The funny thing is, considering some things, I really should be in an unhappy mood. Well, in the overall scheme of life, these things that have happened aren�t really major or anything, especially when one considers all the problems of the world, but still, they can ruin your day. For instance, yesterday, the girl I was suppoesd to meet yesterday never showed up. Now, granted, I wasn�t really angry or anything because it w�sn�t like I had to walk really far to see her, or worse yet, take the bus. Then, I might have been mad. But, still, I don�t know what happened. One thing that might have gone wrong is the fact that my clock in my room, because of the electricity here, sometimes speeds up, so I was actually waiting for her almost 20 minutes early. I assumed she wasn�t coming, so I went home, and saw the clock on the radio that said it had just turned six! So I ran back out the house, up the street, and to the school. Now, there is the possiblity that in between those 10 minutes,she was there waiting for me, but I�m guessing probably not. Who knows? I�m not angry, though. If I see her again, I�d still like to try to meet up with her another time.
The other thing is my "friend" Ignacio. I don�t know what the deal is with him. Okay, I call his house on Sunday to tell him happy birthday, and moreso, to ask why I hadn�t heard from him. So, his mother answers and tells me he isn�t in and to call back in an hour. She was very friendly, and I could understand her Spanish really well, so I went ahead and decided to confirm the fact that it was his birthday with her. She said that it was, and then she said, "Are you coming?" I was like, "Ummmm....to what? Is he having a party?" She was like, "Well, no, but we are just going to have some food, and a little music, just a get together with family for him." I was like, "Well, that sounds nice, but Ignacio didn�t invite me!" She said something else, which I didn�t 100% get, but I think she was saying that he didn�t really know about it. I don�t know. After that, I asked her if he had been sick and if he was feeling better. She was like, "Si, si, Ignacio was very sick for about a week with varicella (chicken pox) but we think that he is going to be doing better now." Anyhow, I asked her to tell him to call me back, but that I would also call back in an hour.
So, I call back, and she wasn�t sure if he was there. She checked, and he came to the phone. He was very short with me and basically blew me off telling me that he would call me later. I was like, "What was that all about!?" I swear, I don�t get it! I am very confused, well, was very confused because he was so friendly and nice with me the last time I saw him and seemed like he really wanted to be friends! I couldn�t understand exactly what had gone wrong! I mean, he took me to his house, we had a good time, I talked briefly with his mother (who seemed to know me on the phone), and he was telling me that I could come back whenever I wanted and even gave me a necklace! So, seriously, I completely, totally don�t know why he doesn�t want to talk to me. It�s moreso like I just want an explanation, because I hate having to guess. I was thinking that maybe, maybe he wanted to be more than friends, but then when I was showing him all those photos of Charles, he might have been kind of hurt. But, he wasn�t acting like it, and even asked me about Charles the last time we were on the phone. I even asked him if he was angry that I had a boyfriend the last time we talked and he said no. Now, I understand that he could have been lying, but still. The other thing is that he kept reiterating to me that he was poor, and I was like, "Okay, okay. I don�t think so, but okay." He was kind of joking, and to be honest, he certainly didn�t look poor. Their house (houses, actually) were beautiful. If he is not rich, he is definitely not in the lower class here in Mexico, that�s for sure. Anyhow, the problem is, the school that I attend here in Mexico, TEC de Monterrey is the best in Morelos (it is a private university). It is only for the wealthiest Mexicans, and for that reason, has a reputation of being for snobs, and for Mexicans who look down on other Mexicans that don�t have the same that they do. Everyone here knows about the school, and immedately thinks certain things about you when they hear that you go to it. Well, when Ignacio met me on that last Wednesday, he was like, "You go to this school.?" I told him I did, and later when we were talking, I had asked him about racism in Mexico. He said that the only racism in Mexico was the rich people like those at TEC who were prejudiced against the poor, (which is actually classism, but anyway...). So, later, his little brother (who is like, 8 or 9 or 10) made a comment when I told him my school, and I was like, "I swear! I�m not rich! It�s just that my school has an agreement with this school and sends all of their exchange students here! If I were Mexican, I wouldn�t be able to pay to go to this school either!" So basically, what all this boils down to is that maybe he feels like he doesn�t really need to have anything else to do with me. Maybe he feels like I am one of those rich kids at TEC who thinks they�re all great and too good for the world. I don�t know. If so, I really wish he would just let me tell him I�m too good for him, instead of assuming it himself!
Even though his mother invited me, I was in no way going to go over there after all of that happened. I definitely did not want to be "that girl" who shows up at a guys birthday party because his mother invited her, and the guy is just standing there like, "Why is she here?" So, I don�t know what happened with all of this, but that I am not going to call him again. I don�t need to, and I refuse to lower myself to calling someone who shows absolutely no interest. Sorry about the long entry today! Hope it was interesting!