I would first like to thank and acknowledge my most beloved Arcane for allowing me to post a few selected pieces. To Arcane...my most beloved...you are my infinite source of inspiration and your works have deeply touch my heart.
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The Elocution of Animus
Short Stories:
She is Thou, He is I by: Arcane
Between the Ladders of Infinity by: Darkmuse & Arcane
The Elocution of Animus
Moved I am, amidst her purity, A victim I need to be
back to top She floated on her own ocean of tears while unknowingly transfiguring the desert. Her body
transilluminated by an uncertain source, peacefully lies at the surface of the "water". With
eyes shut, her thoughts glided in depts she never dared to explore then. back to top The moon painted the night sky with beauty as he, the vespertine soul gazed upon a kindred spirit
through a colorful screen. The darkness of the lunar scene outside gave birth to the stars that, somehow, provided the
moon company like offspring to a lovely mother, that stars put a smile on the moon s face which made it spell-bindingly
eye-catching. His eyes looked through the screen as if it is a window leading to a dimension beyond human imagination,
though at that particular moment, thoughts of her existence was as foreign as the dead tongues that humanity s first beings
spoke. Nevertheless, she touched him deeply in a manner so indefinable. He then spoke to her his mind s reflections
and she responded that made him eagerly fascinated to gain more knowledge about
her, the kindred spirit. They are, after all, both children of the night, and that, somehow, made sense. back to top PART ONE
by: Monika Preysler
I have always been a spirit who wandered this wasted land.
I have shed many tears, battled demons,
and my back bears the scars of long forgotten pain.
I felt hollow and I knew I was lost.
As I thread the dark gates of doom, anathemas fell like rain.
And my soul was taken prisoner by this curse.
The storm of damnation brought with it FEAR
By which later served as the key to an incubus.
This created phantasms of great proportion,
consuming the beacon of my inner self.
Until the very last ray of light turns to darkness..
And this obscurity became my Abaddon, the playground in which I thrive.
In me sat a certain longing
My spirit yearned for more meaning.
I knew it was somewhere but for some reason
My mind could not grasp it at the time.
Such tribulations would haunt me for ages
Tormenting the conscious and the subconscious
And I would hear the phantom in me screaming
as it is being slowly led into the umbra.
Sometimes I would stare at the moon and look at the stars in the sky
And I could not help but wonder and feel bewildered
by the many circumstances and possibilities.
Staggering trains of thought would fill my mind.
And I would question myself many times while looking at a dark vast sky .
I would even blame a so-called God
and challenge him to come out and give me an answer.
But all I would hear is the pungent ringing in my ear of dead silence.
I felt that something was severely lacking,
As if there was a missing cog at the very core of my existence..
Then suddenly, everything shifts and becomes a mind game of sorts,
making this life a larger labyrinth than it already is.
There are those who say that one should not dwell on such thoughts
but I guess my head is just a bowl full of question marks
entwined like little noodles in my skull.
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Panagpo
by: Monika Preysler
Mapaglarong ngiti
Mapaglarong tingin
Mga halakhak lumilipad sabay ng hangin
Kwento ng buhay sa araw ng nagpanaw
Kaluluwang nagtagpo na noon ay ligaw
Eto nga yata ang ating tadhana
Na tayong dalawa ay nahalina
Sa gabing ito na may dalang hiwaga
na sa mata ng iba'y tunay na matalinhaga
Ang buwan at bituin
Pawang ngumiti
at ang kainlang ilaw ay siyang naging palamuti
sa 'ting mga matang pawang nangungusap
at sa 'ting kaluluwang nakaupo sa ulap
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After The Eclipse
by: Monika Preysler
When the muse and the warrior met in the dark
Their souls bonded and became one
In a land primordial to their eyes
They vowed their love and stopped time
In a castle amongst the trees they have lived
Where they sat and ruled a world of their own
But then a shadow crept upon the land
A host of evil upon their doors
And the muse said my soul bleeds
Everytime you leave, to fight the demons of the abyss
If you let them drink our tears
They will feast and feed on our fears
The warrior picked up his sord and his shield
And the scars on his arms were revealed
He stormed out of the castle and belowed a cry
For my beloved, I shall not die
In darkness a shadow befell the land
With the phantoms of sorrow and pain
What are they to do with such a threat?
Again give birth to the love that always has been there.
And the muse said my soul bleeds
Everytime you leave, to fight the demons of the abyss
If you let them drink our tears
They will feast and feed on our fears
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The Voyage
A collaboration by: Darkmuse & Arcane
A melody has risen from the stars
How beautiful it serenades my soul to dream
and the winds have carried me across oceans
whispering..."Fly me to where I belong"
Entwined in thy arms I dream
How lovely is destiny's plan and scheme
The spirits lift me high above the skies
and they tell me..."Soar with us to where you belong."
I want to be with you...
so dance with me....
I want to be with you oh...
Walk with me, and make me see
Through fire and rain to make me feel everything
Touch me please...I'm on my knees
Lay...to the hands that embrace eternally
My final resting place is in your arms
How blissfull is the path that leads me there
and you've shed your wings and offered them to me
And I say..."I'll carry you to where we belong."
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Trivial Malady
by: Monika Preysler
Secrets revealed
doors opened
the glass in the window breaks
sending forth the pieces flying
like arrows aimed...
they hit my eyes.....bloodshed....bloodshed....
pouring down like tears from my eyes
My wild demented cry
is raised high in the sky
no reply...no reply....
the angels sealed their ears
and i am just a shadow passing by....
The innocent child wakes
skipping and humming a tune
seeping my ears like a mad lullaby
like arrows aimed
they hit my heart....bloodshed...bloodshed...
pouring down...down down down the ground....
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Infinity's Demise
by: Monika Preysler
With the shadows of the night, I sing a hymn for the light
Hiding behind a mask in a camouflage of lies
Where am i going?
Where does the path lead?
Eternal loneliness and fear....
My soul burns in its own hell, made by fears and pain
brewing the deadly poison, that will corrupt my very core
Is this life worth living?
What is my purpose?
End will be when i stop believing...
Then I came upon an entity, breathing new life in me
The distant light gleaming in my hands
Gave me life, gave me hope, gave me love
And a reason to be free
In a twisted paradise we can hold the hands of time
and the world stands still served on a platter
ready and free for the taking,
the very moment time was wounded.
