Well, the other shoe dropped. Not right away, but it dropped none the less. My beta results came back at 90.2, which was 3 times as high as I've had recently with all my chemical pregnancies. I was hopefull, but still scared, as I have every right to be with my history. I was instructed to come back on Thursday for a repeat beta. My beta came back Thursday at 96.5. This is not a good number. In a normally progressing pregnancy, beta numbers double every 2-3 days. This is nowhere near doubling, and it had been 2 days. They were not hopeful, and asked me to come back in 2 more days for another beta. I went in this morning for my 3rd beta, and the results came back pretty quickly -- 94.7. The current thinking is that it is ectopic, but the fact that the number is going down, however slowly is a good sign. Normally ectopic pregnancies produce painful symptoms when the betas reach around 500-1000, so I've been told to watch carefully for any pain in my abdomin. The nurse was really nice and helpful and informative, and I think she felt worse about the news than I did.
Actually it sort of funny in a twisted way. I had just been telling some internet friends that perhaps the Universe was toying with me and we had several other types of way s to fail a pregnancy, and different ways to fail adoptions and donor programs. I was joking, but look what happens. I've not had ad ectopic yet, and then boom. There it is. I'm really not that crushed, at least not right now. I'm sort of used to disappointment, as sad as that is.
This is definately making me think that my eggs are the problem, even though this one technically may nothave been my eggs fault. A normal fertile woman just doesn't have 6 failed pregnancies. Hopefully donor egg will be the answer to our prayers. Please.
Jamie
In other, non fertility related news, Rob and I are buying a new house. For more information, click on this.
