SERIES : Fire’s Symphony

PAIRING : Spike/Willow

RATING : NC17

SPOILERS : none

DISCLAIMER : I do not own these characters. Nor do I own “Bent” (Matchbox20), “Colorblind” (Counting Crows), “Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing” (Aerosmith), “Tonight and For The Rest of My Life” (Nina Gordon).

NOTES & WARNINGS : gang rape and smut at the end

Chapter Seven : the Little One
Chapter Eight : Tonight & For The Rest Of My Life
Chapter Nine : Promise You

7 – the Little One

TWO MONTHS LATER

She screamed, clutching his hand. “FUCK IT HURTS!” She screamed.

“I’m sorry.”

“SHUT UP YOU BASTARD!” She screamed.

“All women get that way, don’t take it personally.” The doctor said.

“I’ve been called worse.” He stated.

“DRUGS! I WANT DRUGS! I DON’T CARE WHAT!” She screamed.

“Just push, once more, one big push.”

“I can’t.” She whimpered.

“Yes you can. Show us some of that fire Luv.” He said.

“It hurts Spike.”

“Look at my eyes Luv.” She did. “One more push and I promise I’ll start killing if they’re wrong.” She nodded and pushed once more with all her body.

The sounds of crying filled the room as she relaxed. “Does Daddy wanna cut the chord?”

Spike walked to the child who was being cleaned. He took the scissors and cut where they told him. “Bloody amazing.”

“SPIKE?” She cried. He rushed to her side. “Is the baby okay?’

“Yes.”

“Is she really? Is her heart strong?”

He closed his eyes and found his daughter’s right away. “Yes, she’s perfect.”

“She’s a she? Can I hold her?” Just then, her daughter was placed in her arms for the first time. “She’s beautiful. Oh Goddess she’s beautiful. She’s beautiful, isn’t she Spike?”

“Almost as much as her mother.”

TWO WEEKS LATER

She sat in front of the mirror brushing her hair. She knew Spike was in the nursery. She’d heard him get up with Ashley Anne Brady. She smiled. She was glad he’d remembered his last name. She looked herself over, and secured the tie to the robe before heading down the hall.

Willow opened the door to find him in the rocking chair yet again, singing.

“I could stay awake just to hear you breathing. Watch you smile while you are sleeping. While you're far away and dreaming. I could spend my life in this sweet surrender. I could stay lost in this moment forever. Well, every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. I don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep. 'Cause I'd miss you, Baby. And I don't wanna miss a thing. 'Cause even when I dream of you. The sweetest dream would never do. I'd still miss you, Baby and I don't wanna miss a thing.”

He looked down at the sleeping infant. It puzzled him. He had no idea what he had done to deserve this. He never though he’d have children. “Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating, and I'm wondering what you're dreaming, wondering if it's me you're seeing. Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together. And I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever. I don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep. 'Cause I'd miss you, Baby. And I don't wanna miss a thing, 'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do. I'd still miss you, Baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing.”

“Listen Luv. I can’t promise that you won’t get hurt. I can only promise that I’d sooner die than let that happen. I can’t promise you that people won’t leave, because that’s what happens, but *I’ll* never leave you.” He heard Willow. He knew she was there watching and listen. He glanced up as he rocked and sang. Their eyes locked. “I don't wanna miss one smile. I don't wanna miss one kiss. Well, I just wanna be with you. Right here with you, just like this. I just wanna hold you close. Feel your heart so close to mine. And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time.”

She watched as Spike stood up and placed their child in her crib sound asleep, while he continued to sing. “Don't wanna close my eyes. Don't wanna fall asleep. 'Cause I'd miss you, Baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing. 'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do. 'Cause I'd still miss you, Baby and I don't wanna miss a thing.”

He walked over to her and took her hand as they walked back to their room. “I don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep. 'Cause I'd miss you, Baby and I don't wanna miss a thing. 'Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do. I'd still miss you, Baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing.”

Willow leaned up to kiss him as he stripped himself of his shirt. His arms wrapped around her and she just knew. Tonight would be the night they would make love.

8 – Tonight and For the Rest of My Life

Her hands run up his chest and pulled his mouth to hers. His lips were gentle, cool, and soft, moist and sweet. She felt his hands on her hips and for once, she didn’t cringe.