The life force of those that made it bleed
Rose to the heavens
Entwined in a celestial dance...forever in a trance
In a world molded by their hearts
never to cease...never to end....
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Twisted Heaven
by: Monika Preysler
In my dreams i know of a place
Where lies and deceit dont exist...
Where minstrels dance and angels sing
Where hatred falls and anger disappears
Its a realm we once made in a day
With the blink of an eye
With laughter and tears
Sharing our joys and fears
Carry me, hold me, guide me...
To this place that exists in our dreams
Bring me to the world we both know
Through the Garden of Eden
In this paradise...our twisted heaven
In this place the world stops turning
No night...no day
No time...no space
Only bliss in an angel's embrace
My eyes are sewn so hold my hand
Lead me to where i belong
To the land no mortal has ever gone
Across the sea, through Valinor
In this paradise...our twisted heaven...
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Flight
by: Monika Preysler
We re children of the night
threading dark paths
taking roads no mortal dare pass
forbidden earthly, yet not forsaken
you and i our souls are one.
With stars as our guide
open your eyes
In the heavens we shall remain
Kindred souls we are, we shall fly as one
Come and feed this dementia
take my hand with eyes sewn
remain blind to things unknown
we are in flight
yes we are still in flight
Under my wings you remain
savor my bliss, taste my pain.
take the path
dream with me
fly with me for you shall see
Our souls unite, under the light
we will wound this one moment
i was there
and held your hand
together in paradise
probe the holiness, of sincerity
i will peel your humanity
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Run Away
by: Monika Preysler
You say you dont belong
In this reality
You say that it is wrong
That you exist in this plane
Don't we all have our fears?
Don't we all shed a tear?
Don't we all live in vain?
Don't we all drown in pain?
Run away! Run away!
Is that all you can do,
When all hope fails in you?
Sew your eyes! Sew your eyes!
You shut yourself from this world in disguise
Alone and restless
you say you are worthless
You lie awake dreaming
But you find yourself screaming
Stand up and move ahead!
Fight the demons in your head!
Don't you waste away and die
Win and hold your head up high
Run away! Run away!
Is that all you can do,
When you're shattered and you're through?
Sew your eyes! Sew your eyes!
You're living a lie in your disguise!
Come and face reality
Give yourself some dignity
You dont have to end it all
Come and rise up to the call
You dont have to run away
Its not all you can do
How long will you run away?
See and open your eyes
Remove the lie and shed your disguise
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Anathema
by: Monika Preysler
Swimming again in darkness
suffering from this emotional death.
confusion clouds the mind
and i linger in this realm of the unknown
have i been here before?
It seems like a deja vu to me...
I see the light but it seems so far away
i see it in the distance and yet i can't reach it.
In this realm i learned to survive
It's a constant journey i thread
and i cant escape its forceful hands.
Struck by an anathema...
lashing my soul with its dreadful whip
leaving behind a bloody wound
forever leaving a marked scar
Yes...i have walked this path before
this weakness that betrays my being
i clutch the exit door, but its locked and i can't escape
The black of night surrounds me
with only the stars to keep me company
cast into the fire of confusion
I wait in pain and in despair
waiting for death to claim me
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Illuminism
by: Monika Preysler
Through this window i have seen
Sincerity from within
Gems that hold the keys to truth
My soul ready to set foot
I have seen so much today
Things have changed, my life holds sway
Kindred spirit come to me
Steal my soul and set me free
Im screamin'
Im bleedin'
Raise me up from my own grave
show me the light, this i crave
Im fallin....Im dying....
When you look into my eyes
A crimson red paints the skies
When the tears fall down my face
hold me close in your embrace
When the moon shines in the night
together we shall seek our flight
Hold on to me, don't let go
take me places i dont know
Im screamin'
Im bleedin'
Kindred souls running away
To who knows where i can't say
Im fallin'...Im dyin'....
Kindred spirit come to me
Steal my soul and set me free....
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Undead
by: Monika Preysler
I seek to quiet the voice in my head
I will go mad if these desires are not fed
In the shadows Ive seen a creature
I've seen his face and studied every feature
But his eyes were hidden in a veil of black
I knew that if i saw them there would be no turning back
He captivates and commands his whim
I am trapped...and have now become his victim
His weapon, a deadly kiss that ignites fire
Fighting back i fall...submitting to his desire
In a blissfull dream I died and i bled
For tonight i encountered the undead
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My Healer
by: Monika Preysler
Music is my healer
the world takes a different turn
when the melody seeps through my ears
I float in ecstasy, and it grabs hold of me
Take my music away from me
and i die a violent death
my mortal coil attached to the melody
blinding me from life's parody
My heart bleeds continually
and my music stops the hemorrhage
saving me from death
providing my every breath
My damned soul will waste away
my music i shall never betray
Music is my healer
and i wish to drown in it forever.
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Ghosts
by: Monika Preysler
My eyes flicker like candles in the dark
In the black of night, i see shadows moving
Feeling the cold air...i shiver
I smell the scent of dead roses and i quiver
'Tis some soul trying to deliver a message
And i wonder why it lingers
My body stricken with fear
I will myself to move
But i remain frozen on my bed
Closing my eyes...I find myself
praying to a god i deny exists
So many questions...so many doubts
I open my eyes and search the corners
And i realize nothing's there
Why such thoughts haunt me remains a mystery
To answer that would end my story
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Despair
by: Monika Preysler
In the sky I see angels fly
Spreading their wings
Watching over things
I lie awake in despair
breathing the cold air
Tears flow from my eyes
As my heart slowly dies
Locked in a cage
I long to seek the sage
Save me from this hell
I suffer deeply
All is not well.
When will it end?
