Author�s Notes: Can�t Fight This Feeling is by REO Speedwagon.
I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
For the longest time after Catherine�s left, I stay standing perfectly still in the middle of my living room. I�m too stunned to move. She�s gone. She�s left me before, sure, but never like this. This time I know without a doubt that she won�t be back. And I have no idea what do now.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
We�ve been friends for so long that I�ve forgotten how to live without her. She�s more than just a friend, she everything to me.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.
I know she left because she thinks that I don�t trust her, that I don�t need her. She couldn�t be more wrong.
I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
Now if only I could find a way to tell her that.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
I need to talk to her, to see her. I can�t let her leave forever.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.
Suddenly, the choice is clear. I grab my coat and head out the door.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
I decide to walk to her house. I tell myself it�s so I can figure out what to say, but really I�m just stalling. I reach her house fairly quickly though, and I can see the light on in her living room.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
I�m walking to her door when I stop, turn around and walk away. I hurt her today, I�ve been hurting her for months. I might need our friendship, but it�s slowly destroying her. It�s selfish of me to expect her to forgive me again.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
I have to do what�s best for her.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And so I leave.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I walk away as quickly as I can. I know that if I pause for even a second I�ll lose my determination and go back to her. And I can�t let myself do that. She deserves more than this.
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
Every step I take breaks my heart a little more. We have been friends for over a decade. In that time, she has irrevocably changed my life.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.
She�s changed me so much, changed who I am. Without her, I would never have had the courage to become the person that I have.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
Eventually, I reach a park not far from her house. The two of us have even taken Lindsey there before.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
This park is filled with memories, and I realize that just about everything I do, everywhere I go will be filled with memories. We�ve been too large a part of each other�s lives for too long for it not to.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
How am I supposed to keep on going without the person I love?
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
The realization of what I�ve just acknowledged hits me and I quickly sit on a nearby bench. I love her. What the hell am I supposed to do now?
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
TBC
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