Author�s Notes: This part�s in Cath�s POV. The song Enter Sandman is by Metallica. All other notes and stuff are in chapter one.
Say your prayers little one
Don�t forget, my son
To include everyone
I watch as Lindsey says her prayers. When she�s done, I move to tuck her into bed and wish her sweet dreams. She wishes me the same. *If only*, I think as I head to my room.
Tuck you in, warm within
keep you free from sin
till the sandman he comes
Tonight�s my night off, and normally, I�d be thrilled, but instead, tonight I�m terrified. Things always seem so much worse at night.
sleep with one eye open
gripping your pillow tight
For the past three weeks, I�ve had a recurring dream. It�s bad enough during the day, but at night, it�s some how even worse. I hate that I�m afraid to go to sleep.
Exit, light
Enter, Night
As I lay in bed, I struggle to stay awake, hoping that maybe, if I wait long enough, the dreams won�t come tonight. But I�m so tired.
Take my hand
we're off to never-never land
*I need to stay awake* is my last thought as the fatigue overcomes me.
Something�s wrong, shut the light
heavy thoughts tonight
Sure enough, as soon as sleep comes, so does the dream, which I just can�t seem to escape.
And they aren't of snow white
dreams of war, dreams of liars
dreams of dragon's fire
and of things that will bite
I�m ten years old and I sit alone in my room, huddled in a corner. I can hear my parents in the hallway. They�re fighting again. My head snaps up when I hear my mom call out my father�s name. She sounds�scared. Then, I hear her scream and a loud thud. Then silence. For as long as I live, I will never forget that horrible silence. I run out into the hallway and peer down the stairs. My father�s at the bottom, trying to get my mom to wake up. He looks up when he hears me approach. �Go call an ambulance�, he says, �she fell down the stairs.�
sleep with one eye open
gripping your pillow tight
I toss and turn in my sleep as the dream haunts me again. No matter what I do, I just can�t seem to be free of it. It�s there and I can�t escape it. It wouldn�t be so bad if I knew that it was just imaginings of my mind, instead of memories I�d give anything to forget. It�s always so much worse when the nightmare is real.
Exit, light
Enter, Night
Take my hand
we're off to never-never land
Finally, I wake, shooting up in bed with a strangled scream passing through my lips.
Now I lay me down to sleep
Now I lay me down to sleep
After I�ve calmed down, I go to check on Lindsey.
I pray the lord my soul to keep
I pray the lord my soul to keep
She�s sleeping peacefully in her bed. I wonder fleetingly if she ever has nightmares of my suicide attempt. I pray that she doesn�t, that she�ll never have to live the nightmare in her dreams.
If I die before I wake
If I die before I wake
I quietly enter her room and place a soft kiss on her forehead. It still amazes me sometimes, that, in a single moment, I almost gave her up.
I pray the lord my soul to take
I pray the lord my soul to take
After another silent prayer for her peace of mind and soul, I reluctantly return to my room. As terrified as I am, I know I need to try to get some more sleep.
hush little baby, don't say a word
never mind that noise you heard
it's just the beasts under your bed
As I lie in bed, the silence surrounds me. And I can almost hear my mom�s long-ago screams and the thump as she fell down the stairs.
in your closet, in your head
And then the silence returns. Always, the silence.
Exit, light
Enter, Night
Grain of sand
we're off to never-never land
I toss and turn as sleep once again slowly overtakes me.
Exit, light
Enter, Night
Take my hand
I don�t why this dream has recently returned. It�s been years since it haunted me. But as I once again fall into restless slumber, I can�t help but feel an awful sense of foreboding.
we're off to never-never land
TBC
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