I Laugh and pretend
but as night falls i cry
and i begin to crumble and die
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Prince of Darkness
by: Monika Preysler
His eyes spell mystery in the darkness
Like glittering asterisms, piercing the soul of the beholder
Revealing the long kept secrets of yonder
Like an angel he seemed
but this angel had no wings
Like a nobleman he was
and with him royalty he brings
His presence would embrace you cold
with an immortal voice he would whisper the folklores of old
His piercing eyes can run a shiver to the spine
awakening a desire for erotic caresses and wine
Yet the soul remains tormented
and the heart in anguish
for these desires will never be fed
and the longing will never vanish
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Fascinating Stranger
by: Monika Preysler
We were two strangers with a common mind
Seeking our answers where there is no light
We reached many places in time,
Yet each other we find
Drowning our thoughts
in the deepness of night
Fascinating stranger, with black mysterious eyes
Fascinating stranger, who can clear many lies
So young, but with a soul ancient and meek
Through him my soul found what it could not seek
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Wretched
by: Monika Preysler
See believe its the truth
blood sucked from your veins
breath taken from you
my throat runs dry
I no longer speak
I no longer sing
This so called life
why need it be full of despair?
...hell do i care!
I'm gonna die anyway, but is this it?
Is this life worth all the pain?
...this is shit!
shout...cry...nothin to do
my tears are runnin' dry
now wishing for death...
I no longer see
I no longer feel
This so called life
Why need it be a mystery?
...shit! its misery
Im gonna die anyway, but is this it?
this is shit!
Empty...Void...that is my soul
wretched and forsaken
anger sits like hot coal
My mind going wild
I no longer breath
I no longer think
This life is full of shit
broken hearts...lonely souls
mysteries...no answers
life...no purpose
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Euphoric Grounds
by: Arcane
The core of the moon nibbled the dust on my face
Foreboding the pigments drawn between elegance of the chase
Of a tamed, Vivid shade of explicable grandeur
Carving a timelesss dance orbiting through intimacy wherein torches endure
Ecstatic traces of mesmerizing inperfections of flight
Into curses of intangible holes gnawing the light
Through Eden and Gethsemane giving birth to flames
Veiling the dull, elusive corpse of the undying lust for shame
Whispering the vital whore of compassion captured in a cell
Blown away by archangels in a kingdom where they fell
Boxed and drained, yet suffice, the residue reveals it all
behold the kiss of the serpent redeeming the call
Refusing the vast mirrors that spawned the monster
Enlighten the beast of a fractured heart, who's the servant, who's the
master?
Beckon the purpose of a golden child amidst supremacy
Towards a gift divided into lucidity
The forbidden righteousness written in eloquence
Pictured the claws of grasping silence
The genesis of freedom lying with wolves
Belittle the mysticism of conquering collectively locked doors
The swans playing captives to serenity drunk in plagues
Like candles shine evenly in the eyes of blinding grace
Kneel and bow down to the majestic wings
Of embracing pure misanthropic dreams
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Scarlet Rain
by: Arcane
Scarlet rain, Push me beyond reasons
Rolling over my passion is the wound of astra
"What's above, so is below"
The charmed spirit of the arcane mission
Scarlet rain, scarlet rain
I tasted you, you touched me, unity
Fierce hands wrapped around the eye of perfection
Heavenly flowers bloom shame
Weeping pain, scarlet rain
Nailing the murder of my emotional wardrobe
Copulated the stars astray
Moaning silence shape-shifts compassion divine
Breathe with me, scarlet rain
Dividedly walking in dreams and reality
Flood the gateways of enlightenment
So i may float like the ghost of time
Bathe in the rays of the Sun King I will not
For only you, scarlet rain, deliver me warmth
Through the mysticism of falling down
The twelfth moon betrayed
Kiss the oddity of reflection in a cocoon
The tongue that held the torch within
Is blown away by the chariots of heightened awareness
The tears of ethers, scarlet rain, enslaved I am
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Fire Lake, Sky Lip Mourner
(An Anagram of your name)
by: Arcane
On Niflheim, I have walked with shut eyes, but apparitions of her made me see
Nigh are my hands from her existence, so rare a moment that,
If my mortal coil be cut now, ecstatic I d still be
Kingdom come portrayed in a diverse atmosphere, empowered by one
A lady deity blanketed my ears from the AziF, in such a manner that nobody can.
Kinetic drama of epic proportions raped my soul, and I adore her
I thirst for her like an addiction, bathe in the embrace of her unworldly sweet poison;
Everything took a halt, my majestic Junoesque Goddess is within me
Radiating full-blown bliss occupies the emptiness in utmost reverie
Unspoken tongues of the arcane bestowed upon my feet while I float in ecstasy
Looking into her eyes peeled my humanity and took me beyond the beyond
Forbidden earthly yet not forsaken for who could utter what s divine and what s cursed?
Probing the holiness of sincerity, I plunged to the unknown where even the gods feared to pierce
Roses bloom in her mouth like the stars above when the beauty of darkness has devoured the light
Eden reborn before my eyes how I defy death to be caged in her arms perpetually
Yet my goddess has a cherubim and a god that could condemn my soul
Savor the aroma of paradise in my hands before it vanish
Love so precious, so ethereal so magnetic, so eccentric that I gave in and remorseful I am not
Eternity is void without this moment, without this event, for it is mortality displayed
Raise me up once more my goddess, for you are the reason why I still breath
You...Besides My God
by: Arcane
Alone fighting my darkest hours, never knew, but it seems forever
Too blind to see my reality once more
I want to feel the rain run through my face,
and taste something besides my tears
Can t believe the whole world s crushing down on me .
Sealed my lips with fear as I m standing on nothing
inviting my self to breathe
For how long must I seek
oh, this emptiness is filling up my dreams
The world hates me and I hate it too
For I dream of pain what else can I do
Close my eyes and help me find my way
My hands were tied when I saw someone
She was dressed in white... untied my hands
Wounded the demon that s lurking inside my head
My soul went so high the first time I m struck like this,
I thought I would die
She was heaven sent
As I lifted my head to see her face, I found you
You re my strength besides my God
You re my life besides my lord
You took me out of the hell I ve been
Taught me how to breathe again
You lift me up when I m forever down
Broke the cage where I am bound
Lit a candle so I can see
Hope you d always be with me
I need to look forever into your eyes
look forever into your eyes
look forever into your eyes .
look forever through your eyes ..
look forever through your eyes
look forever into you but I can t
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Angel in My Four-Cornered Wall
by: Arcane
I m not worthy of divinity, hiding from heaven...
As God's face is constantly bleeding and wounded.
Crystal drops from my eyes into my lips, tasting the emptiness
within me, within the inner me...
Demons plaguing me everywhere, I can t hide, I can t run...
My head's spinning from the dizzying scent of darkness...
The shadow of everything I don t want to become...
