| Did i finally break down and start writing a journal? entry 6: i dont want to play anymore... i can only listen to these happy songs so long before i break down and cry the facad of my smile is such a hapless lie there are holes in my head and a big one in my chest but it seems to me you think this is all in jest well, someday soon you'll see when my thoughts finally run dry that this was all a cry for help, and you just let me die could you make out my symptoms while i laughed them away? did you catch my final heartbeat when i passed away? i'll give all my favorite things to all my favorite friends don't it look like a sign of things to come? ... Fuck! i just lost entry 5!!! 10-21-03 |