He wanted her so badly. He wanted to taste her fire. He wanted to feel it around him. But they’d started a few times before and she always pulled away. He could accept that. He could understand, but it didn’t stop him from wanting. Her sex hung heavy in the air tonight and he wondered if he could get just a taste, a lick. One lick and he’d be content.

//Down to the earth I fell with dripping wings,
Heavy things won't fly
And the sky might catch on fire
And burn the axis of the world//

She slid her hands down his arms and took her hands in hers. She brought them to her mouth and kissed each finger softly. She looked up at him, into his eyes. He was her love, her light. And if it would be sunless, so be it.

//That's why
I prefer a sunless sky
To the glittering and stinging in my eye//

She placed his hands back on her body, over her buttocks and he pulled her gently into his body a little more. He felt her hands at his zipper as their mouths met. He pulled away. “Luv?”

She smiled softly and pulled him close to her as they began swaying to the music coming from the radio. And she sang, “I feel so light. This is all I wanna feel tonight. I feel so light. Tonight and the rest of my life.”

She held him, her hands gripping his shoulder blades, his large hands on her back. She had his jeans unzipped and he nearly melted at the feel of her lips and tongue on his chest, gently sucking. She engulfed his nipple and sucked gently.

Willow pulled away and led him to her bed, soon to be theirs. “Lay down.” She said and he did. “Gleaming in the darksea, I'm as light as air, floating there breathlessly.” She sang as she lit the lantern on the dresser. She turned back to him and looked into his eyes as she untied the robe. “When the dream dissolves I open up my eyes. I realize that everything is shoreless sea. Weightlessness is passing over me.”

//I feel so light
This is all I wanna feel tonight
I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life//

He watched as the robe floated effortlessly to the ground, revealing the red negligee. He inhaled sharply as he realized the pattern on the silk was fire. He smiled softly at her. “Willow…”

“Everything is waves and stars.” She sang as she crawled up his body to straddle him. She covered his body with hers, “The universe is resting in my arms.”

“You’re so beautiful Willow. You’re my fire.”

“And you’re mine.” She whispered into his ear. “Make love to me Spike. I’m ready.” She said looking into his eyes with tears streaming down her cheeks.

He put his thumb to her cheek to wipe them away. “No need to cry Luv. I won’t hurt you.”

“I know that. I’m just so happy. I think I’m finally ready to give you my body. I’ve wanted to for so long.”

“I know. Just know that we can stop at any time if you want to.”

She nodded. “I know.” He pulled her mouth to his for a kiss, and gently lifted the silk over her head. His mouth captured her left nipple and suckled gently, filling his mouth with her milk. She moaned, never wanting him to stop. He kissed his way up her chest, and over her throat, up to her mouth. As they kissed deeply, massaging tongues, he slowly flipped them over. She whimpered as he blazed a trail of wet kisses down her body. She’d made love orally before, but as his tongue lapped at the beginnings of her arousal, she cried. His hands were on her thighs and down her legs, feather light touches.

He heard her crying. “Are you okay Luv?”

“I feel so alive. This is all I wanna feel tonight. I feel so light. Tonight and the rest of my life.”

He continued lapping at her, sucking on her engorged clit, sliding his fingers gently inside her tight grasping passage as he brought her to the brink of orgasm. He denied her release a second, and then began kissing and licking once more. She shuddered and trembled as he took her closer once again. She moaned and gasped, crying out in pleasure, and he brought her release and drank down what he could.

She felt him collapse between her legs as she regained her senses. “William?” She asked. She’d come to call him by his real name in the past couple months as they’d grown closer.

“Yes Luv?” He replied, crawling up her body.

“Are you okay?”

“Just enjoying you in my mouth.”

“Can I taste?” She asked, pulling his mouth to hers. She tasted herself on him as they stared into each other’s eyes. “Make love to me?” She asked.

“Of course my love, my fire goddess. Anything you wish. Are you sure?”

“Mm hmm.” She nodded as she felt the head of his hardened shaft at her sopping entrance. “I’m ready.” She affirmed once more as she slowly eased his way inside. She gasped, and bit back the tears as he filled and stretched her completely.

When he was fully encased within her, he waited for her signal. As she adjusted to his length and girth, and fought the internal war, he licked the tears off her cheeks.

“Okay.” She whispered as she arched into his body.

He started gently rocking his hips, thrusting ever so slightly into her body. Her hands were rubbing his back as he gently made love to her. Their eyes were locked as he watched the fear, and love, passion and lust flash through her eyes. They both relived that night that had changed their lives so completely. And for the first time, she could see beyond it, truly beyond it.