My horns are growing, I want it broken, forever broken...
Dreaded piece of mortality, screaming to break free...
Poisoned lungs of weakness, I m singing my requiem to the world
Breathe no more, breathe no more, silence come to me
Ashes fall down from above me, upon my dirty hands of guilt
Screaming my soul out from the deepest thought there is,
swallowing the consequences of all my deeds
Proclaim justice, crucify me, pin me down to an endless mourn
I am walking through this labyrinth, never-ending...walking blindfolded...
Feeling the air as it crushes through my face
I've been here before, I know, but it's somewhat different now....
Saw light on the other side, no, I've seen nothing before...
In front of me was the same window but it was locked except for one....
I heard some noise then it stopped
My hands reached out to unlock what s in front of me...
And once more, stepped into somewhere forbidden
My blood-shot eyes, fully awakened, stared in the still of darkness before me....
I was alone somehow, cause I cant feel any existence from the other door...
But the wind whispered I was wrong...for I felt heat that made me shiver...
It wasn t beside me nor was it from within
Nevertheless, I less care, for this is the place where my time stood still
This is where something shed its light upon me
Sometimes, something fell apart and brought about rain
How I wish it was endless for if I am here I fear almost nothing
There were times when my spirit was devoured by deception and lies
Soul-grinding, I still feel it now in the same place
Moments passed by, summoning warmth in a cold, dark night
Angels flew, but I know this isn t heaven nor it is hell
It was only a place on earth that I dared
to live my life for a moment if I really have one
I've got demons in my head, well who says they have none
But their horns fell broken as I set my eyes upon an angel
Wings and halo, she has none
But as I look deeply into her eyes,
I ve seen everything then it burned and starts to set fire
I saw blaze everywhere but I never run away
Never...in a place where my time stood still
Prayed it was endless crave it was forever burning
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Tormented Soul
by: X-zane
When the nightfalls, I rise to my bed, its time to roam.
its time to run for the truth, for my mind cant bare the truth,
that any moment now my soul will be blown away by my own anger,
anger that I keep inside.
I ride to night, not knowing where to go,
not knowing what to find, for I cant bare it any more
and way is to run away as far I can be,
for this anger had been tormenting my soul for to long.
The pain inside me is going to explode.
I cant help it any more,
the anger, the pain, the loneliness is eating my soul,
I cant control it any more,
one way or the other, it will be out and I know
when that happen I will rip some one apart.
I would rip his heart out,
break both of his arms and legs,
rip his eyes out and drink his blood,
what ever I do I cant stop this from happening,
this tormented soul of mine is falling apart.
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Twisted Reality
by: X-zane
The tears that fall down my face,
down onto the ground, like a dagger that pierce my heart
because the pain inside is tearing me apart,
I've been in the dark for to long.
I want to shout, I want to run.
But I cant see a thing, my sight was blinded for so long
I want to get out of this hell of mine,
coz in this reality nothing exist but pain,
pain that will kill your soul nice and slow
that's why I want to run from this twisted reality
But seems like there's nowhere to run,
I'm stuck in this hell... in this twisted reality
everybody's trying run away
but they can never become like me
I'm bound to stay here for the rest of my condemned life.
No matter how I try, there's no way out
I'll be spending my life here in this twisted reality
were life had ended, before it began.
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Eternal Darkness
by: X-zane
When I open my eyes, I see an image in front of me.
An image I've been wanting to see ...
an image I been wanting hold in my arms,
but sadly the image slowly faded into the sun.
I cant understand why it had to be this way,
why should I spend my time... here in this eternal darkness
while she moves on to her life... happy and with a smile.
I want to tell her how I feel,
I want to tell her how she destroyed my life,
I want her to feel all the pain she had caused in my life.
I want her to feel it all at the same time.
All the pain, all suffering, and all the tears that fall down my face.
I will be her burden for the rest of her life .
Now my soul is lost with out her,
now I m bound to spend my eternity in the abyss of no return,
I m stuck with pain;
I m stuck with suffering.
I don t when and I don t know how to get out of the abyss of pain,
now that soul is in this eternal darkness
how I wish that she could be here,
so that we can share the pain that eats my soul.
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Black Maria
by: Maharet
Black eyes, dark eyes
Turned white, never lies
Exquisite beauty, hidden within
Tempest plague, you encounter
Don't give up my child, take away your anger
Ravaged body, laying on the tomb
& then melancholy covered the whole city
Mourn, for your Son is half dead
But be still, woman! He will bring salvation soon
Driven away by the people, consumed by everyone
Virginity is hostile; everyone's running from it
But you kept yours, precious like a baby born
Woman, little did u know that you are so lucky
Woman, little did you know that you are so pretty
Mischievous earthling, you're fooling yourself!
Little miss obnoxious hiding your fear and anger
Behold! For there is no longer danger
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Murdered Beauty
by: Maharet
Do I ever care?
Will you ever dare?
Choose me with your palms
Sing my song of beauty and kill me
Purify me with your murdered beauty
I search for hunger,
I look for reverence
My sting collects all the pain
My bite contains nothing
My beauty, a robot
Destroy me, destroy my beauty
Wake up, the daylight is over,
Stand up, the moonlight is appearing
Drop your blood
Kill me slowly
Save me never
Secure me, night of darkness and cure
Shine your light, upon my beautiful death
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Forbidden
by: Arcane
Was it all too late? She silently asked, still weeping, her eyes depicting waterfalls. It was daytime
yet there was no sign of light from anywhere except for one unknown source which serves
like a spotlight upon her withered, lying existence. Time stood still, so it seems, for her. Her
consciousness was on a celestial journey that she, herself, cannot tell when it will end. But
did she really want to cease it all?
The continous, bizarre absence of enough light never seemed to bother her oh so "peaceful"
moment, which words alone cannot define. It's like taking the 18th breath of the merkaba
meditiation, leading one into the 4th dimention-a world of spirits, but including the scars
and wounds.
The streams of tears from her still sewn eyes veiled the half of her face, deepening the water
wherein, for hours her body was nailed. From atop, her solemn solitude was reminiscent of
the crucifixion scene at Calvary, only without the theives, yet the atmosphere of both scenes was
precisely locked. And he had the key, but not the only key, for the other is hidden within her
deeply engraved craving for utopia. A tool that would expose her into becoming what she really is.
