Never letting up, never going away
One last look, a double take
I want to wake up, please awake
This horrible dream that haunts me so
I want to be free, just let it go
If you were my friend, you'd let it show
Instead you leave me, make me feel low
I walk around as happy as can be
But inside it's killing me
You laugh to my face and call me names
Why do you play these fucking games?
This horrible dream that haunts me so
I want to be free, just let it go
If you were my friend, you'd let it show
Instead you leave me, make me feel low
I've been your friend for all these years
Those many years that caused me tears
You never want to take it slow
Just kick me out of your life, let me go
Do you care about me or do you care about yourself?
You'll always be by yourself
No one other than you
You'll always love yourself
But why can't you love me too?
This horrible dream that haunts me so
I want to be free, just let it go
If you were my friend, you'd let it show
Instead you leave me, make me feel low
6/6/03
I always loved you
Been known to hate you
Look at you and I cry
Tears of 'hello' and 'goodbye'
Pack your bags and off you go
You walk away, but you walk to slow
Make it fast, I want it to be the end
You look back and I know my broken heart wont mend
You walk back, smile upon your face
I guess I took up too much of your space
Because you were saying 'bye' to your friend
That's when I knew it was the end...
Never thought I'd loose you
You looked into my eyes
A look of 'goodbye'
You walked away into the light
The last time I saw you, a beautiful sight
Then it was the end
When i found out you had a boyfriend...
Does anyone care?
Or do you just sit there and stare...
I see through that smile, so smart
As you stab my bloody heart
Slaughtered souls and dented lives
You kill me slowly with your dull knives
My pain has inlisted you to kill
Parasites in my heart, you will fill
Sit back or stand tall
Watch me take that deadly fall
One, two, three, my loss
Guess I will suffer at my own cost
Four, five, six, I'm alive
I guess you chose me to survive
I hated you in the begining and now it's the end
My broken heart was yours to mend
You did a great job and I think you all
But why do I still feel so small?
You killed me just to set me free
I guess thats the way it's supposed to be
Friend, foe, enemy to me
Oh just let me be, be me, be me
6/6/03
I tried to love, turning into hate
I tried to speak, spoke too late
My love for you will stay strong and true
I was attached to you like paper and glue
My feelings for you were oh so strong
Please tell me that i wasn't wrong
My feelings for you will stay very strong
While my wishes for you were very wrong
I'd bend over backwards just to help you
While you walk past me without a clue
A clue as to how my heart really feels
I just need a way to help me heal
6/7/03
You've been my best friend from third grade and on
Except that thing in fifth grade, oh that wasn't long
I've been your friend through the good and the bad
You helped me out when I was feeling sad
You said that you would never leave me
And it took seven years for me to see
That we will be together for all time
I just want you to know that you are mine
And if I ever let you fall
I'll build you up so you don't feel so small
Remember we used to hold hands years ago?
Those were the years that made my heart glow
You were always there when I needed a friend
And I'll always be there, holding your hand
6/7/03
That will be the day
When people stop caring what others think
When we are our own person
Pretending to be something we arent
Living up to others expectations but our own
Conspiracy ruling our lives
As we try to escape
Others are trying to rape
Our insides, individualism
Our ways mixed with thier opinions
Major collision
Being a part of the world, while being the world too
Just tell yourslef to stay true
Maybe that day will come
When everybody wont become everyone
6/8/03