I am...
- ... 5 feet 9 inches tall.I think I'm actually 5 foot 8 but it makes me feel better to say 5' 9"
- ... 200 lbs. I was quite skinny for the longest time until I got a great job in a government building with the most amazing cafeteria and kitchenettes on every floor. Recently, I've taken up walking... hehe, not as in walking to the store but walking for a half-hour or more. It's trimmed off a few pounds but I think I'll have to start walking to a gym.
As an addendum to that, I started a workout regimen in January 2003 and have been offering it plenty of lip-service since then. I'm still 200 pounds, of course. Now, at the dawn of 2005, I'm more than determined to get rid of the gut. I think it's almost an unavoidable necessity. - ... an adult male. Adulthood is a difficult thing to pin down. I guess, physically, I became an adult many years ago but how does that reflect mentally? As for being male, well, my inner cynic would say that that places me in the less-valued sex. The Great Pendulum is beginning to swing towards female dominance. Men are now the gender that is openly available for attack or insult. Will there ever be equality between the sexes? Heh, as long as humanity is a whining infant, no.
- ... a Canadian. And proud of it... most of the time. I consider myself a patriot but patriotism is dangerous as demonstrated in many countries. With an attempt at objectivity, I see that Canada is one of the best countries in the world. That same objectivity, however, makes me realize that Canada is well-suited to me because I was raised Canadian. With another mindset, I'm sure Canada wouldn't appear as perfect. How do you measure the quality of a country? Standard of living and education are big factors but is Materialism a good gauge for life and is your education system custom-built?
- ... a Web Designer. I've been programming since I was a teen trying to make RPG character generators on my Commodore 64. Heh, I never did finish one but I did teach myself the basics of programming. Recently, I taught myself HTML and then took a course to learn Java and the rest. The Internet might change but it won't die. Perhaps it'll set the pace for society in the future... pretty lofty babbling, I know.
- ... a single heterosexual. Honestly, I've always found sex both difficult and fascinating. I pursue it as much as the next guy but I've yet to capture that elusive secret to sex appeal. I look and try to be nice, I occasionally go on Personals web sites but 9 times out of 10, I stay single until a woman approaches me. Hehe... sad but true.
- ... a cynical curmudgeon. I take pride in my reputation as the guy who can always find the dark cloud hiding behind a silver lining. It's not that I try; it's just not that difficult to spot the jerk with the ulterior motive or that unknown factor of life that likes to hide around the corner with a big mallet.
- ... a lay-about. Some would call me a lay-about, or in more modern terms, a lazy bastard. In truth, I just really enjoy my time to myself. I also find that a society is often built by its workaholics so everyone wastes their life rushing to keep up with them, "the Jones". To hell with it, I say. I refuse to lie on my deathbed wishing I spent more time in the office. Work smart, not hard, and never sacrifice family or leisure time to a monolithic corporation that could care less about you anyway. Life is too precious to sacrifice to a false and uncaring god.
- ... a closet optimist. Surprisingly enough, although I am a bit of a curmudgeon, it's actually a mask and deep down, I'm an optimist. I truly believe that things always work out for the best. I've had countless bad times but in hindsight, they were necessary and I have very few regrets. I see the world as a beautiful place and life, a joyous thing but it's wasted and corrupted by those who go through life with blinders on, infecting everything with their insanity. However, I trust the Universe and nothing can exist without its blessing so the Blind Ones get to stay on the boat!.... damn!
- ... a gamer. Yeah, sad to say, I'm a gamer. I started with ADnD almost 18 years ago. Today, I play Aberrant, Trinity, 7th Sea, 3rd Ed. DnD and World of Darkness. I'm not an experienced GM but recently I started a DnD campaign and a DC game. Here're some more details on that front.
Well, as of 2003, I think my life as a gamer is over. Can't say I'm sorry really. I've always had mixed feelings about it, kind of like the way a former alcoholic looks at booze. It was fun but I was addicted; everything else in my life took a backseat to gaming and it's time to move on. I haven't quite gone cold turkey, however. Computer games seem to be fitting in as a nice replacement... still fun but I don't have to commute to the other side of town five nights a week and I can turn the game off if something important comes along. - ... a martial arts master wannabe. One thing that always gets my blood flowing is a good martial arts fight scene in a good action flick. Weaned on Hollywood, I truly have no idea how real martial arts work but I am fascinated by them. I have minute amounts of training in Kenpo and Goju-Ryu Karate but the form that I most wish to learn is Shaolin Five-Animal Kung Fu. Fortunately, there's a sifu here in Ottawa where I live...
...well, I think I embarrased myself in front of him once too often. It's hard to play the loyal and enthusiastic student when you're too much the lazy gamer to be loyal to anything. After signing up, skipping classes in favour of TV and games, and quitting three times, it's time to move on. Fortunately, now that TV's starting to suck and my gaming life is over, I'm looking into Tai Chi as a nice after-work activity for a 30-something mystic. - ... a 4th-circuit Moralist with... Recently, I've been captivated by the eight circuit theory put forward by Timothy Leary. According to what I understand of it, I see myself as a 4th circuit moralist. I have a strong concept of right and wrong and proper etiquette. Don't ask where these notions came from; I'm very much the black sheep among family and friends. Here's a page in which I discuss my many idols.
- ...5th-circuit aspirations. Perhaps because of my lack of sexual success and my strong moralistic streak, I am drawn toward the depths of sexual expression. However, it might also be a harkening to the hedonistic 5th circuit. It involves a wisdom of sex as more than just procreation. To satisfy this call, I have been studying Tantric and Taoist sexual lore. Fascinating stuff... My idols page goes into this in greater detail.
- ... a pagan... I've been associating with the pagan community here in Ottawa for several years. Interesting people. I also believe in the sanctity of Nature and the balanced duality of masculinity and femininity, also known as the God and Goddess. Wander off to this page to read my blathering and controversial opinions on this topic.
- ...some of the time. Now having said that I have a lot in common with pagans and could be considered a pagan, I do not personally believe that I am, except in the broadest definition of the term. I have a much different opinion of and relationship with the gods and Nature. I also take perverse pleasure in 'attacking' certain tenets of paganism and watching the sparks fly. Here's my what's up with Paganism page.
- ... a novice mystic. I like to think of myself as a mystic. I have travelled so many paths, looking for my place, that I believe I can almost, just out of the corner of my eye, see the big picture. What do I seek? I don't know, although sometimes, I believe I have a clue. Want to know more about my path? Off to this page with ya!
What more is there to say? I could go into the regular nonsense: "I'm a single white male who enjoys home cooking and walks on the beach..." but that would be embarrasing. While I am discussing myself, already too egotistical for my personal comfort level, I really would be disgusted if I tried selling myself... like summoning a pimp personality to hawk the lonely personality. Besides, if I can't meet a nice woman in a city of over one million, I'm in serious trouble.