Para La Gloria de Dios

God chose me for his service since my childhood. I was aware of God since I was a child and knew that all were separated from the glory of God because of sin. I knew that it was necessary for me to accept the sacrifice of Jesus Christ for my sins to be saved. Otherwise I would be separated from the presence of God forever. I attended along with my family the Baptist Church �Christ The Light of The World.� I accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior when I was fourteen years old. Upon the invitation of the pastor Patt Carter, I, Daniel Wenceslao Lechuga Ballesteros came up to the altar where I prayed asking God forgiveness for my sins, that he would make me born again and give eternal life. Jesus rescued me. Jesus Christ declared me righteous before God. God accepted me and declared me free of guilt (Erickson, p.968).

B. Sanctification

The sanctification is a continuous work of God in the life of the believer in order that he may become morally God-like. The Holy Spirit makes a supernatural work in the believer�s life. Believers not only belong to Jesus Christ but they must conduct themselves according to God. Sanctification is the person�s character and condition transformation. Although God has power to sanctify the believer, in the Bible God exhorts the believer to live a spiritual life and not be defeated by the desires of the fleshly nature which the believer has till the day he dies (Erickson, pp 980-983).

C. Glorification

The last part of Salvation is Glorification. It will taken place on the time of the Resurrection at the coming of Jesus Christ. (Erickson, pp 1008-1009). It involves the whole of the believer being perfected, his spiritual nature and his body.

God respects all men their liberties. To the believer He calls them to live a separate life from the world. I lived for a while out of my house and I didn�t go to church and because of that I was worldly but God called me to the Ministry.

2. Defilement

The desires of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and the pride in one�s lifestyle are not from God but from the world (1 John 2:16). A conflict I had during several years was that I did what was wrong instead of doing what was right. With my mind I agreed with God�s law but against my mind the sin fought and controlled what I did. Although with my mind I served God�s law, my egotistical desires made serve the law of sin. We worked and lived in the church�s facilities. I was five years old. One day the pastor�s daughter (a six- year old girl) led me into a bathroom to show me something. I showed her a part of a ring bell and when I asked her what would she show me she took her pants down and showed me the behind and derriere. Then she asked me to do the same and I did it. When I was around 11 years old, while masturbating and I thought I could use a she cat to have some new experience. I took her and set her up legs up and then I tried to penetrate her but I couldn�t find a way through. Being a teenager, I had a teeth malformation and it was hard for me to relate to women. When I was around 11 years old, while watching my mom and my (sister six years older than I) taking a shower I allowed me to have sexual emotions. Trying to catch them I met my older brother and his wife under the hose a few times. I didn�t allow me to have sexual emotions then. I was tempted and I sinned when committed sexual crimes: I touched women. I didn�t know it was unlawful. When I was 12 years old I touched lustfully to my sister. She was 7 years less than me. In those years, I started to touch several ladies with my hands on the legs. And I touched them on the body with my penis on the bus and on the subway. Because we slept together, once (only once), I touched my brother�s behind with my hands and penis when he was sleeping. He didn�t notice it at all. I touched several hundred women in total during these years. I did the same to several girls (around 5 year-old children) some relatives of mine and some others from my neighborhood. When I was around 13 years old, my dad daily came back form work with the newspaper. On page 4, always, there were pornographic pictures of girls. Sometimes I masturbated looking at them. That was the beginning. Also an uncle left once a pornographic book. And my oldest brother had some and a photo book. A 14 year-old Catholic blonde gal was my first girlfriend when I was 17 years old. Because I was a buck-toothed boy, it was very hard for me to have a girlfriend.We did not last but a few weeks. I sinned by smoking and drinking alcohol. Also I stole little things and small amounts of money (a wedding gift of one of my aunts, around 3 dollars from a place where my cousin and uncle worked, a book from a classmate because I needed it to know what to do for homework -I did not know it had some money inside- and an outdoor light bulb from the neighbourhood).

�� Critic Stage

When I was in my early twenties two acquaintances had pornographic magazines. I never performed any kind of masturbation looking at them. I watched them less than ten times.

I did the nastiest thing on earth when I, after reading a Scientific American article on sexual physiology, tried to see whether it was true or not that the pennies erection was related to anal contractions. I introduced, on three different days, three thin objects (a 1/2 inch diameter metallic cylinder, a pencil and an even thinner part of a comb) into my anus while I masturbated. I stopped because I decided it was the nastiest thing on earth, though it was a heterosexual investigation. I felt so bad that I masturbated again and I touched more women on the bus and on the subway.

When I was 20 years old, I was young. Since then, I left the Church until I was 28 years old. I was frustrated because of an academic failure on my Physics career and an emotional delusion with my second girlfriend. She was a 20 year-old evangelical lady. I also was 20 years old. I tried to leave home and worked in two other states until I got into trouble with the police. I was involuntarily involved in an assault and robbery. After three weeks, the judge exonerated me because I told the whole truth.

�After a while at the University I became progressively sceptic because of the contradictions between the Biblical and scientific descriptions of reality and because the physicists are low valued in Mexico. I mixed my Physics and Math studies with themes of Philosophy, Arts, Literature and other Sciences in a holistic view of my own education.

