Author�s Notes: This is the last story in my Choices series and deals with the aftermath of High and Low. There will be five chapters. The first and last chapters will be in Catherine�s POV and the middle three will be in Grissom�s POV. Cry is by Faith Hill.
Spoilers: Just High and Low, I think, although everything up to there is game.
Dislcaimers: Not mine. Don�t sue, I have no money. Song�s not mine either.
Feedback: Makes me very, very happy.
Archive: Sure, just let me know
if I had just one tear
running down your cheek
maybe I could cope
maybe I'd get some sleep.
Something was wrong. I knew and he knew it, and yet we sit here silently, as though everything�s just fine. He lied to me. The other day he lied to me when I went to his office to talk to him. He lied to me, and I want to know why. The silence is starting to get to me. I�ve always hated it, but it seems like Grissom�s retreated into silence more and more often lately, and for longer periods of time. And I want to know why. Something�s wrong, and I need to know what it is.
if I had just one moment at your expense
maybe all my misery would be well spent.
�Gil��
He looks up from the paperwork he�s doing and shakes his head, �Don�t start, Catherine.�
could you cry a little
lie just a little
pretend that you�re feeling a little more pain.
Something inside me snaps at his words. Don�t start?! For the past several months he�s refused to let me start, refused to let me in, tell me what the hell�s going on in that head of his.
I gave, now I�m wanting something in return
so cry just a little for me.
I shoot out of my seat, finally voicing all that has rattled in my brain for far too long. �Don�t start?! Well tell me Grissom, when exactly can I start? You�ve be like this for months, trapped in your own little shell, what the hell�s going on?!�
if your love could be caged
honey, I would hold the key.
and conceal it underneath
that pile of lies you handed me.
He looks at me and sighs, �Cath, it�s complicated��
I cut him off, �Everything�s always been complicated with us, and that�s never stopped you from talking to me before.�
He looks at me, begging me to understand, �I can�t��
Once again, I don�t let him finish, �Yeah, well when you can, come find me. Until then, you can just go to hell.�
and you'd hunt and those lies
they'd be all you'd ever find.
and that'd be all you'd have to know
for me to be fine.
And I leave.
and you'd cry a little
you'd die just a little
and baby I would feel just a little less pain.
After I�ve left his office, I go to the locker room and slump on the bench. It felt good to finally cause him some pain, to give back what I�ve been getting for the past few months. But at the same time, the look on his face as I left haunts me.
I gave now I�m wanting
something in return
so cry just a little for me.
Gil and I have been friends for years. During the years of our friendship, he�s always been there for me, always been the one I turned to. Even when I was married to Eddie, he was the one I went to when everything blew up in my face. Now, I�m asking him to let me return the favor, and he refuses to, refuses to let me help him.
give it up baby
I hear you�re doin� fine.
When I finally regain my composure, I leave the locker room and go in search of Grissom again. I may well be a glutton for punishment, but I still want him to talk to me. I look into his office, but he�s not there anymore. Turning around, I see Warrick. He answers my question before I ask it, �I saw him head out to his car.� I nod and run out the door. I see him at his car, opening the door, acting as if everything�s fine.
Nothin�s gonna save me
I see it in your eyes.
�Gil!� He turns around and I stop in my tracks. The look in his eyes tells me it�s hopeless. I have no chance at getting him to talk to me. It�s like I don�t even know him anymore.
some kind of heartache
honey give it a try.
When I don�t say anything, he turns around and gets into his car. My heart breaks with every moment that passes in silence.
I don't want pity,
I just want what is mine
As he drives away, I begin to shake with my effort to not cry. Warrick walks up behind me and places a hand on my shoulder. �You okay?�, his voice is full of concern. I nod and shake off his hand. I�ve thankful for his concern, but it�s not what I want. I want Gil.
Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I stand outside his door, trying to muster my courage to talk to him. Finally, I knock. He opens the door, and without a word lets me in. Surprised, I turn to look at him. His eyes are closed off again. He�s not going to let me know.
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
We go to the living room, and I try one more time, �Gil��
So cry just a little for me
He looks at me, his eyes dead, despite all that must be going on behind them. �Cath, don�t,� he pauses, �just, don�t, okay?�
Cry just a little for me
I nod, and I leave once again, this time never looking back.
could you cry a little for me
TBC
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