When I was twenty-one years old, I stopped going to the Baptist church because I was disappointed of my girlfriend and I had an academic failure. I asked the pastor whether he had only one answer and he said, "yes." I told him I needed to look for other answers. I said I could have sympathy for the church but I needed to search other answers. "I was then entangled in an internal philosophical discussion concerning the existence of God. I had just started my Physics major in Science School, and the more steps I walked ahead in scientific knowledge, the less solid I felt became the ground bellow me" (Dan West, 5).

 I met several Catholic women and I had several dirty sexual encounters with them. The nastiest case was the one of a woman about whom some classmates told me she could get sick if I didn’t let her be my girlfriend.
 I was 26 years old when I accepted her. She didn’t speak that much. We went into moral degradation of being naked and lustfully touching one another. When I thought I could see what was going on in between her legs she closed them. We kept on lustfully touching one another until without thinking I put my penis into his mouth. Immediately she refused it. It was not a fellatio, only a penetration of a few seconds. After then we kept on lustfully touching one another just like before.

 I was around five different times laying down with women, both she and I being undressed. I was around ten times with different women laying down, both she and I being dressed. To most of them, I touched them while they were sleeping. All these stupid things I made was because I wrongly considered them. I expected them not to notice what I did because they were sleeping. I touched them their vulva, to one of them the clitoris and to other one I introduced one of my fingers into her vagina. She reacted violently because we were totally drunk. It wasn't a coitus, it was only a penetration (only a penetration of a few seconds, less than 20). Despite all of it, only once I was close to lose my virginity. I never had a sexual relation with them.

  I met a looked like respectable girl. I gave her some poems but she never answered me back. We were friends for several years. When I was younger than twenty-eight, before God called me to the ministry, "the initial fascination" she "had exerted over me now disappeared" (Dan West p). Someone told me she was not that respectable." "At this moment I deserted the idea to" ask her to be my girlfriend (Dan West p).

  It was any day. She asked me go shopping. When this stupid Catholic girl and I entered her home, she told me,"Would you take your clothes off?" She said. And I did so. And "Why you don't lay on the carpet?" She said. And I did so. Then she sat on my lap. I didn't feel anything. I didn't know what she wanted to do. I did not know what to do. I was scared. I felt nothing. She didn't say a word. She lent over me. I lustfully touched her breasts for no more than 20 seconds. Like stricken by an angel, she was pulled aside and felt beside me. Then she slept. It was how I would have lost my virginity. It wasn't a coitus. It was only a little penetration.
 I had one, probably I could say, girlfriend. She was a Physics student. She had the same teeth malformation I had. She was a buck-toothed not that thin lady. We went to the countryside and we found ourselves in a windy problem because of a rainy torment under a raincoat. During all the night he asked to with really bad words that must hug her. The next day we found some peaches and apples in a private place. We were hungry. We got some and a man (the owner or a hireling) came and told us it was o.k. for him. After he left, she and I kissed each other a lot. Once at my parent’s home she was taking a shower and I without asking her permission entered the bathroom. I hold her under the water though she refused first. We kissed each other. And my penis became erected and I tried to put it in between her legs and she didn’t like it. She didn’t let me go further. We took the shower together without any more problems.
 After the shower naked she and I laid down on the carpet. She and I kissed on the mouth each other for a while. She started to kiss my chest. I closed my eyes. She went down to the navel then she stopped a moment. He opened his eyes and her face was over my legs around the knees. She said he cut her that bad inspiration because of that it didn’t became worse. We were girlfriend and boy friend but we didn’t last but a few months because we didn’t understand each other. She didn’t want the couple experience. She wanted more.

There was one situation that could have been worse. Despite I had come back to church, my mistake was that I didn't stop all my relationships with bad people. A friend of the bad Catholic people, a non-Catholic American single lady, stayed with me at night in a bedroom of one of our acquaintances. At night I woke up and started to lustfully touch her trying not to get noticed by her. I found her clitoris and she was sexually arouse until she stopped me and asked me what I want from her. I told her a was virgin. She understood the situation and told me her sad story. She and her boyfriend had fallen out of love. And she preferred not to go further that she should not destroy my virginity.