Well, we haven't had heat in my house for about 4 days now. That means I'm freezing and have to take FREEZING cold showers. No fun. :( But we're getting it fixed on Thursday.
Last night I downloaded Yahoo Instant Messenger because of my email problems. In the first two hours of chatting I found two people who I really connected with. Kate, and then Daniel. (If you guys are reading this, Hi! I miss you both already and hope to talk to you again...and Daniel, I'm gonna put up your poem tomorrow)
I feel like a hypicrite, which I am, because I tell everyone I know who cuts, to not cut. But then I go ahead and do it myself. I really don't think that cutting is a bad thing. Some people, like me, cut when they are feeling depressed, alone, sad, or like they want to kill themselves. After I cut, I don't want to die any more.
Today I went to the bathroom in school...(Don't go there lol) and I cut myself. I was gone from my classroom for about 10 minutes and my teacher was just walking out the door to go look for me when I turned around the hall way.
I told her this bogus story that I HONESTLY fell into the toilet, got my ass all wet, and had to wait for everyone else in the bathroom to leave so I could get papertowls and clean my butt. I insisted that, that was the truth so she had to some what believe me. By the way, that teacher has the URL to this page, so she could be reading it tonight and we'll end up having a talk tomorrow, and I won't be allowed to go to the bathroom again...Damn.
I'm still working on my left leg. I have to make 19 cuts, right now, I think I'm up to 11, including the one I did in school today. I don't think I explained the reason behind the 19 cuts thing, I told Daniel last night. Maybe I'll put it up here another day.
Ok, Now I have to go get myself a new email address so I can start talking to people again. lol
I'll post on the front page what my new email address is, after I get it.
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