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Morning. Wanted to check in here this morning to let you all know I haven't forgot about you. I hope everyone is another pound lighter since the last time I checked in! I've been working on my message board a lot. I am going to start keeping a food menu over there so you should check it out. I hope to update it daily. I really love the interaction over there. I don't have a lot of members yet, but we have a very nice crowd so far. Nothing really new to report. I've been doing ok on my diet, could be better. Water has been going down pretty good and still walking. When I started this update, I felt like I had so much to say, now I can't think of a darn thing. I will try and update later on after something exciting happens. :P Take care.

Update* Well nothing exciting happened today, unless you call getting your period exciting, but I promised an update, so here it is. I really had no idea I was getting ready to start. Usually I will have signs, but not this time. My period is so irregular, I never know when I will start. Sometimes I will go 2 weeks and get another one, sometimes 6 months. So anyway, that will make weigh-in day suck. I have been drinking the shit out of water too lately and I'm STILL retaining. So, I guess if I do show a gain, I just have to realize it's most likely water retention and extra fluid from having my period. I'm not going to get upset about it this time. The beginning of this week started out pretty bad. It was like I had no control over my eating, I finally took control about Wednesday. So, other then the water weight, I really see no reason for a gain. Let me tell you, I'm very hungry right now. I am trying to learn to live with hunger pangs. No, I don't mean I am going to starve myself, I just mean, I have to realize that I don't have to eat every single time I feel hungry. This always happen to me at night anyway. Those night time cravings are the worse for me. Usually if it gets real bad, I will eat a apple of something. A lot of the time, I will just go to bed and worry about food tomorrow. Speaking of bed, I think that is where I belong right now. Check out my message board! Night.

I hope everyone is doing well. I've been busy with the kids and hubby and working on and updating my message board. There is still so much I have to learn.

Last night we took the kids to see Spider-Man, it was actually pretty good. I'm sure Michael will want to buy it when it comes out on video. We still need to buy "Behind Enemy Lines". That movie kicked some ass.

Yesterday we went out and bought a new barbq grill. This sucker is big. We had planned on having a nice barbq and drinking a few beers afterwards (yes, light beer :P) Mother Nature had other plans for us though. We were under a severe thunderstorm warning for about 3 hours today. Then we were under a tornado warning for about an hour. While all this was going on, we had already lit the barbq grill and it stayed lit this whole time! We did get to have our barbq, but not really the way we had hoped. We wanted to spend a nice evening outside, just sitting under the moonlight. Awwwwwww!

We have been without a mattress for our bed for about 2 weeks now. Our other one had seen it's better days so we trashed it, thinking we would replace it right away. That didn't happen due to many reasons. Anyway, we finally buy one tonight and they delivered it right away. In fact, they followed us home. That is my kind of service. So it's all fixed up with clean sheets and just looking really spiffy. My husband fell asleep about 2 hours ago, on the couch! Sometimes men really suck.

Well, I guess it's time to move onto the dreaded diet talk. I say dreaded because this week has not been going well for me, once again. I am thinking about joining weight watchers. I've seen so many people have great success with it. I need something different. I think that is my biggest problem, I need a break from the same old thing day after day. I don't think I would join and go to the weekly meetings or whatever, but I'd like to get the material and look it over. Maybe join weight watchers online. I'll have to look into that and check out the price. If I can stay within my calorie range for the rest of the week, I might not have to worry about seeing a gain on weigh-in day. I can almost guarantee I will not see a loss though. I haven't been doing my walks either. This week has just started out crazy busy. Plus it's been raining for 2 days in a row. Well, I think I am going to go for now. I really need to go to bed, it's been an exhausting day. Take care everyone.

I just wanted to make a quick entry about my weigh-in today. I mentioned before - I did buy a new scale, so that is why there is a 3 pound difference this week. I really don't think I lost 3 lbs, I just think both scales are slightly different. Since my old scale is in the trash, I will be going with the new scale from now on, so that is what I weigh. :P Make sense? Boy I hope so. That's all I wanted to say for now. I will come back later and update more. Sign up for my message board! Peace.

Update later* Well I really went crazy today. I've been eating like a pig. I decided I wanted to take a free day today, and believe me, I did. At least I have a whole week before I weigh-in again, so if I am good the rest of the week, I could even see a loss. I seperated my weight chart into entries for 2001 and entries for 2002. I lost 32 lbs in 2001 and I didn't start until the end of September. So far for 2002 I've only lost 13 lbs and it's already May. God, at this rate, it's going to take years! Now that I got a major food binge out of my system, I am going to work my butt off. No more playing around! I have to do this. I am tried of thinking about food 24/7, good and bad food, and not getting anywhere. I want to make all this thinking about food worth it.