After I went to live to another place, far from his family and without going to church, to destroy a sexual dysfunction, once I tried to discover a different aesthetic appreciation of art masturbating in front of paints at the Art Museum. It didn�t work very well. Later I tried it again on a movies theatre while a horror film was going on. And it didn�t finish that problem. What it became was the same bad habit of sitting near women on the bus and subway and caressing their legs as it was before.

3 Sickness.

A Rebellion

My life was guided by my fleshly nature. My mind was directed by my desires. The flesh was against the Spirit to prevent me live a life of obedience to God�s Word being submitted to the Holy Spirit and a life of victory over sin. This was the origin of these fruits of the flesh: lust, sexual immorality, and lasciviousness which were against me and others when they developed and became hostile habits making me a miserable person because I became a sex addict and I committed many offences against women.

Other two fruits of the flesh that brought adverse consequences to me and others were corruption and greed. I committed the following errors: Administrative faults (drinking alcoholic beverages and using natural drugs at school, in the countryside and on the streets, using a counterfeited driver�s license to make two high school exams and to write a Bachelor�s Degree essay for another guy), robbery (some pictures of a gal I wanted to be my girl,� a stolen and given back gymnastic pants of her� I did repent and asked forgiveness, two books in two different University libraries, four dollars in a store where I worked, a lot of bread and 13 dollars to my parents when I left home; the second and last time I participated in an assault and robbery was passively. I was 23 years old then and I taught Math and Physics to highschoolers at Science School. I was very drunk. My employer was also very drunk. He convinced me with bad moods and bad words. He wanted to have a gift for her daughter when all the parents were buying gifts for their own kids. He got a knife and gave a long thin screw. When he was menacing the people, I put the screw in my pants pocket, and I told them not to be afraid of him and at the end he was disappointed and quit. I denied sharing what he got. Once I tried to stop my chaotic sexual excitation by drinking water with Nitrate of silver, a solution given to cows to stop their own excitation. And it didn�t work at all.

B Hippies and Women.

I met some people who looked like hippies. They used natural drugs and they got naked on the countryside to take a bath or to get tanned. They were promiscuous fornicators. Because I thought I was doing wrong I did something awful. I did masturbate and on my face, and even in my mouth, felt my own semen. I tried to redirect my feelings and I though I could do so if I could give some of my semen to my sister in disguise with the papaya breakfast. She was not in mood to have breakfast even she didn�t know what was in it. So, I ate it all. I masturbated once again and I stopped after deciding that what I had done �though it was a heterosexual experiment- was the second nastiest thing on earth. Though I had my teeth malformation for a while I emotionally related to some women. I was four different times having hugs with women, both she and I being undressed. I was seven times with different women having hugs with, both she and I being dressed. I touched them their vulva, to one of them the clitoris and to other one I introduced one of my finger into her vagina because we were totally drunk. Despite all of it, by that, only once I was close to lose my virginity. I never had sexual relation with her. The nastiest case was the one of a woman about whom some classmates told me she could get sick if I didn�t let her be my girlfriend.

I was 26 years old when I accepted her. She didn�t speak that much. We went into moral degradation of being naked and lustfully touching one another. When I thought I could see what was going on in between her legs she closed them.� We kept on lustfully touching one another until without thinking I put my penis into his mouth. Immediately she refused it. It was not fellatio, only a penetration of a few seconds. After then we kept on lustfully touching one another just like before.

Other time I was near losing my virginity. She was the most beautiful among the hippie-girls and I wanted her to be my girlfriend since I was 21 years old. A weird magic thought. When I was around 23 years old, while masturbating with her pictures and thighs I was thinking a beautiful lady could listen to my thoughts. And He thought she responded because while I masturbated in front of one of several stolen pictures of her, she the lady in the picture was like smiling and talking happy of having me spelt some semen on the picture after having it set upon my penis as if she was kissing it. Through the years, I gave her paints and poems. When I knew her better I realized she wasn�t that intelligent. She looked like being a decent gal but at the end I could see she was not that much serious. So, I decided to have her only as my friend. Any given day, when I was 27 years old, she asked me to go shopping with her. When we came back home she asked to come in. In a room she asked me if I�d like it take my clothes off and lay down on the carpet. Then I saw her coming in totally undressed. She turned the lights off. In totally silence, Sitting on her thighs, she took like a spider-woman position over me and I think she introduced it into a some place probably her vagina. Never before and never again I�ve had my penis into a vagina. So, I say probably it didn�t happen because I cannot compare with any other occasion. But because of her body�s position sitting over my hips there was no other place for my penis to be in. It got to be just in there. I didn�t know what to do. She reclined and I lustfully touched her breasts several seconds, less than a minute.�� Then, suddenly, like stricken by an angel she felt down beside me. And she stayed there immobile in a fetal position.� I didn�t know what I do: I kept lustfully touching one of her legs with one of my hand and with my other hand� I masturbated my penis until I got my semen spelt all over. I went to the bathroom to take a shower and when I came back she was locked in the other room. It wasn�t coitus. It was only a less than a minute penetration. She didn�t come back. I slept. The next day, we didn�t talk about it again. It was the most stupid thing on earth I did.

