Why is the world so messed up today?
"Just accept it,� they always say
What happened to individualism, you and me
Today everyone has become a 'we'
One person taking charge
How can one person become so large?
When everything they say is a must
That�s when we begin to loose trust
Respect is what will steer them along
Then they find out that their way was wrong
People stopped following them
And all power was given to women
We are the rulers of the earth
We are the ones who give birth
And if you don�t follow in our way
We will find ways to make you pay
Little ones with feeble minds
They are the ones who commit most crimes
Jails are filled with little lads
Makes you wonder, where were their moms and dads?
Military men fighting for us
These are the men in which we put all our trust
Flags flown proudly outside
A way for Americans to show their pride
Flags were flown when terrorism began
Is this a way for us to win?
How hypocritical to see the flag alive
When it�s only up in hopes that you will survive
Stick up for what you believe
And the world will retrieve
The hate and anger abundance in us
And start to repair this world�s trust
And make us all a �we�
Where you and me are still somebody
And keep individualism alive
That�s the only way to survive
6/8/03
Look at me from a distance
What do u see?
Happines
But have u ever see me?
The real me
The one full of depression, sorrow?
The one who trys to make things good when you know
They cause umbearable pain?
Is it a front i put on? or do u not know the real me
How could you
The real me is always hiding from the world
From the truth
When will i come forth?
Only time will tell
But time is the factor to my pain
The pain that never fully recedes, but stays with me
The pain that cuts my wrist
The pain that kills me
Will i ever let it go?
Will it ever let me go?
We dance hand in hand, my fate, my pain, my sorrow and
Depression, with the hands of time
But which one leads?
1/11/03
Thoughts of suicide run through your head...
They wont miss me when im gone
Just make it quick...wont take long
This emotion I cant control
My hearts left with a big hole
I did this by myself
Crying by myself...
Hurting by myself..
But you did nothing to help me
You just ignored it like its meant to be
But now you'll have to live with the memories
I guess its the way it has to be...
4/03
I dare you too
I�m here for you always
At least when you tell me too
I care about you
More than words can say
So why are you trying to end your life on this day?
This is not the answer
I�ve told you before
Please open up and let me in
Don�t close the door
Behind the door are needles and knives
The kind of things that end our lives
Don�t let him bring you down like this
Because when he�s gone, it is you who we will miss
Just listen to me when I say
You will find love another day
But right now you are scaring me with death
Cherish these days, they are all you have left
Please open the door and see the light
I�ll be there on the other end, making things all right
6/16/03
Nothing ever seems to come.
When it does, nothing never goes away.
An evolution of nothingness has fallin upon my soul of nothing.
What is it you ask? Nothing.
Nothing likes me and i like nothing.
But when nothing goes to far, you end up with nothing.
Beginning with nothing and ending with nothing, living with nothing and existing as nothing.
7.2.03
Have you ever felt the world passing you by
While you sit there wondering why
Have you ever felt the world staring you in the face
Wanting to give up without the chase
Have you ever been so numb inside
Emotion built up to the day you cried
Have you ever felt lost and alone
Having no soul of your very own
I deal with this everyday
I�ve handled it in everyway
Have you ever wished upon that star on the beach
Did you know that dreams were way out of reach?
Have you ever wanted to bleed so bad
Wishing for that razorblade you never had
Have you ever wanted what you cant have
When you don�t get it, you try to laugh
Have you ever tried to laugh the pain away
Knowing it�ll come back the next day
Have you ever wanted someone to care
Was anybody ever there?
I deal with this everyday
I�ve handled it in everyway
But it always comes back to me
It kills me suddenly
7.29.03
It started with the hair
Staring, longing to touch it
Moving to your eyes
Loving and fun, non-interested
The way you smiled when you were happy
Never smiling about me
The way you played guitar
Head leaned in ever so slightly
I could almost�
Then I stopped the dreaming
Realizing the truth
I thought maybe you could write a song about me
Maybe about how much you like me
Or how we could be together
Do you remember that letter?
I really wanted to know how you felt
Whether you cared or didn�t
I remember when I first saw you playing guitar
With your head cocked to the side
I caught a glance of you looking at me
You looked so relaxed and so at ease
Maybe you did write a song for me
About how I ruined your life forever
7.6.03