this is making me... miserable! i know what you see in her. but i don't know what i see in you... you're not so cool. i guess this is what i deserve. we're not 21, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin. so get out your fake eyelashes + fake IDs + real disasters. until it's cool to take these chances, it's cool to fake romances. amphetamines + jellybeans, she was pretty in her teens. waitin for the month of come what may, i smelled you on my shirt today. i can't say if this feeling coming over me is real, but i know it's something you can't steal. so i'll but another problem to approach, sell a virgin lie that can't be touched. you and i should get away for awhile, i just wanna be alone with your smile. buy some candy + cigarettes and we'll get in my car. we'll blast the stereo and drive to madagascar. slow drive on chemical hill; slow down, you're makin me real. silver '79, shifter-planets align. all she's askin is for a little more time. to walk away from his anger + leave the bruises far behind. but she won't talk about it. she's made up her mind. i guess i met the devil, but i sure didn't know no better. you were cool as hell like email, but still timeless like a letter. sometimes i laugh out loud as i think about you askin me "please can you help?" i'm not your savior. i'm not who you want me to be. remember the time we wrote our names up on the wall? remember the time we realized thriller was our favorite song? cuz i remember how we drank time together and how you used to say the stars are forever. the sun is beating me senseless, i feel defenseless like a dying lamb. i don't wanna ride by the oceanside, i wanna play in the sand, can't you understand? i'm a punk rock prom queen. brown paper magazine. hotter than you've ever seen. just be you-beautiful. be you-casual. i'll be me before the fall, you be you before this all came down. if i had one wish, this is what it would be-- i'd ask you to spend all your time with me + we'd be together forever. buy a small house in south central l.a., raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang-- just as long as we're together. people feel regret for all the things they never do and if you go away i will never bother you again but i will say "the answer's no until you ask, you'll be sad when this has passed, you'll be old + wish for this someday." cuz this soul searches existence in this emptiness, so scared of what's in hand, drowning in the sand... but still i loved your lilting anger, dissected every word you sang. why do you smile like that when you look at me, when you know i can't have you? why do your glances seem like advances? is it just me, man i think i'm going crazy... � now you fly in peace for reasons undefined. need the one you love and love the ones you need, need the one you love and love the ones you bleed. when your stars are baked and your rivers fly, when your moon is fake and your mermaids cry, do you ever believe you were stuck out in the sky? don't ever get stuck in the sky when you're high. i will never feed off the evergreen luster of your heart all because we all live in the valley of the walls. satan�s in the living room choking me with apathy... dreams of breaking out: inspire me cause if you don�t i�ll dissipate to dust. the liar in me says something�s gonna happen soon because it must. a sleepless sleep slow motion dream, wanna dig my grave, time tacks away on the longest day. here we are, can i open my eyes? i cannot reach the sky cuz i'm not so high now. well i'm not there all the time you know, some people call it insane. i'm away forever, but i'm feeling better. in the end it all goes away. staring at my shadow i see the world around me. intentions of the past defined so quickly. it's hard to change myself never mind all of the people around me. i live down here with my sandpaper ceiling and walls to my ear. i have not one but two reasons for living the seconds of here. the spiders all in tune the evening of the moon, dreams are made winding through her hair. i've been between myself for days. i'm the hero of the year. it's best to take your time, conversation cuts like glass. i'm the calm before the storm, i'm the second before the crash. in the bright of day it might seem like the stars are gone. they never leave, they come back when the sun moves on... it's not why but how. we paid a lot but what we got just to look bright'n'shiny in the eyes of god. are we here to be remembered as a one-of-a-kind? a revolving door slamming this time so slowly. which car drove us to this road of broken promises? first it was broken glass that fell down from the sky so fast. lookin for a sign from the other side, wrinkle in the meantime-- yeah but there was never enough for you. well i feel there's something wrong with my life but that's the way it should be. i really hate it when i lie to you but what does the truth mean to me? do you remember when we used to talk on the phone for hours, or just kill time by counting stars before we went to sleep? break me into pieces now and keep the shining ones. people flap their yellow wings trying to soar by being a whore of life and almost everything the sheep that ran off from the herd may be dead but now's a bird able to fly able to die able to break your cursed earth. time grabs me by the shoulders. i only disappoint myself. if only i could hold this moment kept from everyone else. dead days refuse to dream, the blanket still asleep. concealing every flaw til you uncover me. open eyes open heart, open up and fall apart. i'll be that burden you bear. cannot connect the smirking world. the poison flower comes uncurled if i believe i'm dreaming. i feel you up i feel you down. another circumstance has gone and shut you down. another fear awakened in the fault you found. stupid people do stupid things, smart people outsmart each other, take me down there, photographic relapse, people feeding frenzy, the devil is so lovely. it's simple to you...so simple to lie. blatant mistakes of your design. love is another word for regret. don't tell me what it's like to love someone. and to think i might be wrong. i sat and stared at the sky, i knew i'd find myself there again. i feel it coming again, i feel it coming with the wind. i feel it coming again, i feel it breaking with the waves. tell tale heart again. i've learned that time can heal your wounds but the reminder of a scar will stay... i can be the one to show you that life's not simple enough. the joke's on you, i don't understand myself. tie the rope around me once more. i might bend, but i won't break. take this timeout to find yourself. take this timeout to learn. i'll never admit to say that the fault is mine. i'm never too far away, i'm never too close behind. it's hard for me to feel this anymore, where have the feelings gone? preflight delight, defaced street lights. felt the best that i could feel censored. inside i'm gone. you knew that all along. i confess it's all true. i'm a mess, what a fool... i can't seem to see the forest for the trees as i wait in my silent misery. now you see inside, i no longer hide... shattered, now you're out of time, you've come this far to be denied. what a shame, i'm to blame. cry like you're simple, lost in forever, seven times apathy. another face, another empty space. the feelings fade and all the lonely ones are left hiding. i'll watch the water rinse until we all get washed away. how can we make it through today without thinking about tomorrow? one heart is enough to save, just sit back and watch it all go. my life is an open book of changes and this just occured to me. i dream of all these different places that i would rather be... my battles aren't won until i'm certain with myself. is it all or is it none? i can't decide. closing all the one-way doors till i am left outside. strange how we wait when we might not have the strength to rise again. strange how we wait when we might not have the time for resurrection. strange how we wait when we might not have the time, cuz i was and i'll be and i am.