time: 12:47am | Well here is the truth about the surprise. Because I was | first got the idea to knit. Each pair of needles cost | |
| Mood: sad | worried that she might just come in here by chance to | SGD$6.90 and for a sweater you'll need two sets | |
| Weather: hot | read what the surprise is about thus I didn't mention | of needles of different size. (that is the minimum) | |
| Playing: Tian Tian Xiang Ni - Wu Yu Tian | anything. | plus you'll also need something like a big safety pin | |
| Email: [email protected] | and that again is another SGD$6.90. So when you | ||
| I actually gathered all skins I could ever get to be think | thought that's all, WRONG. What about the | ||
| skin enough to enter a very femine handicraft shop and | wools? Each ball of wool is another SGD$6.90 | ||
| be sitting there with aunties and young girls doing knitting | ( that is for my model ) When I total up the whole | ||
| <<Prev | Yes you DID NOT read wrongly. I actually sit inside | thing, it actually spent me over SGD$80. When I | |
| that shop for more than a month to knit a sweater for her | ask those aunties there, they even told me mine is | ||
| during her birthday. | considered cheap because better wools could | ||
| cost over hundreds. You may think it is easy | |||
| Chapter 1: The whole idea | because I need not buy all the wools at the same | ||
| Before I actually got the idea to knit for her a sweater, I | time, correct but I wasn't any rich at all! Infact | ||
| was totally lost on what I should do for her. I want the | because of this, I've been skipping lunch and even | ||
| best for her, or at least the best I could do for her. I | got myself gastric pains before. I would often tell | ||
| remembered that she said she is someone that is easily | the aunty that I would pay her the next time. | ||
| touch so I cracked my brain to think of what exactly I | |||
| could make her feel touch. Then I suddenly remembered | Chapter 7: Distance matters.. | ||
| that my friend (a girl) actually knitting a scarf for her | Guess where is that place? Because I want it near | ||
| boyfriend and according to her, her boyfriend was happy | the school, my friend brought me to Ginza Plaza. | ||
| So I thought I could do something similar to get her | Any idea? Hmz until now I don't know the name of | ||
| sweetest attention. | the place. Anyway it is somewhere super far away | ||
| and inaccessible from my house. From my house | |||
| Chapter 2: The first brave step | to Ginza would take me 1hour and 15mins of bus | ||
| Thinking it would be something easy (man always thinks | ride. Mrt? If I were to take MRT I would have to | ||
| like that right?) so I actually told my friend say I want to | travel down to town before changing over to head | ||
| make a sweater instead of just a scarf. My friend of | to clementi and than change bus. It would take | ||
| course laugh at me because I got exactly one months | even more time. From my school to Ginza got no | ||
| time to finish something that will really take up alot of | direct bus ( or I think I didn't know ), I got to | ||
| time and determination. I hesitated for a while because | change 2 buses to get there. | ||
| me too was worried what if I result that I cant even knit | |||
| something presentable for her? But after screwing hard | Chapter 8: The rush... | ||
| through my rusty brain juice I decided that I should do | Suddenly I was left with only 1 week and I only got | ||
| the best because I would want to give the best of | the back portion of the sweater and little bit of the | ||
| everything I could for her. So there I was, dress in black | front portion. I told myself I got to make it for her | ||
| t-shirt and jeans with a cap trying to hide away myself | at all cost and thus I practically skipped the whole | ||
| from others. When I saw the shop I was like, "this is it, | weeks lesson just to rush that sweater. And | ||
| I'm gonna be a big joke in school and everywhere else" | because I could not let my parents know that I am | ||
| Still I took that step into the shop. | doing such a thing, I often got to wait until they are | ||
| fast asleep before I start knitting. I knitting on bus | |||
| Chapter 3: Confusion | rides also and even my work place during free | ||
| IT IS NOT EASY AT ALL!! Fucking shit when I saw | period. Everyday would be like 8 or 9 am in the | ||
| the aunty knit I was like "shit, am I gonna fail this task?" | morning that I would start to knit and 3 or | ||
| Despite how slow the aunty is teaching me I will still be | sometimes 4am before I am willing to sleep. That | ||
| in a total mess as strings have to go from here to there | period was totally a nightmare for me. Everyday | ||
| and there to here and you can't even differentiate the | did nothing but to knit, which resulted a pain in my | ||
| difference.. So mistakes and mistakes came and it really | palm muscle. I even thought to myself what if that | ||
| discourage me alot. What kept me moving on was her, | strain cause me unable to play guitar? | ||
| throughout the whole process I would be telling myself | |||
