Did i finally break down and start writing a journal?

entry 7: lucky my foot!

so yeah today is a not so bad day. i guess things will be ok... maybe. i still get that feeling creeping into my heart occasionally, and lisa's right i can go from sad to happy very quickly so i just have to make that change... it's kinda hard though when i have very little to look forward to at the end of the day, and it seems as days go by that 'very little' dwindles to less and less. and i really have no one to talk to, i mean. no one calls me. and i feel bad calling people just so they can cheer me up, no one should have to cheer me up i should be the one doing the cheering!
oh so i finally heard the song 'she took him to the lake' by alkaline trio, like actually HEARD it. and the lyrics like made me shiver:

Do you remember the story of the boy and his first date?
She took him to the lake and he fell in love
She spent one summer waking up between his arms
She told him how good that felt, told him he was the one

And then she went away, his calls were not returned
He went to see her
but her eyes were burning a different stare
The focus was somewhere else
And that feeling had somehow disappeared

Do you remember when they both drove out of state?
Stealing kisses behind her cousins back,
with a love so strong tell me who could wait
When it seems so right and it feels so right
Man, it had to be right
When it seems so right and it feels so right
Man, it had to be right
gotta be right

When it seems so right and it feels so right
Man, it had to be right
But then she went away and she's not coming back
and I'm pretty sure that boy is staying in tonight


is it a bad thing that this song's starting to feel more and more like my life?
i guess it's kinda sad when the one person you want to talk to more than anyone, doesn't have a use for you anymore...

10-21-03
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