Guess what?
Joe just knocked on the door and came in. My mom and him are in the kitchen SCREAMING and swearing at each other. And guess what I wanna do?
If you said 'cut' you're right. But I'm not going to. I'm not going to let Joe upset me so much that I cut myself. But I am really p*ssed off because my mom just screamed to Joe, "You make me feel like sh*t, You lie to me, and You would NEVER jump like you did when Bruce called tonight if I needed you!!"
Then Joe had the nerve to call my mom a "Dumb Mother F*****" Then he added, "You ugly son of a b**ch!"
So my mom just started screaming louder and so did he.
Joe's still in the kitchen, my mom's in the living room now.
I don't know where Joe gets off saying all that crap to my mom. He doesn't pay her rent. He doesn't pay for his food. He doesn't pay my mom when she washes his clothes 3 times a week, and he doesn't pay for gas when my mom drives him to work 3 times a week, 20 miles away.
All together in the past 4 months, Joe has given my mom probably about 200 dollars. You can't even get one month in an apartment for that! And my mom buys him cigarettes, food, clothes, and other neccesties...he's basically like a teenage son insted of a 45 year old man!!
The ONLY thing that my mom NEVER buys him is beer. Thank GOD! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR To Joe!
Oh yea, my mom has told Bruce MANY times to NEVER call our house...but he still does. And my mom called information tonight and asked for the local police number, and swears that she will call the police on Bruce if he EVER calls here again because of Harrassment. And believe me, Bruce DOES harrasse us! ALL the time, DAY or night! GRRRR to Bruce TOO!
Well my mom's back in the kitchen arguing with Joe... :( WWWHHHYY!!??
Now my mom is yealing about how Bruce didn't give Joe a ride here, and that Bruce would never give Joe money...basically she's saying "stop using me".
Ok...I'm going to start crying soon! Get Joe out of my HOUSE!!! I've told me mom...begged her to make him leave... but for some reason she always lets him in!!! I've told her that I'm unsafe around him, but he takes my self-injury as a joke. All he does is mooch off of my mom for food, shelter, clothing, money, and all that. He could have his OWN apartment if he didn't blow all of his money on beer and cigarettes!!
PLEASE MAKE HIM LEAVE!!!!!!!!
If he makes me feel unsafe tonight to the point that I want to cut, I'm calling the police. Hopefully he'll have a restraining order saying that he Can NEVER come within 500 yards of me or my mom. I don't care if I have to go back to a phyciatric hospital for a few days for calling either!
I'll do anything to keep myself safe and get the hell away from JOE!!!
I HATE JOE!!! I don't hate anybody else in this entire world...EXCEPT JOE!!!!!!!!!!!
GRRRRR Joe LOVES to see my mom angry. Whenever her or I yell at him or get upset over something he says, he sits there smirking!!!
He has no remorse!
He makes my mom so pissed off and angry to the point where I don't want to be around her!
Help!!
Make Joe go away!
Please make Joe go away
Ok...now it's 10:55pm, and Joe is technically gone. My mom is driving him back to his shack right now. I asked to go with her, because I don't like the thought of the two of the screaming and holloring at each other out there on the icy roads. (I'm in New Jersey and it snowed last night and a little today...) I figured if my mom's gonna die, I might as well go with her.
Anyway, I'm just going to either keep writing more and more about what I'm feeling here on my webpage, or I'm going to go surf the web until my mom gets home so I don't go into my room and cut myself.
I just found out today that my mom had slit her wrists when she was in her 20's. She has a very light scar from it.
She did it because she wanted to die on account of her abusive husband. Now here comes Joe! An abusive boyfriend. Not physically, just mentially and verbily.
I told my mom that if she drove Joe to his shack that I'd call the police. And she said "You'd better not!" I want to soooo bad! But I know my mom is in love with Joe. Why? I think it's because she's never been in a good relationship, only negative abusive ones. And sadly I know she's gonna let him back in the house within a few days. :(
Joe hasn't done anything so bad since he's been staying here that would cause him to go to jail. He's just been using my mom and making my life a living hell. Unfourtunatly, that's not a crime.
A lot of people who know about Joe and my mom ask if my mom is a nut, crazy, stupid...well she's not. That's another reason why I don't want to call the cops...Because they might put me in a foster home thinking that my mom is an un-fit mother, letting Joe live her and all. She's not!
She NEVER let Joe stay here while she was at work. The only time he is here is when my mom lives here. That shows that she's not stupid or crazy. Anyway...Joe is gone for a few days, so hopfully I won't cut. (My left leg is what I call my "Joe" leg...Whenever I cut because Joe triggered me, I cut my left leg. So far I have...10 cuts on my left leg...hopefully there will be no more....anywhere.
K, my mom just pulled into the driveway...I'm gonna go for now. I'll write more if anything happens.
PS...If you are reading this, please don't call the cops! I know a few people who have this URL who know me, Joe's gone, I'm safe, DON'T call the cops.
THANK YOU
Plus, my mom is back, and seems to be in a better mood now that Joe's gone.
And believe me, so am I!
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Ok, this entry is mostly just me venting...again. Of corse about Joe...again! That man is going to cause me to have a stroke!
WHY!?
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