She was sweating as he picked the pace up slightly, and she met him thrust for thrust as he moved inside her. She squeezed him and he purred continuously. Fingers gripped his shoulders and she bit her bottom lip. “You okay?” She nodded.

He felt his impending orgasm, but held off for her. He slid in and out of her welcoming, inviting body as he carried her to orgasm. She began writhing underneath him, never losing eye contact with him and she nodded. He moved faster and she whimpered and moaned, whispering his name. “William…”

She contracted around him, as she spasmed and he felt her release.

She felt his cool essence enter her body, as gently as he had.

He fell never to her and gathered her quivering body in his arms as they slept the night away.

9 – Promise You

ONE WEEK LATER

“Does it hurt?” He asked.

“Not anymore than when you do it. A little less actually because the baby doesn’t have fangs.”

He watched his lover breast-feeding their child. “I don’t bite you. I’ve never.”

She looked directly at him and said, “what if I want you to?”

He was frozen. He couldn’t say anything, he just smiled, and then answered. “What if I want to?”

“What if I let you?”

“What if I like it?” He asked.

“What if *I* like it?” She challenged.

His jeans were suddenly tight at the thought of biting his fire during sex. “You keep talkin’ that way and Ashley won’t get her lunch.” He quipped.

“Then I’d better stop.”

He got up and slid in behind her on the couch. His hands slid around her waist, upward to cup her breasts. He held them to their daughter. “Here Luv, let me help.” He said, kissing her neck, lightly nipping.

“Stop it Will. You keep that up and the baby is never getting any Mommy time.”

“She’s done. Wanna take her to her room? I’ll meet you in ours wearing nothing but a smile.”

“When you put it that way, I’ll see you in a few minutes.” He took their daughter from her arms and carried her towards her bedroom. Willow stood up and stretched. It had been a long road to the safety she felt in his arms. He was the father of her daughter, nothing else matter but their love for each other and their daughter.

He’d brought her back to the light. She quietly snuck up on him and watched him rock the sleeping infant. He didn’t know that she always followed him to watch. He said he’d be quick, but she knew he had a hard time putting the little girl down. They both had a hard time letting her go for an instant. She watched as he sang, “When the visions around you bring tears to your eyes. And all that surrounds you are secrets and lies, I'll be your strength. I'll give you hope, keeping your faith when it's gone. The one you should call when standing here all alone. And I will take you in my arms. And hold you right where you belong.

Until the day my life is through, this I promise you. This I promise you.”

He was beautiful holding their daughter. And as she walked back down the hall to their room, she smiled. She stripped quickly and climbed into their inviting bed. She closed her eyes, *just for a minute.* She thought. *He’ll be in a minute.*

He walked down the hall and smiled as he saw his sleeping lover. “I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before. And I promise you, never will you hurt anymore. I give you my word. I give you my heart. This is a battle we've won, and with this vow forever has now begun.” He stripped and climbed in next to her, she began to stir. “Just close your eyes each loving day. And know this feeling won't go away. Till the day my life is through, this I promise you. This I promise you.”

Willow lifted her head and nuzzled into him, placing her head on his chest. She draped her leg over his, and her arm across his stomach. She whispered, “Over and over I thought, when I hear you call, without you in my life baby I just wouldn't be living at all.”

//And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you//

She closed her eyes as he rubbed her bare back. “I love you.” She whispered before placing a gentle kiss on his cool skin. “Incende.” She said pointing at the candles in the room, and they lit. She smiled. He’d given her back her life. He’d saved her and given her back the joy she once had. He’d restored her faith.

She slowly fell back asleep in her lover’s arms. He listened to the quiet sounds of her breathing, the slow and steady heartbeat were soothing to him. He could hear her body, the sounds of her life, her blood, her stomach, her muscles. Her sounds sung him to sleep. It was like an opera, no a symphony. The sounds of her body, her laughter, her giggles, her moans, her whining about changing diapers, the sound she made in the shower, the light from her eyes when he came home, it was all a magic he’d never known before.

He kissed her fire-red hair and held her tight, but something was missing. He got up quietly and she stirred. “Just close your eyes each loving day, and know this feeling won't go away. Till the day my life is through, this I promise you. This I promise you.”

Spike walked back down the hallway and climbed into bed. Willow put her arm around him and their daughter and right before they fell asleep they whispered, “Every word I say is true. This I promise you. Ooh I promise you.”

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