I want to thank everyone that has joined my message board! I think it's cool to finally be able to meet the people that are visiting my page. I had over 100 hits to my page today, I think that's a record. It's really exciting. I hope this page helps you all as much as it is helping me. So join the message board and let's all meet each other! Goodnight.

Hello good people! The message board is up and running. I might need to make a few adjustments and such, but I think it's functioning pretty good as it is. Now, if I could just get people to join! Please, Please, Please! Join now! I worked my butt off on it and I really want people to use it and enjoy it. Yes, I know. You are probably wondering why we need another message board. Not like there are not enough of them out there. This one is mine though! hehehehe Seriously though, please register and start posting. Never know, it could be fun.
I didn't take a walk tonight. I just didn't feel like it today. Speaking of walks... On Thursday, while I was taking my walk, there was a car wreck. See, I have to walk down a busy street for about a block then I can turn and head back to my residential neighborhood. On this day, I noticed a wreck just down the road. It had just happened, the police were not there yet. So as I get to the end of the block and get ready to turn, I hear the sirens. I decided to wait for a bit and watch. Three fire trucks, one ambulance and 2 cops cars. I watched as they loaded an old lady in the ambulance and then I left. I didn't really think about it anymore after that, until... I was reading the paper Saturday morning and I see in the local city and state section. The lady they loaded in the ambulance was 72 years old and she had died later that night. I guess the other people involved in the wreck had ran a stop light and hit her. Of course, neither one of them had a scratch on them. It's weird how that happens sometimes. Anyway, I felt so bad for the poor old lady. :(

Well now that I've depressed you all, I think I'm going to call it a night. Wish me luck on weigh-in tomorrow morning. I'm going to need it! I did well all week, but then tonight, I got hungry! Take care!

Today was a pretty uneventful day. My husband and I wanted to go see Spiderman tonight. We drove through major traffic all the way there only to find out it was sold out for the rest of the night! Oh well, I didn't really care to see it, but don't tell him that.

I so badly want more interaction on this page. I am trying with all of my might to think of new things to add. I put up a rewards page tonight. Pretty basic and boring stuff there. I also mentioned that I am creating a message board. I haven't had any time to work on it lately, but I will make the time and get it going. Also, it's a little more difficult for me then I thought it would be. I am pretty much a beginner at html, so I am learning as I go. Anyone that could offer me advice on creating my message board, I would be very grateful, just email me. Also, anyone that thinks this page is missing a certain something, please let me know. Well, I think I am going to update the recipe section, then I'm gonna go. You all take care. Don't forget to email me and/or sign the guestbook, it makes me feel good. Thanks!

Sorry I didn't update last night. Was my husband's night off and I was very busy snapping pictures of everything I own. Okay, not everything, but a lot of it. I spent all morning listing stuff for sale on ebay. I've been collecting stuff for about 6 months now. I listed some of it for sale around Christmas time, figured it's time to try and get rid of the rest. I hope to make some money, we'll see though.

I've still been taking my nightly walk. I really enjoy it. My daughter Kendra is about 30 lbs overweight. Bless her heart, she really wants to lose this weight. So from now, until school starts again in the fall, she is going to work on it. She starts middle school then and she is very very nervous about starting. She will not know anyone at middle school and she is smart enough to know how cruel kids can be to overweight kids. Hell, some kids are just straight ass mean, for any damn reason. She has been lucky and hasn't been picked on so far. Anyway, she is on my butt every night, "Mom, are we gonna take our walk tonight?" So whether I want to or not, I am doing it. :P

Speaking of walks... The city of Wichita, which just so happens to be the city I live in, hosts an annual event. It's called, "Wichita River Festival". So, each year the river festival has an event called Wichita Clinic Walkfest. I signed up for it this year. Sounds like it should be fun. Besides the satisfaction of doing it, you get a t-shirt and a free foot and leg massage, hell that alone makes it worth it!

I was messing around with banners on this free banner hosting web page. You can view my new banner on my main page at the bottom. Just something for fun.

I broke down and bought a new scale today. This morning I stepped on my old scale and it said I weighed in the 260's about 3 different times. So I started to panic, thinking, "No fucking way!" I went out and bought a new one right away. I got it home, stepped on it fully clothed and mid-day, it said I weighed 235 lbs. Much better! I think I'm going to get naked(woo!) and weigh myself first thing in the morning, just to get a more accurate weight. It is just a cheap $10.00 scale but, it should do the trick for awhile. Well the kids are acting like they escaped from the funny farm right now, so I better go. Take care.