I had one girlfriend. She was a Physics student. She had the same teeth malformation I had. She was a buck-toothed not that thin lady.� We went to the countryside and we found ourselves in a windy problem because of a rainy torment under a raincoat. During all the night he asked to with really bad words that must hug her. The next day we found some peaches and apples in a private place. We were hungry. We got some and a man (the owner or a hireling) came and told us it was o.k. for him.� After he left, she and I kissed each other a lot. Once she at my parent�s home she was taking a shower and I without asking her permission entered the bathroom. I hold her under the water though she refused first. We kissed each other.� And my penis became erected and I tried to put it in between her legs and she didn�t like it. She didn�t let me go further. We took the shower together without any more problems.

After the shower naked she and I laid down on the carpet. She and I kissed on the mouth each other for a while. She started to kiss my chest. I closed my eyes. She went down to the navel then she stopped a moment.� He opened his eyes and her face was over my legs around the knees. She said he cut her that bad inspiration because of that it didn�t became worse. We were girlfriend sand boy friend but we didn�t last but a few months because we didn�t understand each other. She didn�t want the couple experience. She wanted more.

Because I knew I was doing wrong when I did masturbate in front of the mirror and having some semen felt my on my own face, and using it as cold cream. I tried to redirect my feelings and I though I could do so touching more gals and ladies on the bus and on the subway masturbating while using their bodies against my penis or caressing their legs and bodies with my hands. At the Baptist Student Centre while teaching Math to escape from the sexual dysfunction. There were two gals who asked me to help them. When we were talking each other I masturbated just looking at her and her friend.

C. Egotism

I thought only on myself. I became lustful and lascivious. The crimes I committed against women were:

Pedophilia (without knowing it was a crime, I thought the crime only was to pervert a girl) against some relatives and girls of families close to me despite the fact the way I treat girls and kids during my all life was, has been, is and will be always respectful. My teaching vocation allowed me relate with many girls and kids. The girls made a risk group since in inadequate moments the Government telepathically administered erectile dysfunctions. In the series of girl cases I considered them sexual objects with which I masturbated trying to destroy the erection and get that against natural repudiated problem away. I was trying not to get noticed. Not only that they wouldn�t realize what was going on but also that they could never find out what happened. If I tried to destroy the erection with my hands, it is masturbate until spilling semen, I felt continually homosexually harassed because I had sexual and erectile dysfunction before men. I needed to masturbate with women�s bodies. That is the reason of several thousands of women�s bodies I utilized to do so. I need to add that because I was a buck-toothed boy, it was very hard for me to have a girlfriend.

Touching gals and ladies without asking them permission. Such sexual abuse happened mainly on the subway pressing my penis against the front and back of their legs and on the bus lasciviously touching their legs without me getting noticed. I need to add that because I was a buck-toothed boy, it was very hard for me to have a girlfriend.

Exhibitionism. Several times I got undressed before gals and ladies. Once, on separate times, I showed one pornographic photograph of my penis to two ladies friends of mine that time.

When I was around 20 years old, while masturbating I was thinking a lady could listen to my thoughts. And I thought she responded because I could hear some noise behind the wall that was the only physical separation between him and her house and nobody could be there. When I was around 30 years old, when she cut my hair I masturbated just looking at her. Now, I think it is a demonic manifestation. And probably sometimes it is done by using technologic interfaces.

There was a time I could use a car a house and I have a scholarship to study. I was 27 years old. Then I had a lot of spare time to be spend with my girlfriend, the Physics student who had buckteeth same than I. We tried to work together in order to be a lasting couple but we had many problems. I crashed her mom�s car. And once it got broken. Despite I had all I needed because of jealousy I didn�t feel o.k. because God started to work in my life. She said she needed more than the couple experience and needed more time to think about it. But I told her that rather we would finish.

On 1991, When I was 28 years old. I had a renovation for an incident. I searched God counsel in the country side to know whether I could heal with peyote, mescal bottoms, a hallucinating cactus used traditionally by some tribes to cure. The Holy Spirit rebuked me for being unfaithful unto God.�� I repented and asked God to forgive me and give me another opportunity to serve him. Then God showed a miracle. When from night to morning (around 55 hours) he made a little plant Aloe Vera be born out of a separate branch that was inside my backpack. That helped me have my rationalism destroyed in a moment. The rational I had prevented me to see God. Because God showed His great power to transform all things. I understood I had to work for God�s kingdom. When I came back to the city, I burned all my poems, writings, paints, sculptures, photographs, and I started a new way of life.� I left� worldly books and music and bad companies. On 1991 I was baptised at the First Baptist Church of Mexico City. Then I shared the starting and leadership of an evangelistic group preaching at parks and on the subway for several months. Then I understood form God that I had to decide myself for full-time ministry. I almost had a 12 year-old girlfriend. I was 29 years old then. She told me that I was not a man if I didn�t allow her to be my friend. She was the youngest of three sisters who were part of the evangelistic group and preached on the subway. She didn�t want to ask her father permission in order to be my girlfriend. I didn�t want to keep on. Her sister learned about it and everything was over. It lasted almost one month.

