Disclaimer: I do not own GC or any of their songs; they are the property of themselves and Epic records.
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Benji Madden lay on his bed listening to some music, the words to �Wondering� lingering in the room. He sang along softly, sighing. Despite everything he�d said the song was not about Cash Dogg. It was about unrequited love, the forbidden fruit. Chewing on his lower lip he groaned as his eyes flooded with tears, he couldn�t do this for much longer.
Joel Madden approached his twin�s room and knocked on the door gently. Benji had been in a weird kind of funk lately. He�d been listening to the song Wondering over and over again. �Benj,� He pushed the door open slowly surprised at what he saw.
Lying on the bed was Benji, he was wearing plaid pajama pants, no shirt, his long black hair normally in spikes was hanging down around his face, and eyeliner was running down his cheeks along with tears. Clutched in his left hand was a bottle of vodka. The CD player was set on repeat.
�Oh Benji,� Joel murmured softly, crossing the room. �What have you done to yourself?�
Benji looked at his twin, a drunken smile gracing his face. �I�m just enjoying a little drink bro,� He took a pull off the bottle.
A rush of anger flooded Joel so quickly he barely realized that it was there. �Damnit Benji, you�re supposed to be off al this shit,� He raised his voice.
�Maybe I�ve just given up,� Another drink. �Life is shit blah, blah, blah, I want to die, blah, blah, blah. Kiss my ass and leave me the fuck alone Joel!� Benji shouted in reply.
Joel glared in return, furious. �You want to wallow in your self pity and drown yourself in a fucking bottle then go the fuck ahead. I don�t care anymore,� He left the room slamming the door behind him. A few minutes later Benji�s car roared out of the drive way.
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Billy Martin was startled out his thoughts by a car screeching into his drive way. He made his way to the door, opening it he was shocked to find a red faced, extremely pissed off Madden twin stalking toward his house.
�Joel what�s happening?� He questioned shoving his hands into his pockets.
Pacing Joel mumbled to himself for a little while before answering. �Since we got back from tour Benji has done nothing but mope around the house and listen to the song Wondering over and over again, I already know all the words but now they�re engrained in my head. So anyway today I go into his room and there he is drinking vodka.�
Billy grabbed Joel�s arm. �He�s drinking again?! And you left him alone?! Jesus Christ you can be one dumb fuck sometimes man.�
Joel turned staring at Billy in shock. Billy rarely spoke when it wasn�t needed and when he did it was never to yell at any of them. �What the hell?�
Walking inside Billy put on his shoes and plucked the keys from Joel�s hand. �You stay here. I�ll go there and fix what you screwed up.� He left Joel standing on his front porch looking clueless.
Joel watched Billy drive away. �What did I break?� He asked himself, thinking. �Fuck,� He swore. �Billy doesn�t have a license.�
END OF CHAPTER ONE...
