What I have to say about myself is pretty simple. As a person,
I am very in-between things right now. I have merely one semester
of college under my belt, and at least seven more to go. Some days
this is okay, and some days I feel like I'll be in school forever,
especially when I think about the extra 2 or 4 semesters I could
easily tack on there in order to get a teaching certificate or... uh,
something else I could get with 2 or 4 semesters. Like a job?
I'm pretty much your average midwestern, Wisconsin-raised girl,
save the red hair, which I realize is a little extraordinary, considering
that it hasn't turned strawberry blonde or dark auburn yet... it's still
just this crazy, sometimes overwhelming red. Orange, in the sun. I
have a lot of freckles, but thank God I have them, or I'd look like a
ghost. Born April 22, 1985, I'm a Taurus, and usually fit the role. It's
not hard for me to be stubborn; that's pretty much all I can say about
that. Same goes for the fact that on the Chinese Zodiac I'm an ox,
which shares a lot of the same characteristics.
As far as interests go, I'm big on primetime crime shows like the CSI:'s,
and the Law & Orders, and West Wing, etc. They're all good. I like
movies for the most part, but generally tend to stick to the more ob-
scure, artsy, foreign or independent films. Likewise, music is sometimes
the same way. I've got a bit of the ambient trance dance music sort of
coursing its way through my veins at the moment... things that most
people (including myself) generally wouldn't know about. I can draw
pretty well. I've been told I don't even need schooling for that, and
such I have found out, I guess. I haven't molded it into much of an
outlet, although it should be. It's hard sometimes to not view drawing
as a last resort, when getting lost in something not-so-productive is
sometimes more attractive. :\
I LOVE TO TRAVEL. It's my goal to visit all 50 states, and as of now
I have 17 more to visit. How I'll ever find reason to go to North Da-
kota, though, is beyond me. My next major trip I would like to take
is to the northeast, New England area. LOVE. As far as foreign travel,
I have only been to Canada, and to boot, I saw a bunch of trees and
lakes, but saw no large cities, and experienced no Canadian culture.
In college I expect to spend a semester in Ireland, studying abroad.
I'm a talker. I love to chat. I get such a kick out of deep conversations,
especially when I get to just sit there and listen. Most of my closest
friends have a knack for dialogue, so usually good conversation isn't
too hard to come by. Sometimes I do talk too much, but that's sort of
how I deal with things. If something's bothering me, I blather on about
it until I feel a little more relieved, or maybe just hoarse. Maybe, to
put it into perspective a little, I'm sort of like a Russian doll (or an
onion, but there's something more attractive about Russian dolls, don't
you think?). Big on the outside, usually a cover-up for what's on the
inside, but when you take away all the layers, there's this concentration
of deep things inside that I don't often let out. But really, on the inside,
beyond the important stuff, there isn't really much to look at. Just a
little piece of wood that hides inside all the other hollowed out pieces of
wood, painted up real pretty.
I've learned a lot these past couple years. High school, like it is for
just about everyone, was trying. I went through different phases of
character in order to find ways to cope, depending on who I knew or
what was going on at the time. I sheltered myself a lot, more because
once I got the idea in my head that I could not, for the love of God,
disappoint anyone who believed I was a certain someone, the idea
just became bloated and before you know it, I was the lonely outsider
in a new college, 2,400 miles from home, not knowing what to do with
myself. I'd never had a reason to break free from any barriers that
had never really existed for me, so I had stayed within bounds that
many parents probably find ideal. But that's why they're parents...
I was born in Tillamook, Oregon to two great parents. They make
cheese in Tillamook, too, which is silly considering that Kaukauna,
where I grew up, is also known for its cheese. I have two younger
sisters, Alison Louise and Madeleine Zoe Ann. We have two cats and
a dog, and live in a great house once occupied by a past mayor. I've
lived in Wisconsin since I was about two years old, and consider it
my home, even though I am not officially a native. Like some people,
I used to be able to find and pick out every single itsy-bitsy thing that
was "wrong" with this area. And sometimes there are things that still
bother me, but it would take some serious adjustments in order for
any other place to feel this much like home.
A lot, I realized, of what makes a place home, is the people that
are around. I learned this the hard way, having thought for a very
long time that a geographic location, if attractive enough, could
easily take the place of that if there weren't so many close people
around. Having been away from home, from everything and everyone I
knew for four months last year, I learned that I have so much more
love and respect for the people I know in Wisconsin than I ever thought
I did. My best friends are indeed the best, and my family is amazing.
Without their companionship, it's hard to say who I'd be right now.
So that's pretty much how it goes: a lot of jumbled up weirdness,
somehow shoved together sort of... like a few puzzle pieces that almost
fit together, but don't quite, so you force them together anyway until
you find the right one to replace the awkward one. That's all we all
are anyway... just a giant puzzle that someone is trying to figure out.
Sometimes I feel hopeless. But sometimes it's just the opposite. And
those are the times I pay the most attention to.
I have a bit of a new outlook on returning to college in the fall. I hope
to major in interior design/architecture. Knowing more about the art
world than maybe I should for a person who is talented in art, I real-
ized pretty quickly that there is no place for me in art galleries or
weekend shows in nice neighborhoods. I simply intend to redirect my
creativity to another profession.
Enough is constantly changing to keep me on my toes, which is def-
initely a positive thing. Hopefully in a few years I can look back at
this transition in my life and realize that there are things to be learned,
even in the in-between.
So if you want, or you don't already, or both, you can drop me a line
AIM: Sior Saoghal OR lugubrialite (sometimes: JohnnyGoDarkly)
So, you know. Keep in touch.
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