D. The Calling to The Ministry

On 1994, I switched church and worked for two years in the Children�s Ministry of the Horeb Church. I decided to finish my Physics Bachelor�s Degree and to study Theology in a Seminary. Also I walked away from worldly church people. At the same time I collaborated with a evangelistic group at a Central Park and preached the gospel on the subway daily around seven months travelling between the University and home. In that church I heard God�s call to study abroad and take the gospel to the nations. Initially I learned God sent me out of my country then I knew that even He sent me out of my culture and language.

Reacting against my immorality on buses and on the subway, I read aloud the Bible daily for several months. Thus I revealed the gospel of Jesus Christ on the subway when I travel from home to school and from school to home. On that time I made songs of praise for the triumph of the gospel. After seven months of preaching some policemen asked me not to preach anymore and I quit.

On the 90�s in order to be able to study and without hesitation staying in common places at school, other way to solve my problem was masturbating against the rocks until again I did it on the bus and subway against the gals� and ladies� fronts and behinds parts of their legs. After the 90�s several times I, while passing by a centric park on Christmas season, several touched young female teenagers on the front of the legs. So, I could a have peaceful time without having the loathsome sexual dysfunction among my relatives. On the 90�s, I needed to look for young female teenagers on the subway and on the bus because when I touched a woman who looked like having a boyfriend the sexual dysfunction remained after getting away from her.

Kicked off on the subway and extortionated by the police. When I was 30 years old, I got a problem on the subway. I went shopping and when I came back home I couldn�t touch a gal. I tried to catch up one going back one station. A policeman came and tasked me what do you. And I told him the whole truth. The policeman led me into an office and told me to get undressed. After I did it, he kicked me on the chest and said that what I was trying to do was similar to a sexual assault. Later, another policeman and several detainees were conducted to a police station. Before getting into, he asked us some money to let us go. I didn�t have any money but the other gave what he requested. Because of that I didn�t know that what I was doing (lustfully touching women) was indeed a crime. As a consequence of that, I went to meet real Freedom (which Slavery is indeed) in a harlot street. They were walking around and one of them came directly unto me. She stopped right before me and asked me whether I would go into the rooms. I was really afraid of that situation. I told her I hadn�t done that before. I just quickly told her I felt like a little drop of semen rolled down through my penis. And I said I needed to leave and walked away.

When I was in my early thirties I watched Pay Television. There were some locked pornographic channels. I could see an image and then it got distorted. I did it less than ten days. Sometimes I masturbated.

I kept on writing songs but after a time I was doing again the same thing of pressing my penis against the gals and ladies and touch lasciviously their legs, and using the girl�s bodies to masturbate when I was victim of the telepathic attack in which I had nightmares in which some men used blasphemies and course language and suddenly when I awake my penis had a erection. That was unbearable because it is evil and condemnable. The reason of the sexual faults was to try to escape from the homosexual harassment related to the involuntary erections and try to redirect the attacked sexuality and flee unto the femininity and purity. The result of having that kind of escape was rest related to sexual to sexual dysfunction, being that that rest could last days, weeks or even months.

E. The behavioristic phase and the end of the secular career

The fruits of the flesh lust sexual immorality and lasciviousness that were adverse against me fought against me and their consequences were similar to those before my reformation. On the subway and on the bus I continued touching lustfully gals and ladies because I needed to fulfil my daily assignments and there was no other to set my mind free from the homosexual harassment that made have sexual dysfunction and problems with my thinking process.

I thought it was not good for me to have gotten naked in front of the windows (and sometimes masturbated) that I could be seen by some gals and ladies and I needed to ask forgiveness not only to God but also to those women I had offended. After I asked God forgiveness I sent four letters to their families. I asked forgiveness and after that I haven�t gotten undressed in that way and also I haven�t gotten masturbated again in that way.

There was one situation that could have been worse. An American single lady stayed with me at night in a bedroom of one of our acquaintances. At night I woke up and started to lustfully touch her trying not to get noticed by her. I found her clitoris and she was sexually arouse until she stopped me and asked me what I want from her. I told her a was virgin. She understood the situation and told me her sad story. She and her boyfriend had fallen out of love. And she preferred not to go further that she should not destroy my virginity.

Since my plans and were to study abroad I thought it was not good go around dating gals. If I had a girl I thought it would be to get married. Then I decided not to choose one among the ladies of the church and not to look out among the ladies that were out of the church.�

Finally, I finished my Bachelor�s Degree on 1997. During the Social Service year I worked as a teacher assistant and half-time in the Science Museum �Universum.� On July 9^th, I had my Professional Examination and got my Physics Bachelor�s Degree. Since God sent me out of my country culture and language, I applied to Golden Gate Baptist Theological Seminary. On 1999 went to California to Study in the Seminary. I started the program on February 2000 and ended the third semester on May 2001.

4. Therapy. First Part.

A. At Golden Gate Baptist Theological Seminary.

I started my academic preparation in the Master�s of Divinity program on February 2000 at Golden Gate Baptist Theological Seminary. I considered important the in-class professors� advice. And also they gave the same advice during the chapel services. The professors told us we needed to look for God�s will about the place God assigned us to take the gospel in our Bible studies, prayer time and also in the pastor�s sermons they preached in the church we attended. I arrived to the conclusion that God had assigned me to take the gospel of Jesus Christ to the peoples of North Europe, Israel and their descendants wherever he sent me in the world.