| "Vince, this is for her, you do love her you got to make | Chapter 9: I missed the day....... | ||
| this sacrifice to change her idea about you no matter | Yes I actually didn't made it in time.. I thought I | ||
| what it would take" | could rush in time to give it to her on the actual day | ||
| as a big surprise but the bigger surprise that is | |||
| Chapter 4: Humiliations | waiting for me is that I could not finish in time. So | ||
| I was a big shock in the handicraft shop. When every | I didn't even message her birthday greetings | ||
| aunty came in they would be like, hey THAT IS A GUY | thinking I could trick her that I forgot her birthday | ||
| That is not all, at least aunties are friendly, what about | and scared and surprise her with that knitted | ||
| those schoolgirls? They won't call me a guy, they would | sweater. That night was really a nightmare for me | ||
| say things like sissy, ah gua and whatever they could | because I actually missed the day and sent her a | ||
| think of. Especially when that shop got a transparent | late birthday sms....I felt totally like shit but still I | ||
| glass door, humiliation came even from outside the shop. | wanna make it for her so I think that night I sleep | ||
| I would often hear schoolboys shouting "Hey there is an | around 5am and woke up the next day around | ||
| ah gua inside that shop! Wanna bet?" Humiliation does | 8am and knitted all the way until the next day | ||
| not end there,when I took the sweater to knit elsewhere, | around 7pm. Although I finally finish the thing, I | ||
| I got to hide in a place so that people would not see | was terribly late. | ||
| what I was doing. I remember I knitting at a lot of other | |||
| places like bus, lecture halls and my club house and | Chapter 10: I met her (aftermath) | ||
| often I would exchange for stares and gossips. | Yup so I finally met her to pass her the present | ||
| and thinking I would get some warm reply but all I | |||
| Chapter 5: The Ghostly Encounter | got back was a "thank you".I mean I really like her | ||
| This is very true and it actually happened on me. It was | alot and really hope more than just a thank you.. | ||
| when I was knitting in my guitar club house when one of | The truth was that I was rejected by her alot alot | ||
| the particular day I got tired and decided to stop knitting | of times before...She told me alot about all her | ||
| and sleep for awhile before I would head for lesson. | birthday celebrations and which makes me feel | ||
| Just when I try to wake up I was locked at my position, | that I was so useless... She even mentioned about | ||
| my body was froze and totally unable to move except | her friend being able to perform street magic | ||
| my eyes being able to see the surrounding. This is | tricks. So anyone out there willing to teach me | ||
| believed by the Chinese and "bei4 gui3 ya1" meaning u | magic?? I'm totally lost on what to do because I | ||
| are actually being sitting on by a ghost and you will not | thought I finally did something that could impress | ||
| be able to move unless something scared that ghost off. | her but I was wrong.. despite all the effort I've put | ||
| I was indeed shock to experience that kinda encounter | into I got nothing back at all...Sometimes I wonder | ||
| and it didn't happened to me only once.Because I got no | is it because of my look? or my character? or | ||
| place for me to hide away from people to do the knitting, | what??? Girls or Guys out there could you all | ||
| the only place I could think of would be my club house | help me little? The aftermath was sad, | ||
| where I would always be alone there during school hours | discouraging, jealousy and more bad stuff... I | ||
| The second time I encounter it was when I thought I've | mean I don't expect her to fall in love with me just | ||
| slept on the wrong sofa and offended that something and | because of a stupid handmade sweater but I know | ||
| decided to sleep on another sofa thinking it would be | I didn't have any progress at all. | ||
| safe. No I was wrong! This time even serious, I was | |||
| stuck in that sleeping position for more than 5minutes |
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| until my hand phone alarm clock suddenly rings. To think | |||
| this is scary enough for me, I decided that I should not | Well hopefully she would by chance to come into | ||
| sleep in the club house alone again. So the third | this page and see what I've wrote... still can't get | ||
| encounter was totally different, because I scared I would | awake from this dream... it is suppose to be a | ||
| fall asleep I kept forcing myself not to sleep but moving | beautiful fairy tale but it has evolved into a dark | ||
| around. This time when I was knitting I actually saw a | angel side of tale... | ||
| boy looking at me, I'm serious. So when I turn my head | |||
| over to look closely, it was gone and it didn't appear | |||
| again because my project friends arrived. | |||
| love to all | |||
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Vincent 2:00am |
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