Benji stumbled down the stairs nearly falling over as he walked to answer the door, the bell had begun ringing five minutes earlier. It had taken Benji that long to pull himself upright. Whoever was at the door was sure as hell persistent.
Billy leaned against the door bell smiling serenely. Benji would answer eventually. The door flew open and Billy stifled a laugh at his best friend�s state of disarray. �Hey Benji-man, how ya doin�?� He greeted cheerfully.
�I�m fine. Billy?� Benji squinted from beneath his long bangs that had flopped into his face.
Nodding Billy helped Benji back into the house. �Either you didn�t put your contacts in this morning or you really have been drinking too much.�
Bringing his hand up Benji waved it in front of his face giggling. �Nope no contacts, no glasses either, I guess it�s a bit of both.�
�Ok then Benj, let�s get some coffee inside of you, and maybe some water, then you should definitely go to bed and sleep this one off,� Billy explained depositing the shorter man into one of the kitchen chairs. While anyone else would be shocked at Billy�s take charge attitude Benji wasn�t. It was like around him Lil Billy became different, more outspoken, caring and opinionated. Billy could always be one mean mother fucker.
�You gonna tuck me in?� Benji smiled so innocently and all of a sudden Billy was struck with the image of his friend as a child, a scared, lonely and pure child. Just like he had once been, before everything he treasured seemed to float away.
Billy shook his head clearing his mind. �Yeah I�ll tuck you in buddy.�
�Billy?� Benji�s voice cracked.
Turning on the coffee maker Billy rested against the counter top facing his friend. �What is it?� He questioned, concerned.
�Why am I so alone?� Benji looked completely and utterly lost. Tears slipped down his cheeks. �I don�t know how much longer I can handle it.�
Suddenly Billy realized the severity of the situation. �You�re not alone Benji,� He protested vehemently. �You have the band.�
�I won�t for much longer. Joel has Trinity, Paul has Sharon and you have Ali. What the hell am I going to have left when you guys are all living your happily ever afters?� Benji rubbed his face with his hands letting out a sob, he didn�t think he actually had tears left in him until now.
Billy motioned for Benji to come over to him and wrapped his arms around his friend. �You will always have me, no matter what happens and Joel, well he�s your other half man, your twin, and you�ll have a hard time getting rid of him. He�s just always gonna be there, annoying the hell out of you.�
�I don�t want my twin, or a friend. I want someone to love me, to be with me,� Benji buried his head in Billy�s shoulder, shaking with the intensity of the emotions running through him.
Stroking Benji�s hair Billy muttered soothing words to him. �So you haven�t found the right person for you right now but you�ll find your soul mate eventually.�
�I�ve already found my soul mate Bill,� Benji wiped his face, his alcoholic haze already wearing off, he moved out of Billy�s arms. �I�m just not his soul mate. I�m not the right one for him.�
Billy froze, muscles tensed. �Benji did you jus say him?� He whispered, shocked.
�Yeah I did. I Benjamin Levy Madden, self proclaimed lady�s man am queerer than a two dollar fucking bill,� Benji spat stumbling back over to the chair.
Mulling over that announcement Billy lapsed into silence as he pulled two mugs down from the cupboard pouring the coffee. �You can�t be queerer than me.�
Benji looked confused as he accepted one of the cups from the black haired man. �I don�t quite understand.�
�Well I�m the only bill you know. Ali and I broke up three weeks ago Benj, I could�ve sworn I told you. I�m gay man.� Billy smirked.
Shaking his head Benji smiled. �I always knew you were too pretty for your own good.�
Billy blushed. �Oh shut the fuck up Benji. So who is the lucky boy?� He asked.
�I can�t tell you,� Benji took a sip of his coffee his own face reddening.
Arching an eyebrow Billy was intrigued. Out of all of his band mates Benji was his best friend, the one he told everything. And until now Benji had told him everything. Which meant it was someone he knew. �Is it Tony?�
�Tony? Where the fuck did you get that idea from?� Benji was incredulous.