I had to make a special decision to ask God the woman that would be my wife. Because the most important fact is that she may be a suitable help in the ministry. She should be like those I needed to take the gospel to. It is a North European, Israelite, one of their descendants or alike. After reading the testimony of Billy Graham�s wife where she asked God to get a husband specifically, I wrote God a letter asking him a lady to be my wife. And these are the characteristics: An evangelical lady daughter of evangelicals, she must have a ministry calling, she must be a virgin, blue eyed blonde, she must know how to play an instrument and she must be able to sing. The most important thing is that she and may be able to work for God. It is written in the Bible that a priest must be dedicated to God, sanctified and married to a virgin woman.

Bibliography A minister should have one wife. Bibliography

When I was in my late thirties I made an online investigation and by accident I met naked women. I saved some images in a disk. No more than a day after I destroyed the disk. But the website sent some e-mail messages to my account inviting me to surf more. Some of them had pornographic pictures.� For that reason I finished that e-mail account.� Later I had another search on my roommate�s computer and I confessed it.� And I had to ask him forgiveness for having done so. That was the end of that stupid Internet thing.

One day on 2000, I met a girl when I arrived at the guys dorm. Because I had had sexually harassing nightmares and sexual dysfunction on the bus and on the train, I asked her to let me lift her up and hold her against me. I tried to set my penis and make it, pressing against her, to ejaculate and destroy the problem. But it wasn�t enough pressure. She asked me to set her on her feet. I allow her to stand on her feet.

When two Seminary students went back to Texas, they asked us to help them with their furniture and stuff to load the moving truck. The night before I had a nightmare being homosexually harassed by Mexican and American governments by their telepathic devises. The couple asked to take care of their daughter baby for a while. When they went away I though I could destroy the nightmares by masturbating with her body. I pressed my penis against her feet and watching her face I masturbated and ejaculated. That didn�t help me that much in the way it helped me in Mexico during the 90�s

On a Sunday, after the service, the pastor invited some Seminary students and me to have a meal at his home. Before eating, I played with the kids and in a moment without thinking on it. I touched the pubis of the pastor�s daughter just for an instant. Later I tried not to do it again. Although I continued holding them I never touched her again.

Then, in Berkeley, we were invited to take care of a family�s children. When I was with one little girl (around 2 years old) playing with the computer the sexual dysfunction came up. I didn�t know what to do to destroy that bad situation. After I read a book for the two girls to take a nap. Being they sleeping, I masturbated with my hands. And at the time of ejaculating I pressed my penis against their legs to be the closest I could to woman�s purity. That was a way I stopped the problem of sexual dysfunction. But on these last times it didn�t work.

There was a couple of around 10 years old girl who visited the guys dorm. When we played pool I touched lustfully one of them while trying to teach her how to play. One day on 2001, being at the Seminary, I saw a teenager, she was around 12 years old. She was sensually dancing in front of the guys dorm where I lived. Another she entered the dorm to buy something at the vendor machine. I asked her to allow me to huge her and she said yes. From behind I hold her and lifted her for a moment and then I let her standing on her feet again. I said thanks and went away. She stayed there buying at the vendor machine.

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B. The Telepathic Voices

One day a telepathic voice came and asked me what happened at the beginning.� I told him that at the beginning God created heavens and earth and I told them the whole Bible story. I lasted few hours until I finished the story with hell and heaven, the New Jerusalem. After that the voice asked me several other things. That telepathic voice asked me whether I knew that some people around were saying that there were angels related to my presence in the Seminary. I told the voice that I knew nothing. At the end, the voice told me they were investigating the case of a person who was molesting a teenager girl. They asked some other things ending with the recommendation that I should stay away from that teenager girl. Since then I kept myself away from her.

Beside this case, there was the case of the Berkeley�s girl and there were the cases of the girls of Mill Valley. The thing that caused me to do what I did before in Mexico was the telepathic voices� night terror in the form of nightmares (at the end of which I woke up having erections in my penis), telepathically induced nasty physical sensations and daytime sexual dysfunctions (sexual desires in front of men). It was a homosexual aggression against me and I had to suffer it. Before, on the 90�s the Mexican Government had caused in a behavioristic manner to use the women�s body to masturbate using the same king of night and daytime sexual dysfunctions (sexual desires in front of men).� The day after the case of the Berkeley�s girl the telepathic voices told me that I had to run and have some exercise. I did not feel okay because I had done something wrong. And despite I had� asked God forgiveness, I didn�t do what they asked me because I thought that starting a sport life right after the case of Berkeley (I masturbated using the body of a sleeping girl) was a satanic idea. Some of the telepathic voices cried with a lot anger at me because I didn�t follow their ideas, but other voices told me they wanted to help me.

One day, the daughter (9) of Ed (the pastor of Sausalito) went to visit me. I showed her what I was doing with new songs in the keyboard. I asked her to see my bed under the table, how one can enter it by one side and get off of it from the other. I entered it and laid down. Then she entered it and laid down beside me. In that moment my penis suffered a erection because of the telepathically induced erectile dysfunction. I told her we needed to get off quickly and hold her. And we rolled together to the other side. Having my penis pressing the inner part of one her thighs I let my semen go away. Out of the bed, after that, we kept talking each other and that sexual dysfunction didn�t appear again. I think she never realized what happened.

