Author�s Notes: A Thousand Miles is by Vanessa Carlton.
Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Eventually, I pull myself up off the bench and start walking again. I have no idea where I�m going, until I look up and find myself on Cath�s block again.
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
Sighing to myself, I turn around and continue to wander, my head full of thoughts.
And I need you
And I miss you
I love her. I know that now. I just don�t know what exactly I�m supposed to do about it. The easy answer would be to go tell her. But I can�t. Not after the way we left things. I am so completely confused right now. Normally she would be the one I�d talk to about it, but that�s kinda out of the question at this point.
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
I wish that I could stop time, for just a moment, so that I could think without the world around me, crowding me, hemming me in. Too bad that�s a scientific impossibility.
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
I�ve gone to her house twice tonight, and each time I�ve turned away. I want so badly to see her�to talk to her.
It's always times like these
When I think of you
I need her.
And I wonder
If you ever think of me
But she doesn�t need me.
Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Maybe she never really has.
Living in
Your precious memory
For as long as I�ve known her, I�ve tried to protect her. And yet, I�m the one who ended up hurting her the most.
Cause I need you
And I miss you
I�ve shut her out, over and over again, through the years. I�ve lied to her, and kept things from her, but I swore to myself that I would never betray her. I can�t decide if I have or not. I�m afraid to know what she�d say if I asked her that question.
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by, oh
But, I guess that�s what it�s always come down to with us. Fear. Every lie I�ve ever told her, every secret I�ve ever kept from her, were all because I was afraid of what knowing would do to her. They were all for her own good.
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
Except maybe they weren�t. Maybe she doesn�t need me to protect her. Maybe she�s stronger than I think she is.
And I, I don't wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
There�s only one way to find out. Unfortunately, it�d involve actually talking to her. It�s so hard to talk, it�s so much easier to walk away. I think we�ve both demonstrated that several times tonight.
I,I don't wanna let this go
I, I've fallen...
Suddenly, I turn around. I know where I need to be. I�m done walking away.
Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
I walk quickly, trying to get Cath�s as fast as I can. I hadn�t realized how far I walked until now.
Staring blankly ahead
Making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
I cut through the park, urgently weaving around the families and kids on bikes.
And I still need you
And I still miss you
I need to see her.
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time, would pass us by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
I need to talk to her, I have to let her know. It no longer matters if it�s the right or even smart thing to do. It�s what I need to do.
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
I once again reach her house and this time there is no hesitancy as I knock on the door.
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
I wait impatiently for her to open the door. When she does, I barely notice the look of shock on her face when she sees who it is.
If I could just hold you... tonight
Instead, I wrap my arms around her and pull her close. �I love you�, I whisper into her hair.
TBC
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