Dawn's Day
Greetings to the lonely hearted and the brave of heart.
My name is Dawn and guess what? I have been a cross dresser for fifty years now. I'm a happily married heterosexual, father, grandfather, and crossdresser who lives in Fargo, North Dakota.
All these years thinking that I was alone and lonely; with normal feelings of guilt, shame, embarrassment and feeling afraid; well guess what - it's not true. There are other's just liked me; crossdressers who are warm hearted, understanding and sincere. All you have to do is take The Step and Reach Out - I did. I'm still in the Closet but finally I had to try and REACH OUT; to find others like me; to visit with; to talk with; to share my feelings with and to laugh with. Of course finding others who can be Discreet and Private is a MUST. It's a scary world out there.
Well guess what? I am not alone thanks to the computer. Each evening from 10pm to midnight; I would go to different Websites on crossdressers. One evening and I don't know how I got there but two names Pop-Up. Brittney and Dana Ann both living in Fargo, North Dakota; both heterosexuals; both happily married and both crossdressers. WOW - others just like me - I'm not alone after all! My heart felt very warm, as I knew had I had to REACH OUT to these two girls. Of course my mouth was Dry and I was a little scared but I was TIRED of being lonely - thank you Brittney and Dana Ann for being there as I Reached Out.
My wife is not supportive but reluctantly accepts my cross- dressing. She doesn't like to talk about it or look at me when I'm dressed at home. Over the years I would only Dress Up when she was gone. (Due to guilt, shame or whatever other excuse came to mind.) Now a days, I usually pick one day per week, I buy her roses, placed on the kitchen table; with soft music playing when she comes home from work - she finds me totally Dressed Up. She still doesn't like it but I can no longer hold my feelings inside me. She still wonders about how large my woman's wardrobe is; as she has never seen all my outfits. In fact I have Purged totally three complete wardrobes over the years -- but no more.
I am what I am -- a crossdresser. I think my wife is worried about relatives and friends finding out that I'm a crossdresser and what repercussions it would have. She would be horrified if she knew that on special occasions; I have been out in public dressed as a woman. So this part hurts me in not being able to share my feelings with her. I have to go out without her knowledge and in secret. I pray every night that some day she will be supportive - life's to short. So enjoy your life now and don't worry about what others may or may not think. Let the woman within you out and enjoy.
The only thing that I'm afraid of now is the MARBLE ORCHARD in some rural country side setting where I will end up some day in the future -- but then noBody will really care what you dress like or who you where. So if I can be of help -- like Phyllis Dillard once said; "CAN WE TALK!"
Dawn's Reflections
My email is:[email protected]
Kind Regards,
Dawn