C. The Song Number 7. Enter Through The Narrow Gate.

Other day, Ed�s daughter (9) invited the pastor Tim�s daughter (10) to visit me. That day I recorded the Song Number Seven. I asked them what they had been doing that Sunday. A while they told me what they had been doing. In a moment Ed�s daughter asked me to show Tim�s daughter my bed. When I saw that teenager girl I thought that the devil showed me an opportunity to repeat an error from the past. Looking at her blonde hair I remembered the letter I wrote God asking him a blue eyed blonde lady to be my girlfriend in order to get marry to her. I thought that if God allow me to talk with that teenager at that moment God will give me opportunities to meet gals and ladies to talk with and meet the one that could be my girlfriend.

I asked Ed�s daughter to show Tim�s daughter the bed. In that way I evaded the temptation to hold that blonde teenager girl. After Ed�s daughter showed Tim�s daughter the bed, I asked them to help me to record the Song Number Seven. One of them took some necklaces and the other took my hat.� They started to sing and I played the keyboard. We enjoyed it a lot and when we finished after several attempts, we heard the recording and we all liked it. I told them bye. And because of that I was totally confident that God would allow me to meet gals and ladies and one of them would be my girlfriend with which I could get married. God has given me the opportunity to meet many white non-Hispanic American ladies (many of them blondes). Because of this, I am completely sure God will allow me to marry an American lady, a non-Hispanic blue eyed blonde lady.

D. The psychologist of Marin County�s Hospital.

After that the telepathic voices didn�t stop bothering me during nights. They told that some that some Hispanic ladies wanted to meet me. After one night in which they didn�t allow me to sleep, I went to make a public demonstration with prayer to tell them I repudiate that situation.

Among the buildings, I laid down on the pavement having four notebook�s sheets of paper in which I had written Bible verses against sexual immorality. I was praying from seven in the morning to five in the afternoon. At the end the Student�s Dean asked me what my problem was. I told him that the telepathic voices bothered me and I asked him whether it was the police and how could I stop that aggression. He told me that he didn�t know whether the police could have that technology and that I needed to a medical check. I had a general medical check, heart rhythm, blood pressure and blood and urine analysis. And I talked with the psychologist of Marin County�s Hospital. My brother called in the morning before going to meet the psychologist. He said that the Seminary�s director Dr. Crews advised me not to tell I listened to these telepathic voices so they would stop talking to me. I could not get a confirmation on this advice because it was Saturday. Neither Dr. Crews was working that day nor his secretary. I told the psychologist that I heard voices but they didn�t listen to me because they didn�t respond me. The most probable explanation was that those voices were made up by my imagination. The diagnosis she referred at the end of the consult was that I was okay. But to the Seminary and that brother who lives in California she sent, because they asked her, a diagnosis in which she considered me a person having hallucinations.

I didn�t touch lustfully any girl again. And I tried to solve the problem of sexual dysfunction in public before men by masturbating and looking at the ladies through the windows. It didn�t work.

Some other fruits of the flesh that brought adverse consequences to me and others were corruption and greed. I committed the following errors: administrative faults (I didn�t take my Bachelors Degree Diploma into the Seminary because when I went to the United States the University was on strike), robbery (half a �Mothers� cookies pack), I was rebuked because a public demonstration (I prayed against the homosexual telepathic attacks from 7 in the morning to 5 in the afternoon laying on the pavement among the buildings of Golden Gate Baptist Theological Seminary), and on may 2001, they asked me to leave the Institution because of a fight with another student (For a long time I was molested by that student and I reported it to my employer because we both were working as security guards; many times he annoyed me saying I was a thief and spitting when I passed by until one time in which I was very angry, I took a brick with my hand and lifted it up to my shoulder and asked him what was wrong with him. He fled saying I wanted to hit him.)

E. Jan, the blue-eyed blonde around 30 years old.

On 2001 I applied to Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary. They accepted me but there were no rooms at the guys dorm. They asked to wait half a year. Following the advice of the GGBTS Academic Advisor David McCormick I decided to study English in Foothill College. I studied English one semester at Foothill College and worked as a night guard and tutoring Math and Physics. During the Fall 2001 term, I applied again and MBTS Student Dean asked me another requirement. I had to be under the leadership of only one pastor. So, I continued my studies with English, Public Speaking and Video Production classes.� When my work permit finished, it took a year until I had it revalidated. Because I didn�t want to work without work permit, my brother asked to leave and find another place to stay. On Christmas 2001, I crashed and wrecked his car because I didn�t see the red light. And I went to live in another home. I started to go to Foothill Baptist Church where I met brother Mike who sold me a one-dollar car. Then I went live to other city and asked Los Altos First Baptist Church to be part of the ministry. I helped them with the AWANA Ministry.

At Los Altos First Baptist Church I met Jan, a blue-eyed blonde around 30 years old. She belonged to the College Student Group. I was interested in knowing her better. On e day we went to Santa Cruz beach. When we came back, I sat down close to her in the car. We were talking each other while coming back home. I was lustfully touching her leg and ejaculated. Several days after, she seemed interested in going further but into or through fornication. After that day I realised she wasn�t the girl I wanted to have as my girlfriend and to marry.� I went to the Youth Group to see whether I could help them in the Ministry. The pastor told me that I have to stay in the College Student Group but I thought they were talking at my back. I met Karen in the Youth Group. I continued going to the Youth Ministry but the pastor called the police to give me a restriction order because I needed to learn how to obey the leadership. Some months after, talked with the pastors and they revoked the restriction order.