Deep into her coma-like trance, her higher self softly spoke to her in tonguesthat were foreign to
immortality. Though her ears were walled from the three-dimensional plane around her, those words
were audible, crystal cler like the product of her weeping that created the body of water
that embraced her during that moment, enough to pierce her thoughts amidst her when-will-it-end sleep.
The caress of her tears tickling her whole body as she was calmly being swayed by the
"waves" that she unconsciously made, was not enough to murder the voice of her inner self,
repeatedly whispering "you got to have fins to learn how to swim". Not because of her young
age and for the loss of her sanity, her head rang in circles. Largely because of her anima
holding her by the neck, she wanted to break the chains that bind herself from facing all of her
fears, but she thought that would only open a path leading to disarray, so she gave in to the
voices she was hearing. And she was right, though still giving birth to the crystal-like
fluid flooding her eyes.
At that time, memories of him was unexpectedly eclipsed by the halo of strength that occuied
the space which was supposed to be reserved for the possibility of her setting eyes on him again.
Trully depite the initial picture of him not coming back, she wished that somehow, their paths
would again cross. Even if she perfectly knew that she cannot tell exactly what to do when the
time finally comes, nor if that time of seing him anew woul become a reality. For destiny is
cruel and they were just toys waiting for it to take its course.
As she pierced deeply on devouring al thoughts about him, a mysterious flux embodied the water,
turning a portion of it into red. Stil unaware of what was happening to her ocean of tears
at that moment, the piece of paradise within her continued to embrace her. Then suddenly,
the rain fell, so it seems, causing her peace to break, with the windows of her face still closed.
The "rain" touched her entirety, and she felt that it was unusually warm. She was rather fascinated
and her journey to the unknown was ceased as the warm liquid fell to her closed lips. She was able
to taste the rain and to her bewilderment, it tasted like blood! Slowly, she paved the way to her sight
and opened the source of tears that depicted the waterfalls. The weeping ended finally, after a long spell.
As she opened her eyes, a figure from the sky greeted her sight. Her sight was deeply pegged to
that figure, so deeply occupied, that she never noticed that her once crystal-clear ocean of tears
surrounding her was turned into a huge pool of blood. She was clad in an all-white dress by then,
wet but free from the bloodstains, just pure cleansing white.
The calm red waterwas suddenly disturbed by a wavelike splash from beneath her. She felt a m
movement at her back as she was still looking at the figure. It was from her. Before she could
turn her eyes to see what it was, she was elevated from the red ocean. To her awe, she grew six
wings, each as twice as big as her. She was a seraphim!
Her wings swiftly flew her towards that figure from the sky. From her distance, she could hardly see
what it was. Just a silhouette giving birth to the "red rain" that she tasted which broke her long serenity.
With an unknown acceleration, she drew nearer the figure, slowly molding its very existence to her sight.
She cant figure why, but its magnetism to her was tremendous, like a mother to a child.
Alas the figure was revealed, she stared at it with heart pounding eagernes. She can't
resist touching it, so she did. With both hands, she held its bleeding heart like holding her own
fragile hourglass of life. The figure was wounded. Weak. Dying. Her hands never left its heart,
as if it served as a life support to a timed mortal. She closely froze all her sight to the figure,
winked not even once, as the warm blood of the figure gloved her tiny, soft hands. As she looked
fixedly at the figure, she could actually feel it breath upon her and despite its abominable outer
shell, she could see that once, the figure was of great beauty.
But its beauty was stabbed by all those wounds caused by rather strange mutation.
Nevertheless, it never escaped her deep gaze. She could clearly see everything almost like a
goddess of omniscience-know everything, see everything. The red water below them got thicker
as the figure's blood fell like rain on a stormy night. Its blood blanketed her earlier tears.
At the Omega of the figure's breath came words. The figure spoke to her without opening its
mouth but she heard it and touched her soul. "Worthy, I am not...worthy, I am not..." Her
eyes, again became watery but her inner self held back her tears as the lifeless figure floated
with her in the sky.
Shivering, her left hand reached for the figure's hand which held a bloody fabric garment. She
took it and wrapped it around her, as if it was a mortal hugging her tightly. It was her shawl.
Her right hand was still on the figure's wounded heart when her fingers found its way to a ring
embedded on the figure's heart. ENgraved in the ring were bold letters that spelled out her name.
She gently wore the ring that bore her name on it. It shone like the stars at a midnight sky. It was
hers by destiny. She perfectly knew it for the lifeless figure by her side was he whom she loved.
His horns were broken and he suffered numerous wounds. He was a fiend, a bleeding fiend, with
a heart trying to discontinue his mutation for the sake of his devotion to her. Yes, he loved her too,
though she wasn't fully aware.
A fiend. A seraphim. But then again, did she trully love him? Or just his mystery?
Birds serenaded. The sun revealed its face. A bow of seven colors exalted the ether. And
she screamed in silence.
She is Thou, He is I
by: Arcane
The connection did not cease. Furthermore, it became intense and rewarding and he treasured it so preciously like a
fragile heart that can decide dramatically the fate of one s life. The lovelier it became.The
underworld is not new to him, he frequent the place for he is Hades friend. But the aura of her did not escape him and
he feeds on it magnificently like the thirst for water after a painful drought.He embraced it as if it was
the last thing to cling on to on a crumbling world. How can someone who s an underworld dweller be mesmerized by such
light? The mystery is so blissful and nurturing.
A gathering of kindred spirits came.His eagerness was so heightened, so amplified.He was
talking to her as if he knew her ages ago, the ancient times. But his eagerness took its toll he was
shutdown by himself.He waited for days for that moment to come the moment he could finally meet her in the flesh
and gaze upon her, not in the manner of just a reflection flashed through a screen.He was shattered; he collapsed
for killing himself like he always does. The moment was blown away into tiny pieces but she was ecstatic for she
had set eyes on yet another old soul like her, but not him who fed on her intensely. He was broken when he opened
his eyes after his death, while there she was having the time of her life. How ironic could it get?
Heaven and hell.
Fortunately, his death did not last that long, for another gathering spawned and he cannot afford this
to go into waste like the last time.He needed to see her no matter what it takes and no tragedy could stop him from
doing just that, even the loss of breath.So he prepared himself for the great opportunity offered upon him.
