| 5-16-01, i'm soo tierd... tierd of everything, i feel like i'm back in that place i was when i so desperately wanted to get away from home, like emotionally in that place. i'm so hopelessly in love, and cant do anything about it, which makes life just that much harder, i just want to scream and break out of this lifeless rutt i'm in. yesterday was my birthday and it was very much not like i planned, i thought that since i would be going to a concert and getting a new cd, that it would make everything better. nothing is better. i really need a friend right now, someone who'll listen to my problems and tell me what to do with my life. i fell so very alone right now. i also figured out that turning 20 just means you are anywhere from 1/3 to 1/5 done with your life. so everything sucks right now, and i have no way to fix it. i want my mommy... i want to go home. the rbf show was fun, but i was so hungry, tierd, and depressed that i could hardly keep from screaming. and then no one stuck around after the show so i came home all alone and just sat around felling sorry for myself, which i'm sure didn't help my situation at all. the weezer cd is great, even if it is too short. and other than that life is kicking my ass. the end. like kronus devouring his children, i am eating up all my chances of happiness |
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