5. The Therapy. Second Part.

At College I designed my homework talking with people to learn more English. For three essays and two videos I made more than one hundred interviews to white non-Hispanic American youth. I wrote songs, in the same way I did it in Mexico, because of the triumph of the gospel. I committed this error: to lustfully look at and ejaculate when I was talking to gals and ladies. Most of them were American blonde gals and ladies and blonde gals and ladies from other countries. One day, after a very ugly nightmare, with a content high in homosexual aggression, I committed the sin of not going away from two young girls with which I was talking to when I had a penis erection telepathically induced because that situation is against my moral principles. On 2002, the government�s telepathic voices starting to annoy me daily 24 hours a day. They said and kept on saying that I have to look lustfully at gals and ladies and that I have to meet licentious women. To look at gals and ladies lustfully being tuned by the government�s telepathic computers is a homosexual practice because the telepathically transmitted information makes the homosexuals used by the Government to experience what I feel and to comment on it. The homosexual telepathic aggression continues with nightmares and telepathically induced physical sensations. During the day this induced sensations cause me erectile dysfunction in public places. Since 2002 I don�t look at gals and ladies with lust and lasciviousness.

On February 2003, being at Foothill College (Los Altos, California) where I studied the Associate Degree �Individual Studies� and worked tutoring Physics and Math, the telepathic voices didn�t allow to do my assignments. They annoyed me telling I had to meet a Hispanic gal and if I didn�t preach the gospel to Hispanics they would kill my family and me with sexual violence. I sent three letters, one to the U.S. President George W. Bush, one to the Mexican President Vicente Fox and one to the California Governor Arnold Schwarzenneger. One day, in which I couldn�t finish my English assignment, I told my teacher. She asked to go to the College psychologist. The College psychologist asked me to go to the Stanford University�s Hospital to have a psychiatric� clearance.

6. The Therapy. Third Part.

Medical clearance of Stanford University�s Hospital From February 21^st 2003 to February 26^th 2003: Diagnosis when coming into the Hospital, Auditory Hallucinations, Psychosis NOS, Schizoid personality. Diagnosis when coming out from the Hospital. The medical clearance said I was okay to work with people. It a was a Schizophrenia Classic case undifferentiated according to DSM4 criteria.

I was in the Stanford University�s Hospital form Friday to Wednesday. They studied my brain with MRI and had some analysis of blood and urine. Some psychiatrists interviewed me several times and presented my case to Master�s students. The let me out when I told them I needed to go back to my job and classes. The gave me the medical clearance requested by the College to allow me keep on working at the Tutorial Centre. The medical clearance said that I was okay to work with people. The diagnosis said that I had a schizoid personality and it was a undifferentiated Schizophrenia Classic case. Now, led by the Holy Spirit I think in spiritual things. The Holy Spirit fights against my flesh and gives me victory over the sin that I may not do what my flesh wants me to.

On December 2003, I finished the Associate Grade at Foothill College. I had an Associate in Arts �Individual Studies,� having finished English, Public Speaking, Video Production, Music (voice and instrument) and other classes which are useful for the Ministry.

7. Convalescence and Appearance.

On February 2004 I came back to Mexico to complete the requirements Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary asked to. One of them is to be under the leadership of only one pastor. From February 2004 to July 2005, I worked in the Capital City Baptist Church Children�s Ministry. During the whole time I worked in this Ministry, it was noticeable the aggression that some Government functionaries and associated criminals. They used their telepathic computers to annoy that I couldn�t teach good lessons. This document denounces the corruption and asks those who are guilt be brought to Justice. Some masculine voices use coarse language against women.

8. Report

When feminine voices started to be heard, it helped to make a reflection, to create the story of all the crimes I had committed and to create this document in which I have written all the sins I committed in the past including the crimes. The feminine voices declared to be at the side of the victims and they asked all the offences against women be cleared. On June 30^th, 2005 the manager of this case Thomas Lynn Sasser, the CCBC�s pastor, advised not to remember the sins I committed in the past (1^st John 1:9) Except those in which I could make a restitution because it is Biblical. �...leave your offering on the altar...� (Matthew 5:24). He advised also for the cases of sexual offences that I should be careful, first talking to the parents and then with the girls, and not give them a written document.

It is understandable, because of the information the telepathic voices have, that the Government�s task is to get their objective after identifying a criminal they have to process him or her by a police or judiciary procedure. In case of an individual identifies being a non criminal, the Government�s task is to get their objective that is to clear and clean his or her story of transgressions.

Psychological Help. Medical Services UNAM. On July the 5^th, 2005 the� program S.O.S�s psychologist� Margarita Dominguez revised my files and said she would have a follow up to the restitution of honour that I would have to the victims of sexual faults. But in the last session she told me to follow the counsel of the pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser. Because I never penetrated any under age woman, she asked me not to bother anyone for egotistical interests.