The intense eagerness is still there, he knew it for he felt it like a raging ache. How pathetic it may sound to
humanity, but he became a stranger s captive, a slave to an unknown entity. Nothing like it.Then came the
historic meeting, he was alone and she was too, though they came there for different personal reasons she,
wanting to talk to another soul; he, needing to meet her it was perfect in a way. He saw her and the gods smiled.
He ceased breathing for a moment as she approached him but for some reason, he did not show it, for he did not want to
reveal it at that particular instance, like the secrecy that binds the vampire race.
They talked to each other like there was no tomorrow and it felt so stunning. So real, so pure, so sincere
and that is something to hold on to, divinity made flesh. In a world of lies and deception, that
moment was godly.He spoke his heart and soul and she listened deeply, she spoke her heart and soul and he listened
deeply, the kind of treasure that will make the deaf and the mute regret their fate considerably. It is something,
it really is. He never felt like that for a very long spell and he shivered like hell, in a very stimulating manner.
She made him laugh, an honest laugh and he thought that was so special. Yes, it is special indeed, so very special
for strangers to talk to each other with such depth and substance. He adored it adored her.He was reborn in a different
yet distinct way, so like a once beautiful angel of the ether who revolted from the structured frame that everybody else
embrace. The rebirth, yes, the radical change that is so forbidden in the eyes of the majority. Fearless, he is, for
everything seems nothing to him, everything seems to be absurd except for the thought, the need, for him to be with her
at that very moment. For him, that was heaven within a grasp, a piece of paradise in his hands.And so it is.
Yet, inevitably, the moment had to be put to an end, leaving him breathless still but incredibly euphoric.
The absence made his heart go fonder, for he was talking to her even in his deepest sleep.He cannot shield himself from the
irresistible hands of the soul that enslaved him beautifully. So he thought it would be rather very foolish if he will not
follow his desire of laying eyes upon her once more. And destiny was unexpectedly generous for it smiled at him gracefully,
the smile of Mona Lisa as captured by Da Vinci, subtle yet very meaningful. That, came upon him like death, very unforeseen,
and for this reason, made it even more sweeter than it already is. Her being faced with momentary solitude was extended and
it became precious to him for it also meant an extension of time being with her. His heart pounded like footsteps of
dinosaurs running after a prey, the excitement crawled upon him anew and he could not be less grateful.He had laid
eyes at her again but this time it redefined the meaning of intensity and took it to a characteristic of extreme degree.
Now he looked at her in a different level, transcending words to describe it for there is none, no words could ever describe
what he was feeling and it was pure, pure like the consciousness and innocence of an infant child. He tried to chamber what he
was feeling, tried so hard but he could not hold it that long for it was too enormous and his heart will burst eventually.
And it did, gave in, the brimstone and fire of hell is cold in comparison with the flame that stood gloriously amidst the
two souls that harmoniously bonded. The energy was so gigantic and so consuming the embrace, the touching of the source of
sound and words, the slow opening and closing of the windows of souls, the warmth of the blood when pressed on skin, the locked
hands of compassion, the scent of the air when deeply breathing. Everything was in its proper place, like an assembled puzzle,
each one is needed, it cannot be solved when a cog is missing, all are vital. Perfection has its own way and that moment is one.
He cannot deny it, even she, for he sees it through her eyes the way she looked through his eyes. They both clearly saw sincerity
and deep serenity in each other s arms.
The moment. Time stood still, they wounded it.
Seems like forever. Two nights. The moment.The world ceased. The moment, that is all there is. That
is the only thing that matters.
Utopian loveliness poured upon their feet. He deeply adores her more than his life. And she knew it.
Vespertine souls and kindred spirits, they are both.
Between the Ladders of Infinity
by: Darkmuse & Arcane
The night sky fills with shadows, hiding the stars and slowly encasing the moon in a
black box. As the darkmuse walks slowly through the murky forest of dispair and
emptiness, she comes upon a wounded warrior singing his requiem to the world.
.His voice caught her attention, so she closed her eyes...stood still... and
listened. What an odd moment it was...she had walked this forest for ages and
yet she wonders what a mortal was doing there and how was it that he crossed her
path. For it was known that in the forest of despair and emptiness it was a
rarity that anyone would cross the path of the darkmuse. If anyone did, they
would wither and die. He leaned against the tree, blood on his hands and dagger,
barely showing his face for it was covered with a silver mask, on his body you
would see the scars of former battles. But amidst all the blood and scars, he
seemed numb to the pain. Did he sense her presence? Did he know she was
there? He continued to sing like no one was watching. And as she listened...out
of nowhere her angelic voice rose in a chorus to his song sending thousands of
ravens in flight into the deepness of the night.
Suddenly the moon revealed itself and thin rays of light seeped through the
thick forest like white lasers. Slowly he removed his mask, his sweat-drenched
hair splayed over his face like black veins crossing his eyes caging it behind
them. A sudden silence ....and nothing stirred. She just stood there
listening...but because the song ceased, she opened her eyes and found him there
by the tree staring at her. He held out his hand and she slowly approached the
wounded warrior. Sitting by his side against the tree on the damp soil. At that
moment he felt a sudden ease, and he spoke to her and she listened to his
battles, listened to his victories and defeat and pictured every story in her
mind. In return she spoke to him telling him of her wanderings and other
encounters in her long journey to existence. The exchange of words was so
subtle...so sincere. It was magical because she had never encountered such with
a mortal. She could tell that his heart was pure. maybe that was the reason why
he did not wither and die at the sight of her, the powers that engulfed that
forest for the first time seemed reverse and did not bring death upon him but
rather new life. But at that moment he seemed consumed and so she left him alone
for awhile to rest. She hid him under the leaves with a special spell to conceal
his presence, for it was forbidden by the gods to keep a mortal alive in that
forest. And thus they had to part ways.
When she came back to that spot, she removed the spell of the concealing leaves
afraid to find him dead. But no....his wounds were healed, the scars were clean
and a certain glow was in the windows to his soul. She was overjoyed that the
wrath of the gods did not strike him dead. It was a different feeling
really....for she had always been cold as ice, but suddenly with his presence,
warmth bathed her heart and new blood flowed through her veins. She was ecstatic
and wanted to hear more of his adventures, and once again under the pale glow of
the moon they sat on the soil exchanging words filling each others emptiness.
