Random thoughts on femininity in the male of the species, 2004

First off, this is not meant to be an academic essay. It is merely like a collected blog entry, finding its way to a personal site.

Lets see...my current gender identification happens to be Transvestite, NOT transsexual or transgendered. I pray to God to let it remain this way. I do not want to be overwhelmed with femininity or gender dysphoria and find myself on the path to a sex change, or SRS, as is the politically correct term for it now.

My blurry gender has opened me up in the sexual sense. I consider myself to be "trans-bisexual" now, which means I find other transvestites, drag queens, female impersonators, transsexuals, shemales etc. very attractive, besides being into GGs, obviously. I ask the straight cross-dresser one question...if you want people to consider you a woman, how can you not think of another T-girl as a girl?

That said, I have a great partner. She's a genetic girl, unlike me. Funnily, she reckons I'm more girlie than she is, when it comes to personality and reactions. This brings me to another issue...being bisexual doesn't mean you HAVE to fuck both genders at once. Attraction is one thing, but loyalty to your partner comes first.

Over time, as I've dressed, and the rare chances I've gone out dressed, I've come to one conclusion: Men are scum. Married, engaged men, men in commitments, they're all ready for sex, always, anyplace, without even thinking of the consequences, their kids, or their better halves. Is sex more important than your woman? Funnily, gay men in commitments seem to be less threatening and sleazy.

I've also realized that there is little need of coming out to "friends". Come out only to those who matter. The rest won't even try to understand. And, if you're struggling to tell your better half, know this - don't be too "in your face". I mean, your twinkie dangling from lacey panties isn't exactly a coming-out moment.

If you're a colored T-girl like me, you'd find it interesting to know that some racist people suddenly seem to like you, in spite of your color, only because you're in a skirt and hotter than their wife.

Is transvestism a greater sin than homosexuality? And how is it sinful? We're merely dressing up, we're merely more sensitive, we're feminine...how is that wrong or crazy? Remember Madonna's words,
Girls can wear jeans
And cut their hair short
Wear shirts and boots
'Cause it's OK to be a boy
But for a boy to look like a girl is degrading
'Cause you think that being a girl is degrading
But secretly you'd love to know what it's like
Wouldn't you
What it feels like for a girl

I think a lot of people forcibly undergo transition, and unhappily so. There's a lot of brainwashing going on out there, and it is important for you to think carefully before you decide to go in for a sex change, for its not just a sex change, its a lifestyle change. And getting a prosthetic vagina will not make you any more feminine than you already are, or cause random and rapid changes in your persona or personality. I just beg people out there to give cross-dressers more leeway, so that they're not ashamed of wanting to be feminine. I think a lot of cross-dressers call themselves TS merely out of shame. Do not be afraid to be feminine, my fellow transvestites. But, remember - the world is not ready for you just yet, so be amongst your own kind and nice, accepting folk until its okay for men to be feminine.