Author�s Notes: Okay, so this story is finally going to be moving forward now. This story will be 24 chapters. The chapters will alternate between Grissom, Catherine, and the kidnapper. That means that since the last chapter was Grissom�s POV, this one�s Catherine�s. You�re Only Human is by Billy Joel.
You're having a hard time and lately you don't feel so good
The pain�s back again. I almost weep with relief when I realize that I can feel pain. It means I�m still alive. At this point, that�s all that matters.
You're getting a bad reputation in your neighborhood
It's alright, it's alright
Sometimes that's what it takes
Suddenly, a voice breaks into the silence. �I see you�re finally awake.� My heart stops as I hear footsteps come closer. They stop a ways away from me. �I�ve been waiting for this for so long. Watching you, at the crime scenes, MY crime scenes. They were all mine, you know.�
You're only human, you're allowed to make your share of mistakes
I fight the urge to cry when I realize what he�s talking about. He was the serial killer we had been tracking for the past several months. And all that time, he had been tracking me. I hadn�t even realized it.
You better believe there will be times in your life
When you'll be feeling like a stumbling fool
How could I have been so stupid?
So take it from me you'll learn more from your accidents
Than anything that you could ever learn at school
�You should really be more careful at crime scenes. You never know who�s watching.� Then I hear his footsteps retreat.
Don't forget your second wind
As scared as I am of him, I�m more scared to be left alone in this room again, because I know what that means. He�s leaving me here to die. I fight the urge to call out to him.
Sooner of later you'll get your second wind
I don�t want to die here, alone. I need to figure out a way to survive this, somehow.
It's not always easy to be living in this world of pain
You're gonna be crashing into stone walls again and again
It's alright, it's alright
Though you feel your heart break
You're only human, you're gonna have to deal with heartache
I still hold onto the hope that Gil�ll find me. That he and the team will figure out where I am. But I know there�s a slim chance of that happening. After all, we�ve been tracking this guy for months, and we weren�t ever able to find him. They probably won�t even connect my disappearance to him.
Just like a boxer in a title fight
You got to walk in that ring all alone
That means I�m going to have to save myself.
You're not the only one who's made mistakes
But they're the only thing that you can truly call your own
But I don�t know if I can. The pain is almost overwhelming now. I can tell there�s now something covering my wound to slow down the bleeding, but it�s only a matter of time.
Don't forget your second wind
I tentatively try the restraints holding me down, try to see if there�s any give.
Wait in that corner until that breeze blows in
Even just a little would give me the hope I need.
You've been keeping to yourself these days
Cause you're thinking everything's gone wrong
Then I hear his voice again, laughing. And I know. There will be no give.
Sometimes you just want to lay down and die
That emotion can be so strong
But hold on
Till that old second wind comes along
The words resound in my mind. There will be no give. He made sure I wouldn�t be able to escape. I angrily blink back the tears that threaten to escape and try to figure out something else.
You probably don't want to hear advice from someone else
But I wouldn't be telling you if I hadn't been there myself
Then he speaks again, �There�s no way out.�
It's alright, it's alright
Sometimes that's all it takes
I refuse to believe him. To believe him is to willingly give up my life.
We're only human
We're supposed to make mistakes
I try twisting my body to the side, but the pain that shoots through me almost makes me black out again. And so I lie on my side, gasping for breath as tears stream down my cheeks.
But I survived all those long lonely days
When it seemed I did not have a friend
Cause all I needed was a little faith
So I could catch my breath and face the world again
I force myself to lie still, even after I�ve gotten my breathing and crying under control. I need to be much more careful about how I move.
Don't forget your second wind
Sooner or later you'll feel that momentum kick in
When I think it�s wise, I again move, this time returning to my back.
Don't forget your second wind
I decide to lie on my back for awhile, to let my body and mind regroup, before I try something else again. I steadfastly ignore the laughing I can hear. I will find a way out.
Sooner or later you'll feel that momentum kick in
TBC
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