Silent screamming
You can hear me
Laughing, dying
simultaneously.
You think you're so good
While I sit here lonely
Scratching my skin off.
You don't know my
There's a lack of air in here
Face is bleeding
I don't know anymore
Insulting, annoying
And outta sight
I think I know why you're so blind....
Imposters we are
Sceaming and giggling
Living and crying
Loving, denying.
Ha! It will be a kick in the lung
You'll start bleeding
After I've sung.
You'll know what you're needing,
I don't know what you're reading,
I think your thoughts need weeding
And we'll make sure you're bleeding.
Imposters we are
Screaming and giggling
Living and crying
Loving, denying
I know now what you're needing.
You know just what you're reading.
I'll make your thoughts need weeding
And now and forever, we'll keep bleeding.
Imposters and fakes
Cry and deny
Take, dominate
Laugh and die.
Laugh and die.
Possibly Forgotten
Memories I've never had,
That's all I have inside my head.
Gazing in wonder at what's never there,
Listening and feeling
At what's never there.
Sleeping at night,
Winning the fight,
Touching your hair
And not feeling scared.
And kissing in the rain.
I think I may be insane!
Sometimes I wake up with a tear in my eye,
Sometimes I'm afraid I just might die
'Cause all I have to take with me
Are my nonexistant memories.
Confused Identities
Sometimes you people make me wonder.
I'm not like you.
None of you are like me.
We're not the same.
I don't understand why.
And I never will.
Ever.
Until the day I wither from this world.
I walk through the woods and see flowers and trees.
My love for what's peaceful never shall cease.
But I don't understand what's wrong with you.
Everything is so fast.
It makes me wish for tomorrow to come faster..
It's such a zound.
It makes me more like them.
You and I will never be the same.
This hateful world exists to blame.
When, Why, How
When you entered my mind
You just couldn't leave.
When I walk in front of you
You still can't see me.
When I scream out your name
You can't hear me anyways.
When will I wake up?
Why won't you leave me alone?
So you can put me in more pain?
Why can't you see me?
Do you think I'm not sane?
Why can't you understand
The feeling you put me in?
Why won't I wake up?
How can I forget
Every time I saw your face?
How will you see me?
Maybe I'm not good enough for you.
How will you find out about
My existance and love for you?
How can I wake up?
Growing Up
Suffering and loss all around me
Pain and suffering deep inside me
Nowhere to hide
Somehow I can see your face
Somehow I'm still breathing
I see the world and I don't like it.
I see myself and I don't like it.
Ignorance is a blessing, my friend.
Pain and Healing
You look at your reflection in my eyes
And don't like what you see.
You don't want to be what you've become
But you're still dear to me.
Why must we breathe?
Why can't we speak?
Why did you come to me?
What can't you see?
Come, friend, to a place where we can hide
Leaving the light, sounds, and lies
Where I can hold your hand
And make you happy.
I will make you love yourself
No matter who you are
Or what you may be
And I will love you more.
Now We Know
And next when I see you
You're killing me softly
And you don't know how it feels
Your words are lies
Your cares are false
And now we know its good-bye
I'm lost inside this void called hell
And you don't even care what happens
You ignore me, neglect me and leave me
Wondering
What the fuck did I ever do to you?
I think about the times we've spent
The joys we've had the tears we cried
Together
Now you're away
And now I have nobody
Nobody to need me
All the times I've talked senseless
You listened. I still do.
But I know you're not listening
Your words are lies
Your cares are false
And now we know it's good-bye
Eternal Guidance
I remember a long time
Ago when you used to reach
Out and touch my hand as
We walked home together from a
Long and titing day
Of messing up in life
There were things we didn't
Understand but we didn't
Care it was only a part of
Life and we accepted it
I remember the warmth and
Guidance your hand gave
Me as we talked nonsense and
Nobody cared
Sometimes I think about
Those times and now I understand
The things that were impossible
To touch and I dream about
How we'll walk together after
Messing up once again.
Lies
Thanks for the kind thought
Fuck that.
I know that's what you think I expected
(which I did)
But I knew it wasn't out of kindness
If you really cared
You would've helped me long ago
Keeping me out of the situation I fell into
But all you give me is sympathy
How do I know if it's really true?
There's nothing I hate more than a liar
But I smile when I hear what you think
Maybe you do want my scars to heal
Tears of joy leak from my eyes
And lisen to words I think
Come from the bottom of your heart
I really hate you fucking liars.
Reality
Impossible to human eyes
But possible in my mind
Live the things I consider to be real
Deep inside my heart
Dwell beasts, heroes,
Magic and the twisted lives of lovers
Which I see when I dwell within myself
And my faithful pen.
Even in this imaginary world
I see the bitchy girl
His sparkling eyes
The innocent child
And your enchanting smile.
Two worlds collide and make one.
My reality might be a lie for all I know.
Obsession
I don't know what I want
Give me the desire I keep hidden in my heart
Give me everything the happiest man alive has
Give me the world
But I want more.
I've already had a small amount enter my life
It was enjoyable
I can remember every moment again
It was wonderful
But I want more.
I might like this, I may love it
But what the hell is love anyways?
Give me anything I might "love"
But I still don't know what it is
But I want more.
My obsession is not knowing what my obsession is
When I'm Ready
The only place I want to be
Is a place where I can hide
Far from you and you and
You and you
I want to be by myself, in myself, with myself
A place where I can think
About all the hate and neglectance you gave me
The only one I can trust is
Myself and not you
There I will stay for hours
Until I am ready to see
The hate and neglectance society has to give me
But I don't know when that is
Probably never
Most likely never
Alone I will remain
Sharing secrets with myself
And only myself
Keeping myself separated from the rest of you people.
I'm really not much of a people person.
Suicide
You don't know how scared I am
To wake up and see you're not there.
I didn't mean to take out my anger and sadness
And make you try to deal with it.
But it was my fault,
I was a negatice influence
Just because I didn't give a shit about anything.
You were such a good listener
You kew about my problems
You were there when I couldn't pull through
And held my hand and
Made sure I didn't stumble.
You almost did it.
Too bad you didn't help yourself
And I wasn't there to help you.
You were there when I couldn't pull through
You held my hand
And I wasn't there to help you.
We all miss you
It's okay to feel sad and alone.
We do care but we don't know how to show it
We all miss the burden of our tears
And our shoulder to cry on.
I think we'll all miss you
And the gap you left behind will never be mended.
You were there when I couldn't pull through
You held my hand
And I wasn't there to help you.
I'll have an appointment with your blade tonight
And meet you in heaven in the morning.
Revenge is Sweet
I bet you can remember me.
If only you could see me now.
My dreams have all come true
But what about yours?
It all went wrong.
I knew it would.
Not my problem.
You deserved it.
Life was sweet and you took advantage of it all.
You don't have anything left.
We all saw it coming.
But didn't feel like telling you.