Time passed and like some supernatural force embraced them a connection was
made. And without words the messages went through and they need not speak
another word. Like magic... fire blazed and filled their surroundings. And
they were brought to an altered state of consciousness. Into another
world...into another dimension they didn't know existed. With hands clasped,
they looked at each other's eyes seeing their reflection on the very gems
that the soul had to offer. The source of words finally touched...good and evil,
warmth and cold, sorrow and joy, pain and pleasure...all the opposing forces of
nature were suddenly mixed in a rough whirlwind sending them to different
vistas. Was this their death? But no...for they were not in heaven nor
were they in hell, it felt like they were in heaven but in its twisted form...
the flames consumed them and they became one. But they did not die....the
fire did not die completely either. Warmth filled the skin and a small flame
continued to burn in their hearts which served as a different light , It served
as a key, revealing the hidden paths of the forest that were never seen before.
It seemed magical, illusions of doors and pathways flashing like the
northern lights in the sky. The darkmuse herself was bewildered by such visions
for they were visions that she had never seen before and in her long wandering
in the forest she never knew that such paths existed.
The grandeur landscapes are extremely emitting so much loveliness that he didn't even want to move an eyelash. They both had virgin eyes to this unknown magical sight before them. No one knew if it were the gods who created such or has the place been there all along but was just hidden in secrecy and waiting for the appropriate beings to unravel it. But that didn't matter for it seemed that everything was in front of them, laid freely, waiting for their senses to
explore. Who could ever resist or ignore such lights and beauty? She
suddenly danced elegantly through the winds, circling in subtle motions like a
ballerina as he watched her with eagerness. Each movement of the darkmuse did
not escape his eyes, she was floating like an ascending angel and her hands were like butterflies in flight. He was entranced. Her dancing built up magnificently for she was feeling and listening to an odd-timed music that she seemed to be enjoying-his fluctuating heartbeat. He was somehow paralyzed by the euphoric moment, he could not move a limb but it felt like he was floating with her, blown away with every sway. She then slowly moved closer to him, rotating and revolving around him like she was casting a spell amidst his amazement. He gave in to whatever the spell was for it was because he wanted to be consumed by her, he would undoubtedly accept it with both hands widely opened-a willing victim he would be just for her.
For the longest time, words failed to escape their lips but they were talking to each other's souls through their glances and movements. Still dancing gracefully to the rhythm of his breathing and heartbeat, she held him in her arms as if she owned all the fragility of the world and he was as fascinated as a newborn, staring deeply into her. She was his shield. He has had every adventure there is; tucked under his belt but none compared to the one he was experiencing that instance. The elegance was filling him up with inexplicable bliss as if it would make him lose his breath and mind due to the swelling happiness blanketing him all over. It was like he now knew how angels actually dance and he thought he loved it, in fact, he did.
She continuously moved with the wind as she held his hands in pure intimacy,
gently walking her fingers through his palms, his arms, his back, his hair, his
lips, his eyes, his face, walking her fingers through him. They made the doves
and lovebirds envy their dance in flight. He never wanted to stop everything
that was happening, he could go on through all eternity just holding and
embracing and being as close as he could be to her soul, never grasping any
thought of regretting anything about it. Because to him, it was everything, it
was all there was, all that matters, other than her beside him, there was none,
nothing existed. Not even the honor brought by triumphs of the grandest battles
that the warrior fought in different ages could come nigh to the priceless
treasure that his hands was holding at that very moment-her. She was the missing vital cog of his existence that he was unconsciously searching for in lifetimes, he never knew what he was looking for until that very moment that she found him in the woods. In her, he found the preciousness that no kingdom and wealth could ever offer him, not even eternity itself could ever match, he would even betray immortality if it is given to him without her.
The darkmuse was singing and dancing and smiling, an indication that she was
enjoying and cherishing the time that she and the warrior were having. He could
sense that she was as well experiencing a scene that was truly foreign and
primordial to her. Both of them were into such ecstasy that their dance in
flight lasted for centuries, locked in an embrace as close as their souls and as tight as their skins. It has been said that centuries had passed yet to them it felt that it did not, time stood still and was frozen before them. The sun never showed its face but their surrounding did not lack any light for the flames in their hearts were ablaze and were suffice to light up everything around them, including the moon which glowed extremely like it never glowed before. They have given birth to a new world-their own world.
He endlessly looked into her eyes as if there was nothing to see other than
those two gorgeously sparkling stars painted on her ever charming, subtle face.
She could melt him with a single glance in any given instance without even
trying. The power of her eyes to him is as dramatic as the sun seemingly kisses
the abyss of the vast ocean. Words were of no vitality to them as they trade
stares, copulated with a mystery that only the two of them could possibly
comprehend. They pierced each other's souls with wordless spears of adoration
and respect so even without moving a lip, the warrior knew that she loves him
dearly and deeply like he loves her with all amount of breath in his body. It
seemed that nothing could go wrong and nothing or no one could stop them from
continuing to thread the gateways of twisted firmamental nirvana.
Their lips united another time, still as passionate as the very first time they
touched, or maybe even a hundred times more passionate as their tongues lost
sanity. Both of their hands became explorers of pungent desires freely waiting
to be unveiled like wild beings, hungry and thirsty. They ripped each other's
outer shells apart to give way for their inner beings--their souls made love
timelessly and intensely amidst the skies and the winds. The fire in their
hearts grew more madly and they glow in unison above the swaying grass in the
woods as the moon closed its eyes in shyness. The warmth of Aphrodite's daggers
drained their floating bodies as it continued to follow the motion of the winds. And they became a fragment of each other's existence, just one blood flowed through their veins. So prominent and enormous they became that even space and time could not hold them. Twin souls they truly are and they are one even in ancient times.
Still holding each other tightly yet full of care, his eyes were suddenly
flooded in tears. Tears of overflowing gladness and fear and amazement. It fell
down to the ground like a raging rain, making even the dead flowers bloom. The
gladness and amazement need not to be explained, but the fear was brought about
by the fact that all that he treasures the most might go away eventually like an anathema. As if in every long, dark cave that he had fought in, whenever he
finally sees the light, it seemed that it moves away from him and he cannot
understand why. He had died a thousand deaths amidst his battles of the old for
his scars and wounds tell her so. He tried to eclipse the tears but to no avail, it kept raining. The moon wept with him. Because now, he treasures her so much, she is his light. And that explains the fear.
