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I can't believe it! I weighed 21 lbs this morning! Okay, no I haven't lost my mind, it's just time to get a new scale. Over the last two days - yes, I weigh myself occasionally during the week - The scale has said I weigh 21 lbs, 208 lbs and 279 lbs. I finally got it to read an accurate weight this morning. Everything is going pretty good so far, we'll see how the week goes. I have to get out of here right now though and tend to my motherly duties. Until next time.

Well, another week that has basically went to shit. *sigh* When will this end? What is wrong with me? I have got to get back in this with a whole heart. I start out thinking this is the week and each week turns out worse then the other. I am fine all day, but once it's dinner time, I start scarfing. It's not even the scarfing that is the big issue, it's what I eat mostly. I think it is easier for me during the day because I am cooking for myself mostly. It's easy to eat a bowl of cereal or oatmeal for breakfast. Have a banana to snack on a little later. Have a lean cuisine for lunch. Eat another snack in the afternoon. Once dinner time rolls around though, I don't know what to cook. I try to think what I can cook for my entire family that is healthy, yet easy and cheap to make. Something that everyone will eat is a problem too. I find that the cheap meals are almost always the most fattening. Not to mention, by dinner time, I am usually pretty damn hungry. Maybe I need to start eating a larger lunch and save the lean cuisine for dinner? Make something for everyone else that will make them happy while I eat some frozen dinner. Hmm, maybe that isn't such a good idea after all. Sounds good writing it down, but when it comes down to it, I'd probably just end up eating the frozen dinner, plus eating some of whatever I cooked for them. Man, it's all so confusing. I keep meaning to make a week's menu. Look through all my recipes, pick out dinners that I think everyone will enjoy and stick with it. I never seem to find the time though. I just need to make it a point to at least pick out dinner for 7 days in a row. I can handle that, I think.

Water... Well what can I say? I haven't been drinking enough of it, again. I will tell you what my biggest problem is. My two year old. I find it nearly impossible to keep water at my side at all times. I have to have it by me in order to remember to drink it. Sounds stupid, I know. Anyway, she will take my water, put her hands in it, spill it, drink it, put her toys in it and on and on. So I have to end up keeping it on the kitchen counter. We have a baby gate blocking off the kitchen, so every time I want a drink or water, I have to hurdle over the gate just to get it. I am lazy, I need things to be easy for me or I simply do not do them. I know that is the wrong attitude to have while trying to lose weight, but it's the truth. Something else I need to work on.

I did exercise one day this week. The day I said I was going to, I did. I haven't since then though. We had kind of a big scare over the last couple of days and exercise just didn't take priority. We were in fear that my husband was going to lose his job. He didn't, thank God, but the possibility was really eating away at both of us. I will do more next week.

Not a whole lot more to say, except, weigh-in day will probably not be good again this week. We'll see though. I entered a weight loss challenge today. It will run from now until June 30th. I set my goal to drop 20 lbs by then. Surely I can do that! Umm, what else, oh yeah, one more thing. I am not going to be updating the recipe section with every update anymore. I am finding it making me not want to even update because, quite frankly, it is slightly time consuming, time is something I don't seem to have a lot of anymore. Instead, I will post a new recipe once a week. I will most likely do it every Monday, after I weigh-in. Well, I think that is it for tonight. Take care.