�I figured it was someone I know since you won�t tell me,� Billy explained.
Benji nodded confirming that it was in fact someone that Billy knew.
�Is it someone in the band?� Another nod. �Eww oh my god, you fell in love with your own brother!�
Benji nearly choked on his coffee. �You are one fucked up little child Billy.�
�Sorry, I really couldn�t resist, it�s just, you two seem so close,� Billy laughed as a napkin was thrown at his head. �Is it Paul? Do you want a Paul hug Benji?�
Benji laughed shaking his head. �Oh god, falling for a terminally straight person, how horrible.�
�But that only leaves�� Billy trailed off as it all sank in. "Oh my god."
�It�s you Billy, I managed to fall hopelessly head over fucking heels in love with my best friend in the whole world,� Benji turned away unable to look at Billy.
Billy dropped his mug on the floor, the sound of porcelain shattering made him flinch harshly. �I didn�t know�my god�.I�m so sorry.�
�You�re sorry?� Benji�s voice was bitter. �For what? Being so fuckable? So irresistible that people just fall all over you, even your best friend.�
�Benji that�s not fair and you know it. You cannot attack me for this. I didn�t even do anything wrong,� Billy�s voice dropped lower. �Besides I love you too you insufferable prick.�
Benji�s mug joined Billy�s on the floor and he swore softly going to stand. Billy stopped him. �What?�
Billy pointed at the shattered remnants of the two mugs on the floor then Benji�s bare feet. �You�ll cut your feet into pieces, I can clean it up.�
Benji hummed to himself happily as he watched Billy clean up the mess, careful not to cut himself or leave any of the bits on the floor. �So what happens now Bill?� He asked, sounding a little scared and insecure.
Putting the mugs in the trash and leaving the mop leaning against the counter Billy pulled Benji to him. �I have a pretty damn good idea.� He smiled.
Returning the smile Benji flushed, �And what�s your idea Mr. Martin?� He feigned innocence.
Billy wrapped his arms around Benji bringing him closer so he was pressed up tightly against his body, his lips came down on Benji�s softly, both of them sighing in content as their lip rings collided slightly, the sensation magnified as Billy slipped his skilled pierced tongue into Benji�s mouth exploring gratefully.
Benji brought one of his hands up to bury in Billy�s smooth black locks, the other slipping into the back pocket of his jeans pulling his lower body closer. The other guitarist let out a loud moan. Pulling away Benji sucked gently on Billy�s lip ring panting, �I think this has been a long time coming, don�t you Billy?� He grinned happily.
�Oh yeah definitely,� Billy agreed resting his forehead against Benji�s.
Benji sucked in a breath at the intensity of the emotions in Billy�s eyes. �I love you Billy.�
�I love you too Benji,� Billy replied softly. �But so help me god if I ever find you drinking again I�ll beat the shit out of you.�
Giggling slightly Benji nodded. �I won�t, I promise. I�ll even call my sponsor.�
�You don�t have to do that, I know you won�t do it again,� Billy captured Benji�s lips in another searing kiss seeking access and gaining it quickly exploring his loves mouth, every crevice.
Benji responded quickly pressing his body into Billy�s whimpering hotly at the desire coursing through him. He ground his hardness into Billy eliciting a moan. �Oh god Billy, I need you,� He gasped when they parted.
�I know,� Billy put his head on Benji�s shoulder his hot breath making the other man shiver. �I want you, I need you too. We shouldn�t be moving this fast but god I need you right now,� His mouth latched onto Benji�s neck and he sucked gently at first then harder.
Feeling his knees grow weak Benji held onto Billy, �Oh dear god,� He whimpered. �My room now,� He pushed Billy away from him only to drag him up the stairs into the bedroom.
Billy looked around Benji�s room, it was painted dark red with a black ceiling, the walls were covered in posters of various bands and mementos from their tours and concerts. The bed had a leopard print comforter on it. This would be one fun time�.