The harmony of their beating hearts came to an alarming pace for one lagged the
other, the synchronicity was halted because a lacuna in the rhythm was formed.
And it was his heartbeat. In an effort of trying to revitalize his dwindling
heartbeat, the darkmuse, fully aware of what was happening, drew a breath from
her very soul and kissed him. Yet very strangely, he continued to lose strength
after gaining only a few precious lovely seconds, after she had given him the
consecrated breath. He still sees her, with his half-opened eyes, he looked
through her with all his devotion and adoration, even in that moment when the
underworld was so nigh to him. She could not comprehend why he was still slowly
losing the harmony of his heartbeat when she gave him the kiss of life. Could it be that her powers was then taking its toll on him finally and making him
wither? She asked herself. Then after an almost unbearable moment of losing all hope, voices came upon them from nowhere-finally the gods spoke in unison.
"Forbidden is this doing but upon seeing that thou and the warrior haveth
the purity of hearts and cleanliness of souls, thou art given a choice that no
other gods hath given any other creation before. After the flame in the
warrior's heart die down, thou art given the powers of giving half of the flame
in thine own heart for him to live and thou and the warrior art given the
blessing of being together for the remainder of thine lives. But in consequence, thou art condemned of all wealth of the forest, and of the forest itself, that for many ages thou hath given life and hath lived in and hath guarded. Thereafter, there will be no turning back." The words of the gods echoed to the darkmuse like pristine waters. It made her shiver.
The darkmuse loves the forest and its wealth, and maybe no one could feel
otherwise because it offers everything one could possibly need. And she adores
the warrior so much that she wanted to save him at the same time, she could not
bear the thought of losing him and give birth to a new scar, a new wound, a new
death. But the warrior embraced her with all his remaining strength as if
leaving a mark that through the firmament and the abyss, he will always love her like no other. His heartbeat weakened every second that elapsed and finally
ceased as the flame in his heart became little and went out with resistance. The half part of the surrounding dimmed.
And now, in her palms, engraved the key to his life and his death.
PART TWO
Suddenly all turned dark. The clouds covered the sky and thunder roared like angry beasts in the heavens. Rain started to fall, and the tears started to fall from her eyes creating another river in the carved landscape of her abode. For at that moment the darkmuse felt torn and knew not what she should do.
Truly in her heart she loved the warrior. As he lay upon her arms, she could see his heavy breathing and she was seeing the flame in his heart slowly die, though at that moment she could still feel the tight grip of his hands on her arms and the warrior just stared at her with eyes wide open, watery and sparkling, gems like ebony staring at her so deeply the tears fell like rain, dripping from her eyes like running water on a river she was seeing him die right before her arms. And time was running out before she could save him. Was she to let him die or was she to offer the flame of her heart for his sustenance.
The gods looked upon her. She screamed in agony. Looking high above, as the rain drenched the two lovers in the center of the forest.
I love him . oh how I love him . I would rather die than live a lifetime without him!!! Oh my lord, forgive my defiance, I love this forest and I am truly grateful to you for making me the guardian of this paradise. But if my beloved shall die here and now, I d rather surrender my soul and join him in the dark abyss of death!!! And I choose to be with him through all eternity. I care not if I lose my status as the high guardian of this forest. Banish me if you will!!!
And with those words she placed her hand on her chest and suddenly the flame of her heart like a shining orb shone on her palm. She placed this orb on the warrior s chest. And she bent down to kiss him. And she gave him another sacred breath. The warrior absorbed it like a pouring drought. Shining like a flowing river down his mouth. And like a dance of fiery white and blue light they both glowed like the moon on the moss covered landscape of the forest. With her last breath, she whispered in his ear. I love you my most beloved nothing or no one will take you away from me. And she fainted.
And so it was done the darkmuse has given half of the flame in her heart. The warrior stood up and carried her away to his realm.
She woke up a few moments later. As she opened her eyes, she saw the lovely face of her most beloved warrior looking upon her and his hands stroking her hair. It felt like ages of sleep and yet the warrior was by her side waiting for her to wake up. She drew a deep breath and they both embraced like there was no tomorrow.
Then he whispered in her ear... Why?...why do this? Do you really want to leave the forest? Did you do this out of pity?
And the darkmuse cried, No my beloved... t was not pity... cant you see that I love you and I cannot bear you being apart from me. True, the forest meant a lot but you mean more to me than all the riches and the sustenance that forest had to offer. You are my sustenance... you are my life... You...you are the missing cog of my very existence.
And they embraced once more the source of words uniting in a kiss so warm and tender rubbing cheeks and feeling the warm intense breathing each one not wanting to let go as tears of joy fell from their eyes. That very moment felt like time has stopped once more and once again they were lost in the world of their own.
After the silence and after what seemed to be an eternity of heavenly bliss the warrior could not help but ask, What of the gods? Will they not punish you for your defiance? What of your throne? Will you leave it to rust amongst the leaves?
And the darkmuse looked into his eyes with deep sincerity and said, My most beloved I will have to go back. I have left my precious cherub and he wanders that forest and I will need to take him with me after his duties are fulfilled. Worry not of the gods for I have my ways of dealing with them I have made my choice and I am ready for the consequences. Worry not of my throne for it is of no value now and I no longer seek to remain in that forest. But there are some things that need to be taken care of that I will need to go back
I understand my beloved a part of me dies every time our souls tend to set apart and I am composing myself as always and I keep on understanding because I love you so. I know we are still prisoners of something in a way but my faith in you will never falter and I long for the day when both our souls can fly free to the heavens above.
And she whispered in his ear, My faith in you also will never die and I have the same longing as yours. And I have faith in us. I know deep in my heart that you and I can make wonders and can prove to the world that with love all things are possible.
Time was ticking and the darkmuse had to leave the warriors side and enter the forest of darkness and despair. The warrior took the liberty of taking her to the gates but that was as far as he could go. They parted with an embrace and with a kiss the warrior standing by the gates as the darkmuse disappeared behind the trees.
As the darkmuse entered the redwood hall she found the high god of the forest Ebdanel sitting on his throne in silence as he watched her walk towards him.