In the second appointment with the pastor, I, Daniel W. Lechuga Ballesteros, asked him to give me a recommendation to know how to share what I was doing with my family and church. The pastor advised to use Biblical words. The pastor prayed with me that I might be able to read the Bible daily.

On July 2005 I, Daniel Wenceslao Lechuga Ballesteros, asked advice to the Centre of Judiciary Tutoring of the Law School of the National Autonomous University of Mexico. After I described the help I needed I was advised to follow the counsel of the manager, the minister Thomas Lynn Sasser, the pastor of Capital City Baptist Church.

Psychological Help. Medical Services UNAM. On August the 11^th, 2005, The psychologist asked to finished what the pastor had told me to do. She said that if after six months I considered it necessary I could go to the Psychology School.

On August 7^th 2005 the sister Mateos offered me to translate this story. On August 14^th I gave her a copy. On September 4^th she translated the preface and asked pastor Searfoss to help her. The pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser told it was an err because two persons of the church called him to ask me to leave the church. The pastor established restriction to me telling me� I couldn�t go near the area where the children study.

On September 11^th 2005, the pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser and the deacon� Said told me I needed to go to the psychologist. The appointment as a condition to go to church. On September 14^th I went to the Psychologist in a Institution named �Armon�a Familiar�. I had an appointment with the psychologist sister Ericka Acosta,

9. Conclusion

On January 23^rd 2006 the pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser decided that all the tasks I had had, making restitution and all other things related to the present report, were finished. I presented the pastor, asking him if he considered them to be sent, the letters written to the University�s Rector, to the Regent of Mexico City, to the Governor of the State of Mexico and to the President. He told me that to have them written was sufficient to reflect on what I had done.

Concerning the voices the pastor told that possibly there were voices because I felt guilty. I told him that I didn�t have any guilt complex because God had forgiven me and I considered so in the same way the pastor himself had told me before because the Bible states it. The pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser said that, �If a person hurts me I have to forgive him / her. Jesus Christ said that in Matthew chapters 4 and 5. And I have to pray for those who persecute me and harm me that God may touch their hearts. Jesus Christ says that I have to be glad because I am persecuted.�

Then, all the reflection and resolutions on the story of crimes of the past are considered finished. Also, all the crimes are considered judged and all the cases are closed. I didn�t file the letters. The details of the story of crimes of the past are written in this document all of them considered �Forgiven Sins.�

The pastor in a personal way helped me having a Bible Study. On January 23^rd 2006 we started a discipleship. Because my dad Enrique Lechuga Lazcano requested this information, the pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser told me that always exists a possibility to come near institutions that bring scholarships. Then, there is a possibility to get a scholarship to complete my Master�s of Divinity in a Southern Baptist Convention�s Seminary.

On 2007 my dad asked me to get a job. I contacted four employers. They were of two Universities, one High school and one Security corporation. I was working from September to December 2008. On December 23rd, I received my birth certificate and with that the end of the revision of the story of the things I had to correct.

On March 12^th the pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser read the objectives that I have written to me for the glory of God. He considered they were okay and prayed with me. The way I have to cope telepathically induced sexual arousal and nasty physical sensations is by using the Scripture. The pastor Thomas Lynn Sasser asked to stand on God�s authority and tell the Bible verse, �The LORD (Jesus Christ) rebuke you.� Jude 9. It is important to tell this: I haven�t lustfully touched a woman since 2001 and haven�t lustfully looked women since 2003.

10. Objectives

1. Being disciplined for the Ministry. Daily Devotional. Bible Reading and Prayer Time.

2. To share my story with my family. (With my parents it has been done)

3. To have a Discipleship.

4. To have scheduled activities to get ready to go back to the Seminary. Academic Classes at home and

5. To work half time for my parents.

6. To be active in the Ministry: Witnessing and Ministering being a good leader.

7. To finish my Master�s Degree and get hired by the Baptist Convention (by the North America Missions Board and the International Missions Board). To go to the Northern Europeans and the Israelites and / or their descendants to any part LORD Jesus Christ sends me.

8. Once being working, to get married with an evangelical virgin blue eyed American lady daughter of evangelicals who goes to missions. Having North European and / or Israelite descent is best.

Last Revised 2/4/2008

On 2008 the established deadline for getting the scholarship was May 31st 2009. Lately, revising the situation I thought it was good to wait at least one more year, I communicated such decision to the pastor Sasser and to the Seminaries in which I can apply. The situation now makes rethink the problem because there was the recommendation, given by some people of Golden Gate Baptist Theological Seminary, not to continue studying for the ministry. The government's telepathic voices tell that I need to understand that there is generalized corruption that makes my intention a risk to other people. I have asked for help to the pastor that I may decide according to God's will. I have stopped praying for this purpose and I hope everything is going to become better.

11. Bibliography

Erickson, Millard J. Christian Theology Grand Rapids: Baker Books House Company, 2000

American Institute of Physicswww.aip.org

http://link.aip.org/link/?APCPCS/863/62/1

S. G. Soal, Author, Frederick Bateman, Author, and V. F. Lenzen, Reviewer University of California
Modern Experiments in Telepathy
American Journal of Physics -- March 1955 -- Volume 23, Issue 3, pp. 178-180

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