| Dear Stacey, Hi and how are you and Kevin? First I think it's wrong that you have taken Kevin away from me for a year now, a year that is lost forever, I would have never done that to you, A child needs the love, and guidance of both parents and all family, to grow and learn from, to be the best they can be. I hope he is doing well in school. I just want you to know that in all that has occured since you left, I feel that it is nothing that can stop us from continuing with our lives together. You have forgiven me many times for things that I have done when we were together, If you think that anything that has happened cannot be forgotten...then you are mistaken. I miss you! And feel that anything that I argue about is just going to hinder from us rebuilding our lives, the pieces are still there, they just need to be mended. Ten years is alot to dismiss! I wish that we could sit down and at least talk about this, staying away from each other is not benefiting anything, If you are happy like this then so be it. But alot is being missed. We were always a productive team, and we can still be that even apart, for the benefit of us,and kevin. I await you everyday....wishing, hopeing, dreaming,that you would return. Being without you, is like being on a lonely desert road, For there is nothing around me that I feel I'm here for. I keep Holding on to yesterday, and my yesterday was when you left my life. I keep thinking that I'm lonely, But, It's only missing you. I hope there are people in your life keeping you from feeling this way. I've gotten away from everyone, It's not that bad, I live for me. And have no one interfering. April is comming, and I look forward to seeing Kevin again! But, If your just going to ask for a continuance of the PFA. If you don't want to try and work this out, or allow me to be involved with you or Kevin, what is the point of me being here? It is not by choice for me to live in ambridge, I could go and be somewhere more prosperous. Speaking of? I've heard you have decided to return to college and finish you life devotion to be an acountant, or manageing, somehow. I wish for you all the best! I never told you how much I commend you on your EMT certification. I guess with you being able to concentrate on other things, your heart never tells you how lonely it may be? Mine tells me everyday. Life without you has become most difficult. I have no anger against your family, But, I feel it's wrong that they hold Kevin away from me as well. Couldn't tell him, I love him, Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas, That in itself is wrong. For I comming from a broken family understand this,. My father was held from me, and I have never forgiven my mother for it, If he had been able to be apart of my bringing up, I would be better for it. Kevin will not forget. He has lost time in his life, and it will always be a missing term. I'm just trying to tell you...that in all that has evolved, the courts, PFA, people putting their two cents in, the loss of the car, affairs, that we can elude from it. I'm willing to try! I will not dwendle over these things. The earlier we start, the more we can proceed to get back to and progress from were we left off. There are people who treat each other far worse. Bonnie wanted out of her marriage, to which they would have given their children away, and most men do not become home bodies, and commit themselves to their family and home. I was for you and kevin, Every minute I had I devoted to you and him. If you feel that is easy to replace? I can't believe your heart never speaks to you? Mine does. And that is why I have written these. I just wanted to let you know before it's to late! In May, somewhere around the 3rd, give or take for court placement, If you still want your freedom from our marriage, I will let you go. If ever you have had a change of heart? I'm here waiting with love. ( You need only to open the door ). |
