| 3-15-02 so yeah exactly 2 months till i turn 21 and i'm feeling like i've accomplished nothing with my life. i wonder if this is natural? i know that a year ago this would be the place where i'd say something sappy about a girl... but i have no-one to long for anymore, i've got no cause without somone to want more than life it's self. but i'm not totally depressed, just anxious. lemmi see. i'm listening to the new eels right now, fresh feeling is such a good song. i need to have some one/thing to write aboot, this is just wierd having nothing. at least when i didn't have her i didn't have some thing, now i don't have anything... one week from today i'll be on a bus to San luis obispo, and then a week from tomarrow i'll be in modesto. that'll be fun, i'll get to see everyone. i'm up to 121 cd's which makes me happy and sad at the same time. i love my cd's, but it's like i look at all that money i spent to aquire them, i wonder how people with hundreds and hundreds of cd's feel. School sucks my ass. but it's some interaction with other people, even if they're all dumb, well maybe not dumb, but not the type of people i'd like to hang oot with. and there's also the fact that i can't really talk to people without some one there to introduce me to them. oo.k. this is lame, i'm gonna not write anything on here anymore unless i have something worth writing. yeah |