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Tumor This site is a little bit a farewell site, allthough it is to early to say farewell. But I need some time to publish a knew site and I do not know, if I will be able to do it, if time comes. On Apri 1st 2008 I visited the doctor, because of nealry rubbish problems. After the inspection they told me, that I have a brain tumor, but they thought it is not so bad and may be removed by an operation. I had to stay at the hospital, first the Jewish Hospital, after one week the Rudolf-Virchow-Klinik (hospital) which is a part of the Charite, the universyty hospital. After several more checkups they were no longer sure, if the tumor may be removed. On April 16. I had the operation, which needed about five or six hours. I felt good after the operation, but doctors were just able to take a sample of the tumor. This sample was tested, but the result was very bad: Glioblastom multiforme RPA class IV. The doctor informed me in a very open and friendly way, about the diagnosis and that I have just a limited chance to survive more than several months or one or two years. I will start a Radio- an Chemotherapie on Mai 15. It seems that the aim is not to survive but to win time and quality of life. When the doctors may not help, the Lord alone is the one, who may do. I do not know, if he plas to keep me alive. But I know, that his plan will be good. When I look back to my life, I see, that often it did not go the way, I had wished. But by the grace of God I allways had a good and way. It is really great to look back to my life and to see, what He did for me! I pray to the Lord, that he will decide to keep me here for my family. If he decides in another way, he knows why! I am sure, his decision is allways the right one. - It� s curious. I was allways member of the Protestant church. But my belief was not strong. My membership and activities in our parish were a sozial engagement, not a question of belief. I had my problems to pray and did not feel, that He hears to me. from the very first moment, I heard about the tumor, I was changed. I felt well and still do so. In the evening, when I layed in my bed, I was able to speak to my father in heaven. I felt, that he listens me, allthough he did not answer. But I did not ask him. I had a good life for 45 years. Did I ever aske why? - Shall I ask why now, when He decides to give me a burden? - I do not feel it for a real burden. I do not know, why I changed. It is not my merit and I wished, that I may tell others how to get this wonderfull feeling. I feel good! The only thong I regret is, that my illness is a heavy burden for my wife and my daughter, allthough they hide it. God may bless and give them strength to carry this burden. Since April 1st. I am in a really good mood, free of pain and sorrow. I do not feel a lot in the left part of my face and I am a little unsure, when I walk. Thats all at the moment. A very important support ist my family, not only my wife and daughter but also relative who live far away from Berlin and friend, relatives and freinds of my wife, members of our parish. It is great to know, how many people think for me, pray for me, not only in Germany but also in several other countries, where friends ore relatives think for me. To know this gives me power. Please pray for me to. I want to use this opportunity to say thank to the doctors but exspecialy to the nurses of the Jewish Hospital and of the brain surgery of the Virchow Klinikum (Charite hospital) (all three hospitals in Berlin, Germany, websites only in German) I realized, that there were less nurses for more work, than twenty years ago, when I stayed in the hospital he last time. Nurses and doctors had to work several hours more than planed at very many days. They often had a lot of stress, because they got several additioonal duties. - But all of them, every single nurse, male nurse and doctor were alwas friendly not only to the patients but also to their guests. This was really great. I am very thankful therefore! God bless these nurses and doctors! Updates (only in German language) |